Smoldering Thoughts: Sifting through the memories 11/?
Murdock's Crazylady, Now Susie and Red also, with imput by Lacy, Flight, Nikie
(With Red, CK, MCL, Susie, Nikie, Lacy, Dixie, Jesse, Tish, Sky, Fanny, Flight, Fancy
Rated: R
CK gets her wings, and Red puts an end to her stench with a sneak attack bath
Disclaimer: I don't own the team. I do own CrazyKid and Melly
© 2001 Murdock's CrazyLady (MCL)
Beta reader!!: (Yes, I have one now!!) Thanks to Red, my god-mom for being my Beta reader and for the help with this sometimes confusing AU fic! (and for putting up with me in my 4-year-old mode) LOL
This story would not be going on if it were not for my online family and our RPG. I am happy that
CK's life hasn't ended, and at first I feared no one liked her, but now I see that alot of people love her and wouldn't
know what to do if she wasn't there. Thanks for that! I love CK too, and I really like playing her in the RPG. Thanks
for keeping CK alive.
PLEASE send comments.
This is the sequel to Melly and CrazyKid: The 2 youngest patients/Terrors
*anything in between these are thoughts*
CK's Solution: Pillow Feathers and Glue
Once she'd learned the basics, MCL and Noodle did slow sparring, so MCL could learn how to block and hit at the same time. Noodle, for being 11, was a very good teacher. MCL noticed she was doing better and smiled as she blocked with her left arm and hit with her right fist. No one would hit her after this.
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CK climbed out and left her blanket and bear on the sofa. She went into the kitchen and climbed on a chair, opening one of the cabinets, she pulled out a bottle of glue. CK climbed back down and went back to the family room. She climbed the ladder to the cocoon and climbed in, throwing down all 4 pillows. CK climbed back down and went back to the kitchen, grabbing the sharpest knife she could find.
Armed with a huge knife, CK sliced the pillows open and then opened the glue, smearing it all over the legs of her overalls. She added feathers and went to work on her belly and chest. Finally her face and neck were covered and she stood up. She picked up the bottle of glue and squirted it onto the floor, making a nice pile of white glue. Next to it, she put a pile of feathers.
CK lay down in the glue, squirming to get it on the back of herself good. Then she got up and lay in the feathers a second, to make sure they stuck good and covered all of her.
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MCL and Noodle stopped for the day because it was almost dark and MCL promised to be home. CK had just stood back up after applying feathers when MCL walked in. "Hey mom, I'm home and.." MCL said as she turned from closing the door and stopped at the sight of CK.
"CrazyKid!! Mom's gonna throw a moose when she sees this mess! What in the heck are you doin?!" MCL asked, looking at the glue and feathers all over the 4-year-old and the floor. The slaughtered pillows made MCL swallow.
"Wanna fly way..Wanna go bye bye.." CK said as she walked by MCL and went out the door. MCL stared at the mess and then left too, to find her mom before she got blamed for the mess. Red and Susie were talking to the Joxer clone from before when MCL ran up to them. "Mom! Mom!" MCL yelled as she stopped and panted, never before was she so happy to see the lavendar and white wings in her life.
"What MCL? Don't run in the hall and don't interrupt, it's rude." Red scolded, and MCL tried not to roll her eyes. "I'm sorry and I won't. CK's gone crackers mom! I went home and she glued feathers to herself, an when I asked her what she was doin, she said she wanted to go away, to fly away!" MCL explained and Susie looked worried.
"Where is she?" Red asked, as she held onto MCL's shoulders. "She ran off. I don't know mom. I'm sorry." MCL replied and Red shook her head. "It's not your fault, honey. Go ahead back to the attic and wait for your sisters to come home. Just don't let them step in whatever mess CK made. I'm going to find CK and..." Red said as MCL nodded and walked back to the attic.
