Part 12

I stood looking at her grave, wondering if she would be proud of me. Although, I had a feeling that she would be ashamed. I was not the daughter that she longed for. I was not the daughter that a mother would want. I was not a mother that a daughter would want.

I sobbed, falling to my knees. I was a broken women.

I longed to have known my mother, to hear her giggle the way Matt said when I did something cute. But, I would never have any memories of her. All I had of her were the tells Matt and Jeff and Dad told me, which was often.

I think that's what hurt the most, hearing about someone who created me but I never knew.

"Oh, Mom..." I sodded, leaning over and kissing the small tomb stone that had her name and dates on it. "Would you be proud of your daughter? How could you?" I sniffled, pushing my hair from my face. "How could you be proud when I killed my un-born child?"

"Eden?" I heard.

I turning, I saw Shannon, Matt, Jeff, Shane, and Amy standing, looking sad and worried. Standing up, I hissed at them to go away.

"No." Shannon growled, moving quickly to me. He tried to pull me into his arms but I pulled away. "Eden, stop this. It ain't wealth it."

I snapped. "Ain't wealth it!? Shannon, how would you feel if the life that had grown inside you was killed because you were stupid?" I pushed him, knocking him to her rear. "I wanna die!"

"Eden!" Jeff cried, trying to move to me but I turned and ran.

I ran and ran and ran, never looking back. I had to get away. Knowing that there was a brook near by, I went to it.

It was a deep brook, about eight feet deep in the middle. The bridge was a bout seven feet and had black guarding around it. I sighed and leaned over it.

"Eden, stop!" I heard Matt scream at me.

Shannon was the closest to me, tears running down his cheeks. Amy was crying for me to stop and think about what I was doing. Shane was yelling for me to stop. Jeff was tying to just get to me.

I turned back to the guarding and pushed myself over. I was falling in slow motion. My life flashed before my eyes. It stopped on Shannon, showing his love for me in his eyes. Tears fells from me as I thought about how I let everyone down.

My body hit the water with a sick thud. My body burned from the force as I flew to the bottom of the eight foot brook.

I was going to die.


Part 13


I was letting the blackness grip me as I began to chock on the water that filled my lungs. Suddenly, I felt arms wrap around my waist and began to pull me to the surface of the water. I tried to fight it, but they were too strong.

I gasped as my head broke the surface, filling my lungs with sweet air. I moaned and shook my head to clear up my brain.

"Eden, are you okay?" I heard Shannon whisper.

"Why?" I chocked out.

"Let's get you onto dry land." He muttered.

He tightened his grip on my waist, pulling me to land. When it got knee level, he stood up and carried my onto the shore. Plopping down, he threw me onto his lap, nuzzling my neck and wetting it with his tears.

"Why Shannon?" I asked again, crying that he had stopped me.

"I can't live without you, Eden." He murmured, chocking softly on his tears.

"I can't live knowing that I have nothing to live for." I muttered, shaking with the hurt.

"You have me, baby." He muttered.

He leaned his head up and looked deep into my eyes. Wrapping his right hand around the hair at the nape of my neck, he brought my lips down into a bruising kiss. His lips worked my, sliding his tongue into play with mine.

Pulling from me, he began to rock back and forth, whispering over and over how he would never leave me and that I had him in my life forever.

I hoped that I would have him in my life forever.


Part 14

I watched as Rai and Matt kissed softly on our front porch. It took me back to those monthes ago when I threw myself off a bridge. My heart was broken then, but it was being fixed. Day but day my life got easier.

Vince made me see a shrink after that, making sure that I was okay.

My dad threw a fit and said that if I ever did that again, he would shot himself and spank me in the after life.

Jeff and Matt became very over protective, watching out for me where ever I went.

Amy stood near me alot, often helping Rai kick my depression's ass.

Shane would be his weird self and make me giggle.

And, Shannon. He would hold me and be with me through it all. He loved me and I him.

Pete got the crap beat out of him by Jeff a few days after my miss carriage. Jeff had a match with him and broke his nose and ribs. It took half the locker room to pull him off!

As I continued to watch Rai and Matt make out, I wondered to myself how funny life could be. One minute you are happy and the next you are in pain. Right there, I was happy. But, I knew that pain was coming soon. But, what would that mean for me and Shannon? Rai and Matt? Me and my brothers? I did not know but it would not be good.