Here we are again! I originally planned on having a three part Kaito/Kenato but the last part was so long that I HAD to split it into two. So this part will have: More squishy Kenato/Kaito (he is the Kaiser right now!) one-sided Taito, swearing, strong Yaoi, and Lime! Don't like? Why are you in the third chapter? It only gets more Yaoi as you go! Okay, any way, I appreciate reviews, take requests, blah blah blah!
An Angel finds its way (Part 3): the hidden
I woke up with arms around me. It felt so good, to be held that way, even with my ribs. I let my eyes fluttered open to see Ken looking back at me with a smile on his face, this sweet glimmer in those violet eyes. His hand stroked my cheek and I caught his fingertips in a butterfly kiss before he ran those fingers through my blonde hair, making me shiver. " Good morning, Ken. "
" Morning, angel. ", he whispered in my ear. " Sleep well? "
" Were you here all night like this? "
" Hai. "
" Then, yes, I did. ", I giggled softly, kissing his tender lips. He eagerly returned the kiss deepening it with his tongue while a moan escaped my throat. I let my fingers run through his indigo hair, enjoying his silky locks as he rolled to be on top of me. I never cared when he was on top of me, I didn't want to be in control, not yet, not when I might hurt myself, or do something that might hurt him. I loved how his hands would caress my body as he kept me close to him, his arms so sheltering that I wanted to melt into them. When his lips pulled back from mine I was breathless, yet I whispered. " The Kaiser isn't angry about us getting close is he? I mean, I don't know if he has something planned to do with me but- "
" He knows and he doesn't care. He just wants you not to run around on your ankle until it's healed. ", the boy holding me cut in with a gentle smile. Then his finger traced my cheek, over my lips, and lifted my chin so our mouths were so close I could almost feel them. " I know it's hard to believe, but it's true. "
" I have to thank him sometime. ", I murmured, mesmerized by his eyes. I could have looked into that gaze forever. " I mean, if it weren't for him, I would never have met you, Ken. Strange as it sounds, I'm glad I got left behind after that battle. I'm not glad I got hurt, but I am glad that I was brought here. I've never felt like this before, hell, I didn't know I felt this way until you…you kissed me for the first time. I'm almost sorry that someday this will end. Someday I'll heal and- "
" Please, Yama, don't talk about that now. "
" But, Ken, shouldn't we talk about that? I mean, it is gonna happen so- "
" Shhhh. " He put a finger over my lips before he began to kiss my neck, making me temporarily forget why I had been talking in the first place. I was happy here, even if some people might find it wrong because I was behind enemy lines. If it were Taichi here he would have refused any help from the Kaiser, would have rejected Ken's friendship, and remained defiant every second he remained here. I couldn't have done that. Unlike when I first came to the Digital world I needed people around me now, I liked having people around me who cared about me, and with all the pain I had been in when the Emperor first found me I wouldn't have turned any type of healing away. I couldn't help but moan as his tongue parted my lips twisting in my mouth and I could help but want more.
He was now holding both sides of my face, kissing me with this hunger that seemed to be burning inside of him. I could feel it in his hands, his lips, the way his body was pressed against mine. Then I felt it, his fingers moving, tracing down my chest, over my slender waist, to the line of my pants, and playing with the buttons.
' He's asking permission. ', my mind slowly realized as I slipped my tongue past his teeth, getting a soft moan from deep inside his throat. I knew for a fact that what Ken was doing was turning me on, he had been this whole time even though I'd been trying to control myself. I so wanted relief, the bulge in my pants almost hurt now, but I wasn't ready to really sleep with Ken. I loved him, but I couldn't just yet. I pulled my face away gently. " Wait…. I'm sorry…. I'm not ready. "
" How about this then? " And then he leaned down by my head, whispering a suggestion in my ear. Then I felt his fingers pass between my legs. He had me. I nodded to his suggestion, a smile on my lips when I saw his eyes light up. For a moment I regretted telling him yes, but then he kissed me again and all my doubts, my regrets, just vanished. I loved him. It was just that plain and simple, so I wanted to make him happy, just like I'm sure he wanted to do for me. As his tongue traced the insides of my mouth I felt his hands undoing my pants, and as there became less pressure on my hard-on I had to moan into the kiss. I could feel him smile against my lips, and I wrapped my arms tightly around him, needed him closer.
There was a giggle deep in Ken's throat, and soon my pants were off. He certainly wasn't wasting time. I wanted this so much, even though I wasn't willing to go all the way just yet. I loved Ken, and this felt incredible! How he could be so gentle yet so hungry, so loving yet so needy at the same time was beyond me and when he began to take off my boxers I had to whimper at the feeling.