"I think I know where she's going Susie. Are you coming?" Red asked as they turned and walked off. "Yeah, I'm coming. What's wrong with her, Red?" Susie asked as they went out the door to the meadow. "I don't know for sure, Susie, but she better have a good reason for all of this, I just hope it's not one of her episodes. I'm not used to them yet, and I'm not good at handling it...." Red replied, then was cut off by Susie.
"Oh my god! Look Red! It's CK, and she's up on the tower ledge!" Susie yelled, pointing up at CK, whom was standing on the edge of the tall tower. Red looked up and saw CK staring up at the sky, looking like she was saying something. "Susie, can you meet me up there? I have to fly up or she'll fall!" Red asked and Susie nodded as she ran towards the tower stairs. Red flew up and landed behind CK.
CK didn't even see Red fly over her head. "CK? What're you doing honey?" Red asked, and CK replied, "Go bye bye..no owie..C-Tay goin bye bye.." Red was right, and swallowed. Susie ran up the stairs, panting, she wished she could fly too. "CK wants to leave? To leave me?" Red asked aloud. Susie caught those words as she made it up the stairs to her sister, finally. "Go bye bye..no owie..C-Tay goin bye bye.." CK repeated, and Susie heard her.
"I don't think she wants to leave you, sis. I think she means her pain, she knows you fly when you're upset. I think that's what she wants to do too." Susie explained as CK stepped closer to the edge. "But she doesn't have wings Susie, she'll fall!!" Red exclaimed, as she saw CK inch yet closer to the edge. Susie saw the fear in her sister's face and swallowed. It was rare for fear to show in Red. Red ran over and grabbed CK off of the ledge, holding her tightly close. CK suddenly came out of her little world and realized Red had her, and looked up. CK saw her mom looked worried and scared, and CK's eyes blinked twice.
"Hewo mommy.." CK said as Red looked at her wide eyed. "CK what on earth are you doing? If you fall from here you'll die!" Red asked, after making sure CK was in normal mode. "Wanna make it go bye bye..wanna go way!" CK replied, looking down, frustrated. Susie gave Red a nod as she saw CK look down. Red put her hand under her daughter's chin and made her look into her eyes. "CK, please don't. I know you feel all weird inside, but if you jump I..I can't bring you back, honey." Red said, swallowing to fight tears.
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CK stared at her wings, and got a look on her face Red had never seen. "CK, where are you going?" Red asked as she watched CK backed up a little. CK smiled as she closed her eyes and her body began to glow. Red looked stunned as CK glowed a lavandarish-blue..she'd not known CK could use her powers at her own free will, she thought they were merely brought on by anger.
Suddenly, something began to form on CK's back, and take shape. A few minutes later, CK stopped glowing and she re-opened her eyes as she walked back over. "What dem yook yike?" CK asked, turning around. "They're beautiful, CK. Lavendar and white like mine, but they're shaped like an egyption moth. CK, you wanted wings?" Red asked and CK nodded as she turned around facing her mom. "Cos you get ta fly way when you get mad an C-Tay wanned ta too. Me wanned wings, so me sayed, me gettin wings an maked light, an here dem is." CK replied as she looked at Susie.
Suddenly, Susie began to glow and as she stood, stunned, CK made beautiful eagle's wings form. When the glow stopped, Susie looked at Red. "What'd she do to me?" Susie asked a shocked looking Red. "She..she gave you wings..too." Red replied, as CK saw her mom's look and giggled. "Wings? CK, how did you know I wanted wings?" Susie asked and CK smiled. "Me heared you tink it, dat how." CK replied. "CK! Didn't I tell you about that?" Red yelled and CK jumped, grinning like the sneak she was.
CK turned and climbed up onto the ledge again, just standing there letting the wind blow against her body. Red climbed up beside her and held her hand. Susie followed, and tried not to look down. "CK? You want to fly?" Red asked, feeling CK's wings to be sure they were dry. CK looked up at her teary-eyed and nodded. "Jus wanna..make it top..jus wanna fall an go ta sleep ferever an not owie none more.." CK replied as Susie climed back down, sensing this should be strictly a mom-daughter moment.
