Cole shimmered into Phoebe's room, knowing that she wasn't there. Though he longed to hold his sweetheart in his arms, he had other plans to work on.

When Prue, Piper, and Phoebe had decided to go to the attic Cole had returned to Phoebe's room. The attic wasn't a place where he felt welcome. Ever since Prue had set a magical trap on the floor of the room in hopes of capturing the demon Belthazore, he had tried to stay away from the Charmed Ones' alter room, if possible. That magical trap had almost exposed his identity to the sisters, and Prue had never trusted him even though he did a good job explaining what had happened.

Finally, after a brutal attack, Cole became dispirit, exposed himself as Belthazore, and took Phoebe as a hostage. He didn't intend to hurt her, but it allowed him to leave the room without the sisters using the potion they made to vanquish him. Inside that hansom exterior of a man, inside stood a demon that by himself could end the lives of the Charmed Ones, but luckily he had changed his mission. He was in love, desperately in love, with one of the creatures of goodness that he was sent to kill.

It didn't matter anymore what he had been sent to do. His new life was one with Phoebe, and he awaited the day until he would be free from the evil magic that he was fighting every day. "Soon," he thought. "Soon I'll be able to live a normal life. I guess the most normal life I can have being in love with a witch."

"Leo." Like all Whitelighters, Leo had disappeared right when he was getting to the point. "Leo. Where in the hell are you."

"Last time I checked, I don't live in hell," Leo joked as he orbed in the room. "In fact, the only times I go there is when I have to baby sit you."

"If that is the thanks I get for trying to help you out, then I guess I'll let you go back to your heavenly resting place."

"Sorry, what is so important?"

"You tell me. You know more than you said."

"What if I do? Why should I help you?"

"Because I am the only one who can help."

"We had a report that some priestess took a baby, a very important baby, and put a spell on her. The best we can put together is that it was a plan to harm the strength of the Charmed Ones."

"Don't you think that something would have shown up before now?"

"Maybe it was suppose to start when their powers got strong, and gained the trust of the Elders."

"I don't' know. But for the sake of Phoebe, I'll go look around down there."

"Do you think that is wise? You know how well you are liked down there."

"I don't think it is wise to loose the ones I love." Cole's love for Phoebe was so strong. There wasn't anything that he would refuse to do for her, or for the family that she had given him. "I still have some tricks up my sleeve. They won't even know I'm there."

"Okay, but don't blame me if you get caught. We don't even know if there is something to worry about. You could be doing this for nothing."

"Phoebe isn't 'nothing!'"

"I didn't mean that," Leo spoke back. "I just don't know if--"

Cole didn't stay long enough to hear the end of Leo's response. He shimmered out of the room to begin his search. Maybe if he did this, Cole could gain the complete trust of the Elders, Leo and most importantly the Charmed Ones.

* * *

"So what did you buy?" Phoebe said breaking the thick silence.

"What?"

"Piper said you were buying something."

"Oh, a ticket to a concert."

"Really? When?"

"It's on third of next month, and your not going"

"But--"

"No buts--this ticket cost me over two-hundred bucks, and I don't have enough money to waste on two tickets. I wouldn't be going myself, but I think that the pictures might give me some attention at the magazine."

Piper looked at Prue with a serious face. "What did you say the day was again?"

"The third, why?"

"Sorry Prue, but you can't go."

"And why not?"

"Because that is the date of our vacation, and you're not getting out of it."

"But there is no way I can get a refund."

"Sorry, but you already promised us."

"Fine! Be that way."

Phoebe hadn't seen her oldest sister get that angry about missing something that she didn't want to go to in the first place in a long time. There must be something else on her mind.

"Okay Prue, spill it." Phoebe was dying to know what her sister was up to.

"I don't have anything to spill." Prue was so involved in looking at the Book of Shadows that she didn't continue the conversation.

"Then why are we up here?" Phoebe kept the conversation going.

"There has to be something, somewhere. I hate this book sometimes. I swore! They should have included a user's manual when they made the book."

"Prue what's going on?" Phoebe would not let the matter rest. "What are we doing?"

Prue's energy turned from questions to anger. She couldn't find anything. How come when Phoebe wanted something in the stupid book did the book just show it to her? This is crazy!

Prue's anger at the Book raged. Suddenly the book flew off the podium and went across the room hitting the far side of the wall.

"Prue! Do you know how old that book is? It just can't take the type of beatings that you can hand out!" Piper ran across the room and picked up the book as careful as she could. "Lucky you it didn't rip in half." From the corner of her eye she saw a piece of paper fall out. It was folded in half a few times over.

"What's that?" Phoebe asked.

"I don't know." Piper bent over and picked the note up. At least it looked like a note, one like they would pass around the class in junior high school.

She walked over to the podium and put the Book of Shadows back on its home, and put her concentration toward the newly found clue.

"It looks like a letter," Piper finally said. "To Dad."

"From who?" Phoebe asked.

"Mom."

"Let me see!" Phoebe was acting like a three year old. She was good at that.

It had been a long time since they had found something from their mom. They missed her so, but since they grew up without her the pain had mostly passed.

"What's it say?"

"Give me a chance. Let me read it. Piper, hand it over."

September 25, 1968

My love,

Guess what! You're finally going to become a father. I just went to the doctor and confirmed what mom has been telling me for weeks. I don't know how she could know.