" So beautiful… ", he whispered before I felt him kiss the insides of my thighs. I was shivering and shaking and in a total fit of pleasure as he blew on my hard member, torturing me even more. How could he do this to me?
" Ken…please! ", I begged softly. I could feel his eyes one me then.
Nothing, absolutely nothing could describe what it was like when his mouth enveloped my hard-on and began to suck gently. I was wiggling underneath him, trying so hard not to buck my hips but it was so hard! I wanted more! He was rolling his tongue around my hard member and I was ready to burst at that second but I held on, wanting to savor this. He was being so gentle, so loving, god I was melting! " Oh, Ken…I love you Ken…I…love you… "
I came into his mouth seconds later, whimpering softly. My eyes were heavy, but I remember that before I fell asleep he dressed me, somewhat, and then wrapped me up in his arms, kissing my lips and letting me drift off in his arms.
" I love you too, Yamato. ", he said softly, running his fingers through my hair. I had never felt so safe, and nothing had ever felt so right. I wanted to stay here forever. But what's that saying? All good things come to an end? I hope not.
* * *
" Look, you guys don't understand! I know it was the Kaiser! I bet anything he's holding Yama hostage right now, and has been the whole time! We have to go save him! ", I exclaimed, frustrated with the entire group. After chasing Ken out of Yamato's apartment building I rallied everyone together at my apartment so we could go to the digital world and save Yamato. " Please you guys! Think how long he's been there! Think how badly that bastards hurt him since he kidnapped him! We can't leave him there any longer! We have to go and get him out of there! "
" Taichi, you have to understand, we've never been to the Kaiser's base before! We could be setting ourselves up to get us all captured. ", Koushiro tried to reason with me from where he sat. " We have to think this through. "
" What's to think about? He's our friend! ", Daisuke protested.
" But if we all get taken down who will save him? ", Iori countered.
" Okay then, I see your point but please, let's not waist anytime. Let's get in there now! ", I insisted. " He could be in trouble! We need to help him soon. "
It took two days to have everything prepared. Despite how much I wanted to help my beloved I even had to agree that we needed to know where to attack and rescue him from. Within those two days we were ready, and we knew exactly where we were going. Ken must not have gotten rid of Yama's digivice because when Gabumon and Augumon went out to scout where his signal came from, they found a huge castle and even spotted the Emperor leaving to go out and do evil. Everything was going to work out, at least that was what Hikari kept telling me.
In two teams we were going to hit the castle. Daisuke, Miyako, Iori, Jyou, and Mimi, who would be taking a digi-port from America and join up with us, would provide the distraction the second team needed to get inside. I led the second team, which consisted of Sora, Koushiro, Takeru, and Hikari, and we would do our best to storm inside the castle and find Yamato. I liked the plan. It was simple, direct, and would most likely bring Yamato back to us so I was all for it. Our digimon would be staying out to help battle, all of our digimon, so it would be just us Digidestined going inside. Hopefully we would be all right without them because Koushiro was betting on we would only encounter the Digimon Kaiser and not any of his more deadly servants. I just wanted to find Yama.
We went straight to the Digital world after Koushiro finished explaining everything in as much detail as we could take with his vocabulary. I was probably the most anxious to get there. Our digimon, at least the original groups' digimon, met us as soon as we entered their world. Augumon looked as ready as I was for a fight. When I asked everyone if they were ready they all nodded. "Then let's go. "
We separated and went with our groups towards the fortress. I kept having to tell myself that we had thought this plan through thoroughly and we wouldn't fail. We couldn't fail today. Yamato needed us and we had to help him, we were the only one's who could. And then I'd make that Kaiser pay, once I was sure Yama was alright, I would make that creep pay for what he had done. Once and for all.
* * *
I was in the control room, so I saw them coming. They had come to the Digital world and were headed straight for my castle, their digimon battle ready, splitting up as if they could have surprised me. I had maybe twenty minutes before at least one group made it to my doorstep. Without thinking, I pressed a button on my keyboard to send a small bunch of Monochromon to keep them busy, even though I knew it wouldn't hold them back. And that's when it hit me:
They'd come for Yamato.
' Of course they've come for Yamato, you knew they would. And don't they all look so happy to be charging towards your castle? ', that voice in my head taunted.
I felt this tug at my heart. They were going to come here and try to take him from me! They would burst here and be ready for a full out war to rescue him. If he went with them, would he tell them? About how I had nurtured him back to health, and how I-how Ken had fallen in love with him? What would they say?