"I'll wait for you two back in the attic. I want lessons before I try to use these." Susie said as she headed down the stairs. Red nodded okay. "We'll be there soon!" Red yelled, and Susie yelled okay. Red realized lessons would do CK good too and picked her up. "I'll carry you this run, and I'll teach you to fly tomorrow. You okay with that?" Red asked and CK nodded as she held onto her.
"Okay, hold on." Red replied as she jumped off of the ledge and CK closed her eyes as Red's wings flapped and she flew off. It wasn't ling before CK opened her eyes and watched the world wiz by in a blur. As she watched, CK got the sensation to scream, to scream as loud as she could, until she passed out. Red sensed it and looked down at her.
"Go ahead and yell your heart out CK. Let it all out, show that pain you feel no mercy." Red said, and CK started screaming at the top of her lungs. She added in 'I hate you's' into it, and Red just held her tight as she screamed and screamed, making fists. Tears were going down CK's face as she screamed louder, causing her throat to bleed. She coughed up blood and Red noticed when a little was let lay on CK's chin. CK seemingly had enough after the last scream, and buried her face into Red's neck and shoulder.
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Red patted CK as she flew back around and went into the attic through the window. Susie was already there, as well as Flight, Fancy, Fanny, Nikie and MCL. MCL ran over as Red sat CK on the sink's counter. "Hey mom. Is CK okay?" MCL asked as Red handed CK a glass of warm salt water. "She'll be fine MCL. How did your lesson go?" Red asked as CK took the glas and looked into it, sniffing back tears.
"Good. I learned some real cool stuff. I need lots of practice though. We're meetin everyday, iffin it's okay with you, I said I had to ask." MCL said and Red smiled. "It's fine with me, as long as you're careful and you're home before dark." Red replied, and MCL hugged her. "Thanks mom. I will, I promise." MCL replied, and Red hugged her back. "Welcome honey." Red replied, noticing CK hadn't touched the glass.
"CK, put some in your mouth and gargle it like you do your mouth wash." Red told CK, as she'd just looked at the glass. CK did what Red said, and quick spit it out, crying. "It owie!" CK whispered, crying as she put the glass down. Red held her and picked the glass back up, holding it up to CK's mouth.
"I know it does, baby, but it won't get better unless you do this. It'll feel better when you've gargled a few times." Red replied, and CK trusted her, going on with it, dispite crying while she did. "Good girl, CK. Keep it up." Red said as she turned to Susie and whispered, "Get ready, she smells like a garbage factory.." Susie and Flight nodded. They were both in on her little scheme.
CK gargled until she'd used up all the water in the glass. Her throat did feel much better, and she was calming down some. "Feel better?" Red asked as she took CK's glass. CK nodded as she sleepily leaned over and hugged Red, laying on her shoulder with her eyes closed. Red lifted her off of the counter and carried her to the attic door. CK was worn out and didn't know she, her mom, Susie and Flight had all left the attic until she heard water running.
CK opened her eyes and Flight gave her a look that CK knew. CK looked at the filling tub and felt panic. Memories of her past poured in faster than the water in the bath and CK latched onto Red, screaming, "Not putted me in dere! C-Tay did what you sayed, me were a good giwl, not putted me in dere!!" CK was shivering, and kept begging them not to, even as Red managed to put her down. CK still paniced as she stood in front of Red, and Red feared she would have one of her autistic episodes. Red was knelt down to CK's height, and CK was squeezing her as tight as she could.
"You'll be okay, CK. Nobody's going to hurt you, and we're all girls." Red said and CK shook her head no. "HIM..HIM..HIM!!" CK yelled, crying. Red remembered the ghost, and what he had said about drownding her, and understood why CK was so afraid. "CK, I promse I'm not going to drownd you, you need a bath honey." Red replied and CK trembled. "Mommy tay wif C-tay an not go nowheres an not yet me get unner the water?" CK asked, terror could be heard in her voice.
