Spike walked into Buffy house only to be heart broken, again.

"Buffy!" Spike gasped as he watched Xander and Buffy kissing passionately. Xander lay on top of her. Buffy tried to push him away.

"Spike! Oh my god, Spike…I'm so sorry! I.. Oh no."

"Don't…say anything." Spike walked away with unbearable pain seeping into his heart. Buffy rushed up to Spike on the street.

"Spike, just tell me one more time that you love me, and I'll stay. Otherwise, I'm leaving 'cause I've caused you too much pain." Tears filled Buffy's eyes and she wiped them away.

"I…I love…I can't bring myself to say it, pet. I'm sorry." Then he mumbled, "Really mine, eh?"

"Spike, I will never ever forget what I did to you, and I will always remember you." Buffy turned and wandered off into the road, hoping to catch a ride. Spike left, miserable than ever.

Spike threw the half-full beer bottle at the wall opposite of him. Dark liquid streamed down the white wall. Why did I let her go? Why didn't I just tell her I loved her? Now Buffy's gone and it's my entire bloody fault. How could I be so stupid! Letting go of such a caring, loving person! I will hate myself for eternity for doing that. Spike was furious with himself. Yeah, she hurt me, but so what? As long as she still loved me, everything was fine, right? Spike lay down on the bed, and noticed Buffy's black-leather was next to him. She left it…for me to find? Spike picked it up and smelled it. It smelled of vanilla, exactly what Buffy smelled like everyday. He pulled out a stake from her pocket, a bottle of pepper spray and a condom. Spike smiled to himself. She always had protection. God I love her. Just let her come back to me. With that, the door opened and Buffy walked in. Spike looked curiously up at the ceiling, than back at the Slayer. He jumped up and shouted, "I love you! You, you, you, you!"

" I left my jacket…can I have it?"

"Aren't you…coming back to me and we live happily ever after?"

"No…I need to leave. To make new memories and start a new life. I said my good-byes, and now I should be off…after this." Buffy walked over to Spike and gave him a bear hug. He smiled slightly and felt something slide down his cheek. A tear. He pulled away and turned around.

"Spike, hon, I know you're crying. It's ok to cry, ya know? Jesus, look at me! Tears are streaming down my face!" Buffy laughed, trying to cover up her pain and Spike looked up.

"Buffy, it's ok to feel pain. Look into my eyes and you'll see 120 years worth it, pet."

" Spike, I love you, and will always love you and remember you. I will cherish our memories, times we shared, and I will miss you."

"Same here, love."

"Bye!" She waved and left him alone. Completely alone and sad.

As soon as the door shut, he let out a sob. He hid his face into his cold hands and screamed furiously.

"NO!!!!" Spike tasted salty water spill into his mouth. Why has she done this to me? His headed was throbbing by the time he finished crying.