' You knew this day would come. You told yourself you would not get attached to him, and now it's too late. You love him, and you have to let him go, you can't keep him away from his friends and family forever. Let him go. ', the voice remarked sensibly, and I hated it for that. I just kept staring at the screen. Taichi was coming, and I could see even though it was on a computer skin that he was furious. ' You're not afraid of him, are you, Oh mighty Kaiser? He's just another Digidestined, just like Daisuke, or even Hikari. Is it that he attacked you? Or that you've seen the way he looks at the keeper of Friendship? The same looks that you gaze at him with! '
Damn it's taunting. I wasn't afraid of Taichi, or any of them, but I was…afraid that when Yamato left… he'd forget me. ' Will he forget me? '
' You expect me to know that? '
' I thought you might…hoped you would… ', I replied bitterly.
" Master, don't you see the Digidestined approaching? ", Wormmon asked me from at my side. I had honestly forgotten he was even in the room. I was so shocked that I was about to lose the one person I'd loved, I'd forgotten everything. Why did my heart hurt so much? I was about to lose an angel…my first love…
" Wormmon, tell our guest he needs to come up here. "
' This is for the best…I shouldn't have gotten close… '
* * *
I could tell by how Wormmon came rushing in and told me that the Kaiser needed to see me. I had been thinking about a lot when he came in, and just as I had come to a conclusion, he rushed in. As best as I could I followed the green little worm upstairs and into the control room. The Kaiser was at his computer, and I could see from where I stood in the doorway that he had called me up because of the others. They were surrounding the castle, fighting off the Digimon Emperor's servants to attempt to gain access. My knees felt weeks, and I have no idea why I reacted the way I did but a rush of words I cried out, " No! I can't go! "
" Yamato… ", The indigo haired dictator moved and helped me stand, supporting me under the arm, but I barely noticed. He sat me down in his chair, but all I could do was shake my head. I couldn't go, I couldn't! I might never see Ken again! Somehow I caught the Kaiser's gaze, and I thought I saw tears in his eyes.
" You have to go. ", he said softly, pulling and looking away from me.
"But- "
" You have to leave, damn it! I will not have my fortress compromised by a presence that I never should have brought here! Get out! Get the hell out! ", he screamed suddenly, his eyes burning, his tone harsh. I was shocked, and almost flinched in the seat. He turned his back to me. " Just get out, Yamato. "
I looked him over for a second, then stood, my fear gone. I had no idea what I was doing, and if I was wrong he might not let me leave after this, but I didn't care. I had to know. Without hesitation, I spun the emperor around and kissed him firmly, wrapping my arms around him. He tried to protest, but after a moment, I felt his hands going through my hair and he began to return my caress, giving me the perfect opening. I tore his visor from his face, only pulling back enough to see his face. He looked at me horrified, and I only grinned at him. I should have seen it before, should have known, but maybe it was better I hadn't known until now. The Kaiser was really my Ken, the boy I was in love with. He probably thought I'd hate him if I knew, but could I really hate him after all that had happened?
I kissed him again, and he felt shocked at first, then leaning into it, moaning. I was trying to say good-bye with my lips. So was he. We both knew that we couldn't be together yet, but it seemed as if we stayed in each others' arms the moment would never end and we could stay there forever, holding one another. Then, he gently pushed me away, his eyes full of tears. " You-you have to go… "
" I will find a way to repay you someday, Ken. You and the Kaiser you pretend to be. Someday, I'll be able to thank you. ", I whispered, brushing my lips to his one last time before turning to go. I couldn't look back, so I ran. I ran from his control room, ran from where I had spent so much time with Ken, ran from some of the happiest and hardest days of my life, right to the door just as it burst open. I gasped, only to see Taichi, Sora, Takeru, Hikari, Koushiro, and their digimon all looking as if they were ready to kill anything in their paths.
" Yamato! ", Taichi exclaimed in shock.
Before I could move, Takeru was hugging me, laughing and asking me if I were okay. Gabumon was hugging my leg, just as happy to see me. They hadn't expected me to just coming running out I guess. Taichi seemed happy to see me too, but then he said we had to get out of there, we could still be in danger. I really doubted that, but I let Takeru and Gabumon lead me out of there, trying to resist the urge to look back. Was it this hard for Ken? Did his heart hurt too?
" Don't worry, Yama. No one's following us. ", Taichi told me, having seen me give up and look back, just as we met up with the others. They were all amazed to see me. I just wanted to Ken. Gabumon looked worried about me by the time we got to the gate, and as they were preparing to open it, making sure we were ready to leave. Takeru was watching me, but I was only sitting with my digimon.
" Are you all right, Yamato? ", he asked me softly, so only I could hear. Loved Gabumon, I really do, but I couldn't tell him. " You look upset. "
" Gabu…I… " I wished I could tell him, but what would he say? He pulled me into a hug, trying to comfort me, if even a little. I saw Taichi looking at me strangely, but then Miyako opened the gate. It was time to go home. Home, away from Ken. Would he forget me? I made a vow not to forget him, or my promise.
