I don't own the characters just the thoughts, I wrote this on a bad day when I was acting unhappy because of reasons I want to reveal but most of the thoughts in this are actually my own.

Deceptions and disguise.

I'm tired of living like this! Tired of being something different to each person.

To the teachers I'm perfect miss granger, who gets her work done and is good in everyway. The model student.

The Harry and Ron I am the friend who gets them out of each and every scrape, who just does or helps them, do their homework.

To the rest of the school I'm awed because of my intelligence and I am seen as a sort of role model.

But I don't what that anymore. I don't want to be like that any more. I don't want to be perceived in that way.

I can't ever be my real self.

Come to think of I don't even know who my real self is. I was never allowed to be completely be myself.

Who am I?

Who am I?

Who is Hermione Granger?

Does anyone know?

I don't want to be admired and awed for being clever.

I don't want to be thanked because of my helpfulness.

I don't want to be expected to do every piece of homework on time.

I don't want to be expected to be happy all the time.

I don't want to be praised for my gentle good heartedness.

This is all I have ever known. I don't want it and I don't need it.

What I want, what I crave is someone to love, to show compassion and passion.

I don't want to been seen as the perfect, virginal Hermione. I want a soul mate to love. Not someone who will love me and put me on a pedestal but a soul mate. Someone to bring out the real me.

"Miss Granger? Miss Granger pay attention!" a voice breaks in on my thoughts.

Its Professor Snape.

"Well Miss Granger if your adolescent daydreams about boys are more important than this work then I beg you tell me all about it in detention." He drawls quietly in a voice barely above a whisper but still loud enough for me to hear his every word.

Bet he wished he was perceived differently too. Bet he wishes he wasn't seen as the evil guy. He intrigues me though. I mean how many other people could put up with the unprecedented amount of prejudice he gets and still get up every day and teach? I don't think he really is as sarcastic, unfeeling or evil as he tries to be. Just fed up with prejudice and feels he may as well give them the kind of attitude they want. Maybe he doesn't want to reveal his real self or maybe he too doesn't know his real self?