The Sorcerer's Moon
By: Tasumi Ashiru

AN: Shonen Ai elements (Yue x Clow/Yue x Eriol)

Chapter one: A Tale of Tragic Love

Yue sat back his silver hair pulled back into a braid. Pushing his bangs back he sat beside Sakura and Syaoran's daughter's bed, his wings arched over him lightly.

"Uncle Yue, why are you always so sad." The little girl looked up at him and smiled. "You never smile. Yet you never say why."

Yue straighten his back and glanced at her. "I have my reason's … it's a story about a guardian and their master who faded away… with out any reason."

"But Uncle Yue, you were momma's guardian right?" the little girl sat up her pigtails bouncing on both sides of her head.

"Not at first." Yue sat back and made himself comfortable before beginning the tale, modifying it for the little girl so she didn't have nightmares. "Once upon a time, there was a sorcerer. He was a kind spirit who loved everyone and everything. One day, he sat there gazing at his garden, his head resting in his hands as he sat there pondering the sun with all his life giving energy.

It wasn't that the sorcerer hated the sun, he already created a being made of pure sunlight. This being was so filled with life that it nearly drove the sorcerer crazy. Unfortunately this being of the sun could not be a companion to the sorcerer. After all the being did not even resemble a human.

One night seated outside, his cloaks wrapped around him, the sorcerer pondered at the moon. The moon was so beautiful that night. The lovely shades of purple and gray hung around the moon, making the moon seem nearly alive.

Holding his hands together the sorcerer pouted wondering how to give the moon a human form. Would it be a strong male, or a gentle female, only he really knew.

Taking out many sheets of paper the sorcerer began to write against them, death to the rumbling of an impending storm that was coming. As the clouds covered the pale moon the sorcerer pouted. Grabbing the sheets he ran indoors to avoid getting wet as the rain began to fall.

Continuing in his room, he lit three candles and set them on top of the desk. Pulling his hair back he continued his work, writing against the sheets of crisp paper.

By morning the sorcerer completed the spell and set out to create the being he pondered all night, his personality, the color of his eyes even his hair had been all determined by this sorcerer.

The next night preparations were made for the creation of this being. Once the stage was set, the magic both flowing from the moon and from the sorcerer. The being was brought forth in a burst of glittering moon light.

To say the being was beautiful would be an understatement. He had long silver hair and deep catlike eyes that were so intense that they showed more emotion than any human's eyes could.

Night after night the sorcerer sat there reading or talking with his creations, his children if you will. Then one night the sorcerer never came. he was sitting in his chair starring at the moon, his hand clutching tightly at his chest.

Something was wrong with him, something neither beings could explain. An hour latter, everything they accepted as their life faded away as if it was some cruel dream."

"That's it?" Rayne sat up and looked at Yue, his wings shook lightly. "That wasn't happy, I wanted to hear a happy story."

"I am sorry I don't have any." Yue stood up and tucked the little girl in before closing the door behind him after he left.

Chapter two: Amongst Stars

"Yue..." Keroberus looked up at the disheveled moon guardian. "I am glad you didn't tell her everything. Syaoran and Sakura would have a hard time explaining suicide and sex to a 5 year old."

Yue frowned before walking past his 'brother'. "You would never understand it Keroberus. You would never once even picture how I felt with Clow."

Keroberus followed him. "I wouldn't?"

"No you couldn't." Yue closed his eyes.

"Why not?" Kero licked his paw and smiled at his colder counter part. "Admittedly you and Clow had a deeper relationship. Something I never had… BUT DON'T YOU DARE ONCE THINK I NEVER CARED!"

"You were so quick to accept Sakura." Yue frowned. "Everyone was. It was like no one ever cared about my feelings."

"Yue you have been in this shell for 300 years. Clow has been dead for 300 years, move on. It isn't like he was the only person who ever made you happy." Keroberus shook his head looking at the pouting moon guardian. "You know I bet I can name one other person even lonelier than you."

"I doubt that Keroberus." Yue looked up at the moon, his light silver hair reflecting the light perfectly. "I doubt anyone feels the way I do."

"How about Eriol. Think about it, he went from Clow reincarnation to sharing powers with Sakura's father. He lost Ruby and Spinel. Do you think he is not suffering?"

"He chose to share his powers." Yue spat out, even hearing Eriol's name made him shiver.

"Did he choose to leave Kaho with her fiancée and live a lonely life looking at us with jealousy because Clow's creations survived, yet his died?"

"Point taken he was not as great as Clow was." Yue retorted sarcastically.

"If Clow was so great he wouldn't have killed himself." Keroberus looked at Yue with narrowly slit eyes. "You act like only you have suffered from his death! I suffered, the cards suffered, hell even the Li-clan suffered."

"Clow was lonely. I should have loved him more, gave him more, made him laugh, took him flying. I should have told him!!" Yue slammed his fist against the tree they were seated under in the park.

"Ahem." Eriol looked at the two of them, Yue who was ready to destroy the cherry blossom tree at the park and Keroberus who had gotten up. "Told who what?"

"Just stay out of it Eriol."

"Still angry Yue?" Eriol shrugged.

"At you no, at myself yes." Yue frowned.

"Move on Yue, do you think Clow wanted to see you like this for the past 300 years."

"I want to know WHY!!" Yue clutched his hands at his sides, tears threatening to fall.

"Why… It was nothing you did. I can answer that from my remaining memories. I, have... no Clow had always been suicidal. After that night you and him, shared some private memories. He regretted it, not the fact it was you, it was more what he did. He promised in your creation never to touch you that way, and when he did, it never sat right with him. The feeling of betrayal was too much for him. That night he killed himself hoping you would move on and forget him. How little did he know how far it would scar you." Eriol rubbed his hands together keeping them warm from the October air. "While Clow may have been great in many aspects of magic, he lacked one thing that pained him cause it could never come from any spell. He lacked inner strength. The same thing I lack. While I may not be Clow, I did inherit his qualities, his looks and his demeanor. You know that right Yue?"

"Ummn humn." Yue nodded looking up at Eriol.

"At times I wish I could be him, maybe then we could all see you happy." Eriol shrugged. "Of course I am not him, which hurts me because I am so much like him. I can't speak about him without fumbling with the words we or me."

"Eriol…" His name slipped from his lips almost as gently as Clow's would have. "Now, I think I see what Keroberus meant about you suffering more than any of us."

"I don't think I suffered Yue." Eriol smiled. "I think I loved being like him."

"Did you?" Yue bent his head down. "Why?"

"Because I got to see you two, my true magic, everything again. Don't once think I did not regret my actions when I killed myself. There is not a day that I live that I do not regret it with all my heart." Eriol shook his head. "See? I speak about him like we are one."

Keroberus smiled. "Maybe you are. Maybe in the least your hearts are."

Eriol turned away his long hair falling against his face. "I… I should just go."

Yue looked up at Eriol who was shivering lightly. "Perhaps so... Would you like me to accompany you?"

Eriol stood there for a moment. "If you would like."

"I would like to." Yue got up holding his hands out to him. "Come on. It's faster flying."

Keroberus watched with a grin as he saw Yue wrap his arms around Eriol's waist and lift him up, his large billowing wings spread out behind him.

Just then Sakura walked by she was out for over half an hour looking for her guardians. "Where is Yue going."

"Taking Eriol home."

"Eriol was here?"

"Hai, he and Yue were talking about Clow and the past and Yue offered to take him home. I don't think Yue will be home tonight." Kero walked past Sakura leaving her there thinking.

Sakura thought for a minute. "Hoeeee!!"