* * *
I couldn't help but feel bad for Yamato. As soon as he walked into his apartment with Takeru and me, he was almost smothered by his parents. We had given him a good alibi on the way here, even though he barely seemed to be listening to any of us. Because we were worried, and so was Gabumon, he reverted to Tsunomon and was with Patamon in Takeru's backpack to come with us. He'd be staying with Yamato for the night, and because everything was so hectic, I somehow ended up saying I'd spend the night as well. It took us a while, but finally, Yama's dad let us go to his room. His brother had stashed Tsunomon there because their mom had taken the younger boy home just a little while ago.
" Do you want me to lay out a sleeping bag, or should we just share a bed? ", I asked him after we were in our pajamas. Ever since his dad had stopped hounding him, he'd gotten really quiet, and that only made me worried. What had that creep the Kaiser done to him? He looked so distant. Wasn't he happy to be home?
" Whatever. ", he mumbled.
" Yama… " He just looked at me. Tsunomon was seated next to his thigh, and he looked worried about his human counterpart. In the azure of my beloved's eyes I could see tears, and instinct took over me. I leaned down and kissed him, one hand rested on his thigh, the other on his cheek, caressing his soft lips. He pulled back suddenly, his eyes wide and startled, and I realized that maybe that hadn't been the smartest move I'd ever made. ' Stupid, stupid, stupid! '
" Taichi… "
" Yamato, I'm sorry, I just…I've been holding this in so long…I need to tell you now or I may never get it out. ", I blurted out, picking up where he had trailed off. I wanted so much to wrap my arms around him. " I love you. I've loved you for so long, but I thought that you might hate me and I'd lose my best friend…and… "
" Taichi, I'm so sorry. " I barely heard him say that before his eyes finally met mine. I wasn't sure I could take what he was about to say. " I don't hate you, but I've…never thought of you that way. And there's someone else. "
I felt my heart shatter. He didn't hate me, but Yamato didn't love me either. He gave me a hug, apologizing again, but I made myself put him at arms length, laughing and saying that he didn't need to be sorry. I was the one that should be sorry. I knew that now. Slowly, awkwardly, we got ready for bed, then lying down together on his mattress, the covers pulled up around us. He'd promised the group that he would tell us what happened later, that right now wasn't the time. I couldn't help but wonder what the Kaiser had done to him while he'd been his prisoner. What twisted things did Yamato have to endure? I guess I'd have to wait until he was ready to reveal all, but until then, I could worry. And who was this someone else? Who had claimed Yamato before I even had the chance to try?
' Well, now it's too late. I guess this is better than if he hated me for loving him. At least we can still be friends this way. ', I thought to myself, watching him sleep on his side of the bed, holding a snoring Tsunomon to his chest. But deep down, no matter how much logic could try to console me, I'd let an angel slip through my fingers. I was too late to love the one treasure I had taken for granted.
* * *
Wormmon found his master in the darkness of the control room. His computers had taken the brunt of his emotions, smashed, and sparks flickering every once and a while coming from the wires. He looked around when he first entered, letting his big blue eyes adjust, then assessing the damage. Everything had been destroyed, and there was only one sound to be heard. There were heart-wrenching sobs coming from the corner of the room, and as he moved closer, he saw the form of the boy who called himself the Digimon Kaiser huddled there, sobbing into the knees he'd drawn up to his chest. His visor had been shattered on the floor at his feet, most likely the last thing he had destroyed before being consumed in grief. The small caterpillar like creature moved closer to him. " Master… "
" Please…just leave me alone. ", Ken, the high and mighty emperor, whispered in between tears, unable to hold back his emotions like before. Yamato was gone, back to the real world, to his family, and his friends. He was alone again.
" But, Ken… " Usually Wormmon wouldn't have dared say his real name.
" Just leave me. ", the boy managed before sobbing again. At any other time, the small rookie level would have obeyed, but seeing Ken like this, in complete shambles, made him remember the Ken he'd met a long time ago. The lost little boy that needed him and was his friend. He was still that little boy, lost and alone. Doing the opposite of what he had been told, the green little the digimon snuggled against his master's leg, trying to be of some comfort. For a second, Ken didn't react, just cried, but he shocked the digital monster when he picked him up, holding him close to his chest as he cried. " Why did I let him go, Wormmon? It hurts… "
" It's okay, Ken, I promise it will be okay. "
But he had no idea how to make it okay.
To be continued:
Sorry about the long wait everyone, but was it worth it? There's only one part left now! That, of course will be Lemon!!!!!!! Yeah, I know, I have a lot of other stories to do, but this one will be done soon. I promise! Please review, and please send it to my e-mail too if it's not too much trouble! It's at yamato795@hotmail.com