Susie turned off the water and felt it. "feels okay to me, what do you think, CK?" Susie asked, and CK grabbed Red's hand/ Red stood up and walked CK to the tub, where she held CK's hand while CK reached over the tub with her other hand and felt the water. Her finger tips barely touched the water and she jumped back, grabbing Red's leg. She stared at the tub wide-eyed, and terrified.
CK had always snuck into the boy's shower room, and showered with all her clothes on. She never had a real bath, ever in her whole life. Showers weren't scary cos it was like taking a bath in the rain. A bath was like being cooked in a big white pot. Red put her hand on CK's head and CK looked up. "I won't leave you, I won't let you go under the water, and I'll hold your hand the whole time. I promise." Red said, and CK swallowed, not fighting when Red took off her bloody overalls, t-shirt, diaper-like panties and socks. Her sneakers came off and CK was ready to get in. CK held onto her mom as she gently stood her into the tub. CK trembled and refused to sit down.
Flight and Susie helped Red by talking to CK while she washed the blood off of her skin. "Me a'scared.." CK said as she held onto Red's right thumb for dear life. Flight smiled, "You're doin a good job so far. Mom'll be done soon, just work with her." Flight said as Red rinsed CK off again. "Okay, lemme get your back." Red said after getting the last of the dried blood from CK's neck.
CK obliged, grabbing Red's left thumb as she turned the other way. Susie held in a shriek at the scars. CK had scars of all kinds and sizes down her back, behind and the backs of her legs. Red tried not to think about the scars as she washed. They made her mad and sad all at once, and she wanted to kill the people resposible, though she knew HE was already dead. Susie looked wide-eyed as Red rinsed the soap off and turned CK back around, making sure she had a good grip on her right thumb again. Susie looked as normal as she could as CK stood shivering, both from fear and cold.
"Me..me done now? want out." CK aske and Red shook her head no. "One more thing. You're hair needs washed, then you're done. I have the shampoo your big brother used and it won't burn if it gets in your eyes." Red said and CK's tears returned. Hair washing scared her worse that anything else about getting a bath. "Don't cry, honey. I'll be careful, you've been safe so far, right?" Red said and CK nodded, trying to feel her trust over her intense fear. "Sit down do you don't fall, you've got my hand." Red said and CK did, tears were there, but no screaming or yelling came with them. She just wanted the bath over with.
"Good girl." Red said as she took the red beaded hair-ties out of CK's hair. CK sat and sniffed, latched onto Red's thumb. Red picked the wash cloth from the water and wiped it gently across CK's head, wetting her hair without dripping water in CK's face. CK did her best, but she was so scared, she couldn't help but shiver and cry, while latched on for dear life. Red put the cloth down and Flight snapped open the baby shampoo, squeezing a small amount into Red's palm. "I'm putting the soap in now, close your eyes if you want, but it won't burn." Red said as she scrubbed CK's hair as gently as she could, trying to get all the blood out of her hair and off of her scalp. CK sat with her eyes open, quietly sobbing.
"You're okay honey. Now we rinse and get you out." Red said to her shivering child. She reached over with her free hand and Susie handed her a small cup. "Put your head back and close your eyes, CK." Red said, and CK did, until she felt the water go over her head. Once it had gone, she yelled and stood up. red felt her squeezing her thumb as she stood there, trembling. "I'm sorry CK, are you okay?" Red asked and CK nodded, as she slowly sat back down and looked at her mom. "Not jus dump, say sirst, tay?" CK asked, as Red pushed some of the wet hair away from CK's eyes.
"I'm sorry CK. Yeah, okay. Ready?" Red asked and CK nodded, as she put her head back. Red tried to think of something to say, that would take CK's mind off of being in a bath, and got it, she filled the cup. "Okay CK, waterfall!" Red said as she dumped it slowly over her hair, rubbing the soap out. To her amazement, CK giggled at her. Susie and Flight laughed too, while Red got all of CK's soap out. "All done!" Red said, a few 'waterfall's' later. She helped CK stand up, wrapped her in a huge purple thick towel and lifted her out. She saw how pinkish the water was and realized just how dirty CK had been.
