All the Love in the World : a CCS songfic inspired by The Corrs
By: nikki hiiragizawa nikki_hiiragizawa@rurouni.com
Disclaimer: The song "All the Love in the World" and the characters of Card Captor Sakura are owned by their respective owners…I do not own them…so sad……
Author's note: I made this fic in a hurry.. due to current nagging by my sister and my co-write MitsuiSelphie…oh eto na!
Nikki: Oi! I am here again…(I always start by saying this line…it's getting moldy…) Anyway, this is my first songfic based on Tomoyo's POV after Eriol went back to England. It is angst but….no….I don't think I can make a very good angst….(waaah).
Eriol: *snickers*
Nikki: *glares at Eriol, pulls him out of his hiding place and hangs him up on the ceiling..* OK! Sorry Eriol fans…didn't mean to do that. So, this is a mush fic…(well not really that mushy….but who knows). I am hoping for your reviews and flames….
Eriol: mfwpghbpht!
Nikki: Shut up, honey, they're going to notice I am torturing you…Well, that's all I have to say….Enjoy!
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ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD
I silently sat on my bed, watching clouds drift by my balcony window. I close my eyes savoring the soft music played on the radio. I have never heard this song before, yet, listening to it made something inside me stir….something that I have kept hidden for so long.
I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friends, I'm more than OK
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all the same
True. My best friend Sakura weigh more than all the gold in the world. Being the sole heir to an immense company, I never run out of resources (especially cameras). Yet, somehow, my world became incomplete.
A while ago it was bright, happy, and moving comfortably with others.
Now, it had stopped revolving. I wonder why.
Still I believed
I'm missing something real
I need someone
Who really sees me
The music pierced my feelings and I pulled myself back from reminiscing memories…..memories too hard for me to take……memories of the day something essential to my being left……memories of the person who came from England to brighten my life, but only to go away again to live a life of his own.
Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'd walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world….
I ran my hands over my bedspread, wondering what went wrong during that time we were together. Everything seems to be in its place….but what happened? Even now, I still hope he'll come back, telling me he's wrong, holding my hand, kissing me, hugging me and telling me it's all right. But it seems to be just another far – fetched dream of mine….
I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it – I have no hesitation
My imagination just stole me away.
Understanding the lyrics of the song, I shook my head, vigorously straightening my dark hair. No, my dreams cannot certainly be. Surely that boy from London has found his own love – his destiny. I try not to cry, for I think I am just using him to pull me out of my misery. Reluctantly, I drew my eyes away from my balcony window and averted my eyes to the furniture in side my bedroom.
Still I believe
I'm missing something real
I need someone
Who really sees me
My eyes fell upon my dresser. There I glimpsed on a picture of my friends. And I accidentally see him – his smile, which I think, can turn nights to days, his ever – concerned look when some body's hurt, eh…this is enough torture…. I coerced myself to let him go….he is not coming back! There's someone else for me, more deserving, and the one I am destined. I shut my eyes and covered my ears, blocking the song from reaching inside me……still I have a feeling I cannot convince myself…..Sakura was right, I am a bad liar.
Love's for a lifetime
Not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no one to love me that way
I need someone who really sees me
For once, I did not defy my feelings. I listened, hesitantly, to the song. It made me decide. I should do what my heart wants me to do, and that is – to be with the man I love no matter what happens! I wipe tears that were forming at the corner of my eyes, and I sat up. I look at the starry sky outside my balcony window and for the first time since time stopped for me. I smiled. For I have realized – you cannot escape love.
And I won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'd walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world.
I prepare to sleep to face a new morning – a morning of change. Yet, suddenly, a flutter was heard. I was lying on my stomach, and I looked up when I heard something land on my balcony. I part my curtains and there – standing on my balcony – that someone I've been waiting for.
"Tadaima," he huskily said.
Lightly stepping out into the cold night, I whispered his name - his name I promised not to say again –
"Okarii, Eriol-sama."
^ Owari^
