A/N: forgot the disclaimer… I do not own Rurouni Kenshin, someone with actual talent does… neither do I own the song "Amor Eterno" performed by Pandora and written by Juan Gabriel… blah blah blah…
'No...no... no, no, no...'
It was all his mind wanted to think about right now. He wanted to think that the scene before him was not true. It was a dream, no, a horrible nightmare. But, it could not be true. 'turn away. Don't look.' His mind would say. But he could not even find the force to blink. His heart was racing, the rush of adrenaline in his body made him feel dizzy. Yet all he could do was shake and sweat.
You are the sadness of my eyes
That cry in silence for your love...
He shut his eyes as tight as he could. He didn't want to see. When he opened them again, he wouldn't see her there. She would disappear from the dojo wall. And come running up as cheerful as ever to greet him. Yet when he opened his eyes, the horrible scene was still there. 'No, no, no, no...' his mind repeated over again.
There she was… still pinned to the dojo wall. Her body limp, like a rag doll. So still. Her eyes, that beautiful sapphire blue. Dull, no life shining in them like everyday, but with tears. Tears for her torn happiness. The happiness he had broken, he had burned and destroyed with no mercy, simply by staying by her side, by loving her.
I look in the mirror at my face
The time I have suffered for your love...
'Move for me Kaoru... onegai… just one smile… onegai…' his mind cried. Her beautiful face, now carrying the signature of his guilt, as if to let the world know what he had done to her. That horrible cross. It didn't belong on her smooth skin. It was the sign of death to him… it didn't suit her at all. She… was not supposed to have it… she was supposed to be full of life. She was supposed to be the strength of Kenshin's life.
I'll never forget you in my mind
Because I'm always thinking of yesterday...
Her smile, her curios innocent eyes, her strength and courage to do anything, her cheerful laughter. His time with her passed before his mind in a matter of seconds. Kaoru always so active and full of life. 'Why are you so still now koiishi? Why don't you smile anymore?' his mind asked the figure before him.
I'd rather be asleep than awake
Because it hurts so much that your not here...
He clutched his chest… it hurt so much… why does it hurt so much. He looked up at Kaoru once again. 'Is this what I have done to you koiishi? Did it hurt you this much? I did this to you didn't I? And now I deserve this, demo… I never knew it could hurt so much. Gomen nasai… I'm very sorry, but please don't hurt me anymore… onegai Kaoru… wake up… please…'
I wish so much that you were alive
That your lovely eyes would have never lost life,
And be looking at them now...
He took a small step back. 'You are not my Kaoru are you? My Kaoru would never hurt me… she would never… she is strong. Her eyes, are…. You can't smile… yet her smile could make me live again… Kaoru? Smile for me… onegai… just one last time… onegai'
Eternal and unforgettable love
Sooner of later I will be with you again...To keep loving you...
'Will you wait for me koiishi? Will you let me love you after death? Or have I hurt you too much. Forgive me koiishi… let me love you, I beg you, let me love you again…
Eternal Love...
Eternal...
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A/N: Man! What PMS can do to a girl! ¬¬' er, I'm pretty sure you didn't need to know that, but, oh! Don't listen to me! I'm insane! That song always make cry anyway! T-T oh! I need a Kleenex… *sniff*