When you came and told me that you wanted to have a child out of the blue, I was so surprised. I never dreamed that you would be the one to start begging to have a baby. I always thought that that task would fall to me. I am so happy!

I still have six months to go. I can't wait! I hope that you can get home soon. I want to hold you so much. I hope your business trip doesn't last much longer.

With all of my love,

Your fiancé,

Patty

"This must have been when she found out about you, Prue. I didn't know that Dad was the one who had--"

"Yuck! Stop it!" Phoebe looked up at her two sisters from beneath her hands that she had been using to hide her face. The thought of what her parents making love turned her stomach.

"You can dish it out but can't take it yourself? Huh sis?" Prue was never going to forget about the kitchen incident.

"Those are our parents!"

"Come on Phoebe, get serious." Prue glared at Phoebe with her bossy eyes. "I wonder why this note was in the Book of Shadows?"

"Well, the Book of Shadows is sort of a witches diary, maybe she stuck it in there for the memories." That was the real Phoebe. She was someone who could think up good reasons and possibilities for all sorts of situations.

"Wait, there's another letter here," Piper looked at the second sheet of paper that had been folded with the first.

"Well," Phoebe went back into her two-year-old mode again, "what's this one say?"

September 31, 1968

Kevin,

This is so hard for me, and I know that it won't be any easier for you. I went to the hospital for my monthly checkup today and the doctor couldn't hear a heart beat.

I wish that you would be able to come and see me. I know that you are busy at work and can't leave. Still I long for the day that we can marry.

I am sorry honey. I know that this was something that you really wanted; it was something that we both really wanted.

The doctor said that we could try again as soon as I am ready, and I guess as soon as you come home.

I miss you,

Patty

"I guess that wasn't you. I never knew Mom had been pregnant before you Prue. Guess that people loose baby's all the time though." Phoebe sure took the news of a dead sister good.

"Just a little question," Prue spoke up, "Who the hell is Kevin?"

The three girls looked back at the letter and whom it was written to.

"I guess Grams was right. And I guess I see the real reason why Mom didn't tell Grams about the pregnancy." Piper looked at her sisters. "I wonder why we never saw these before?"

"Huh?" The expression on Phoebe's face was unforgettable. "You knew?"

"I didn't know, but I had heard that maybe there was. Truthfully I don't think that Grams even believed it when she told me." Piper tried to explain.

"I still don't understand why these letters are in the Book of Shadows. What's the purpose of them?" Prue leaned back in the old armchair that sat in the attic.

"Knowing Grams and Mom they stuck these in here to help us. I have been through the entire book millions of times and I know they weren't here before." Phoebe suggested.

"It almost sounds like they were never sent. Maybe they have been lying around the house in some hiding place that Mom had."

"So why don't we ask them what was going on? Shouldn't they know something about what is going on with Phoebe and what is so important about these notes?"

"They can't help you." The girls had been so involved in the conversation and letters that they had been oblivious to Leo when he orbed in.

"What?" The sisters asked in unison.

"The after world has been closed off by the Elders. Something evil is happening and they are trying to keep it contained."

"What's new?" Prue asked.

"All they are doing is stopping us from finding answers," Phoebe blurted out.

"Like I said, what's new?"

"All I know is what I said. I have to leave before I say too much." Suddenly the heavenly messenger disappeared from the room.

"What is this? Clue? He stops in here tells us something and then disappears. Are we going to have to start asking questions and making him answer yes or no? Because I am not much of a fan of Twenty Questions and I have already had enough of Clue," Piper couldn't explain her husband's behavior, nor did she want to. Nothing made sense anymore.

"Well, we do have two good clues here, and since someone went though the trouble of putting these letters right in front of our faces, I bet they are important." Prue was right, as usual.

"Ah--What do you have in mind, Prue?"

* * *

"Patty, I can't believe it. You make me feel like I am in heaven!"

Patty and Kevin sat on her bed. They had been there for over an hour. She didn't know why she had invited him up to her room, but when she did she knew that the Charmed Ones weren't too far away.

"What do you think of children," Kevin said.

Patty sat in shock. How did he know? "I love them," she finally spoke up. "What do you think of marriage?"

"I thought that you would never ask." It wasn't her intention to seem like she was asking, but since he said yes what was the harm.

"I love you," Patty said looking into his eye.

"I love you too." A tear rolled down his eye.

"What's wrong?" Patty asked.

"Nothing." The true reason for his unhappiness was something that he just wasn't allowed to tell. He knew he would be leaving soon. "I have to go on a business trip," he finally spoke up. It wasn't the truth, but it worked for the moment.

"When?"

"Tomorrow."

"For how long?"

"I don't know."

"At least we have tonight."

Kevin looked into her eyes, and he couldn't stop himself. She was such a warm person. A person that he was more than willing to spend the rest of his life with - even though that was the eternity he had been condemned to because the actions of his sister.

She wrapped her arms around him and held him close. She couldn't bare to think about the fact that in the morning she would have to say good-bye. If she only knew the truth, that he was never coming back, maybe she wouldn't let him go.

February 12, 2001

Dear Diary,

How can she be in love that man? He's a demon for heaven's sake--one that was sent to destroy us--the almighty Charmed Ones! After all he did to her, and she still sticks by his side. It is sickening!

I really don't understand it how she can trust him. It just doesn't make any sense. If my lover ever put a knife to my neck I wouldn't step another foot in the same room. But she goes and makes out with the man, if you can call him that, every chance that she has. It is down right disgusting!

Prue