CK stood shivering while Red dried her off, and dressed her in clean, dry footy jammies. Red dried her hair, rubbing her head gently with the towel. CK stopped shivering as Red brished her barely shoulder length, brown hair down. "We'll leave your beads out until the morning, that way if you fall asleep, they won't hurt your head." Red said as she brushed CK's bangs down and put the beaded ties in the inside pocket of her cloak.
As she picked CK up, Red mentally asked Flight to burn the overalls CK had been living in. The Flight pointed to the padding inside and Red nodded, mentally telling her to wash them and put them in her dresser, where CK couldn't get them. She had a good idea what the padding was in there for, smiling, she looked down at CK as she carried her back into the attic, leaving Susie and Flight to clean up the bathroom and wash CK's overalls.
"Next up. MCL, go get a bath." Red said as MCL nodded off on the sofa. She snapped her head back up and opened her eyes. "Awww mom..I'm tired..do I gotta?" MCL whined, yawning. "Yes you do. You're not climbing into my nice clean sheets smelling like a sock factory. Go get a bath and don't make me repeat myself." Red said, and grumbling, MCL dragged herself from the sofa and went to her dresser. She grabbed her orange and red silk jammies and clean underpants before she grumbled the whole way out the door and down the hall.
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CK lay in Red's arms, sucking her thumb with one hand, and playing with Red's long brown hair with the other. Red smiled and kissed the top of her head, sighing. She'd never had to argue MCL of all the kids, and she hoped that this time was only due to her being tired. CK closed her eyes and drifted off, jumping when her mind's door went closed. She yanked Red's hair when she jumped, and Red was about to yell in surprise when CK relaxed and was asleep.
Red patted her as she stood up carefully and flew up to the cocoon. She put CK down and covered her, after untangling her hair from CK's fingers. She put Bougie under CK's arm and covered him too. Then she kissed CK goodnight and told her she loved her, before standing back and safe barrier around the cocoon so CK couldn't roll out.
The attic door slammed behind her and Red jumped. MCL came in, wearing her PJ's, grumbling sleepily. "MCL! DO NOT slam the door! CK just went to sleep and if you wanke her, you won't be happy!" Red said in a stern whisper, just the thought of a cranky CK giving her another grey hair. MCL didn't like the sound of not being happy and walked over.
"I'm sorry mom." MCL said whispering as she hugged Red, leaning her head against her belly. Red smiled and played with MCL's short brown hair. "It's okay. Come on, let's tuck you in." Red said as she felt like she was the only thing holding her 10-year-old up. MCL yawned as red took her hand and followed her to her bed. Red pulled back MCL's Dragonball Z comforter and sheet, and MCL climbed in.
Red covered her and handed her the stuffed horse MCL never slept without. Red tucked the blankets in on the other side as MCL hugged her horse close. "Night honey, see you in the morning, love you." Red said, kissing MCL. MCL kissed her back and barely said I love you back when she fell asleep. Red smiled and turned MCL's carousel night light on, and watched as horses danced across the bedroom walls.
The door opened again as a clean Flight, Fancy and Nikie came in. Susie followed, carrying CK's clean overalls. Red yawned as she came back from tucking all the kids in. She dropped down in the recliner and Susie brought her a cup of tea. "Thanks Susie, I'm going to bed in a minute." Red said, her eyes already closing. "Me too. Soon as I get a little tea first." Susie replied, yawning. Red yawned and sipped her tea. Five minutes later, everyone in the attic was asleep.
Red slept with CK in the cocoon, Susie with the kids in her own bed. CK slept, dreaming of a reflection..a girl in water...a smiling girl, she didn't know her, yet she looked familiar somehow. She lay holding onto her mom's night gown, peace was there as long as her mom was. Red was dreaming of Face, Susie of Murdock..Dreams were wildly strong and if CK had been awake, she could have listened to 8 different dreams, each with their own rating!
Nothing is normal in the world of CK Murdock. Not even dreams.
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