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  Rinoa sat at the end of the bed holding a pillow to her tummy. Tears following silently down her cheeks.

 Why me? Why? Don't I have enough problems? Why more? Things are just getting good between Squall and me. And now I have you; I don't want you, you are nothing to me. Go away. Please go away.

"Go away." Whispered Rinoa as she rolled back onto her bed, falling into a fitful sleep.

~*~

 Why can't you leave me alone? Please leave me alone, please. I'm begging you leave me alone! I'm going to have to tell him about you I don't want!

 "Rinoa?"

 "Oh, hi Squall!" Rinoa pushed the unhappy thoughts out of her head, as she turned round to see Squall walking behind her. "How you doing?"

 "I'm okay," They carried on walked silently until Squall stopped suddenly.

 "Rinoa this may not be the right time but what's going on? You never talk any more; you hardly go out of your room unless you have to. I hardly see you any more and when I do you don't talk and just stare into space. Whenever I try and talk to you, you seen to be somewhere else. What's up with you at the moment?" Squall suddenly looked older his face etched with worry, "you can tell me."

 Rinoa looked into his eyes, how can I tell you? How can I tell you what I don't believe is happening myself? I want to tell you but I can't.

 "Rinoa?"

 "I can't Squall." Rinoa admitted tears starting to flow down her cheeks.

 "Can't what? I don't understand." Squall stared hard at her, "what are you trying to tell me?"

 "It won't go away Squall I've tried to tell it to go away but it won't. It wants me to tell you." Rinoa started to shake. what am I saying?

 "Who? Who is saying this? Is there some one else?" Squall demanded, suddenly angry.

 "No!" denied Rinoa, "there's no one else, only you"

 "Then what are you saying!?" Squall could feel himself getting out of control. Why can't she tell me?

 "I-I…I'm pregnant." Squall froze. His brain went numb a thousands thoughts flew through his head but noticed he none of them. I'm not ready for this. I can't be a dad.

 Rinoa stared at Squall. She could feel herself shaking, she knew she looked terrible, her unbrushed hair stuck to her face and her eyes were red from crying. But she couldn't care less, she had said it, he knew. Maybe it would go away now.

 "I-I've got to go." Muttered Squall, stumbling away from Rinoa.

 "Squall wait!" Rinoa called after him but he didn't take any notice.

  I've told him. He's gone now. Is that what you wanted?

~*~

  You're coming soon. I can feel it. You didn't go away. I hate you. I hate you so much. You ruined everything. Now Squall won't go near me. It's all your fault.

 Rinoa sat on her bed staring at her ceiling. It had become her best friend. Something to talk that didn't talk back. Won't judge you, or stereotype you.

  It knew everything. Her unwanted pregnancy, how Squall suddenly moved away, how her mother tried to get her to abort, how everything went wrong.

 Rinoa sighed, she placed her hands over the bump in her stomach. She had two weeks to go. Everybody in school had found out – it was nothing new lots of girls got pregnant, she was nothing special.

 She rolled off her bed and stared at herself in the mirror. Her face was pale, the skin stretched over the bones, her cheeks sucked in. Her eyes looked hollow and lifeless, she her arms skinny and useless.

 Don't you see what you're doing to me? Don't you see why you should have gone?

~*~

 You're nearly here. They say that it doesn't matter that you're a bit early. They say that this is one of the happiest moments of my life. I don't think I agree.

 Sweat covered Rinoa forehead. She had been at the hospital for over 10 hours. She let out of grunt of pain as another contraction came. Why won't this end?

 She panted as she tried to regain her breath as another one rushed over her. She heard the door pushed opened as another nurse came in.

 "Come on Rinoa honey you've nearly done it. Come on there's a good girl." The nurse soothed as Rinoa let out a scream. The nurse looked over to the doctor who mouth at her that the baby was nearly there.

 "Come on it's nearly over just hold on a little bit longer." The nurse squeezed Rinoa's hand encouragingly. Rinoa could hardly hear her as she let out another grunt of pain.

 "Come on did you hear hat the doctor said just one last push." Rinoa let out a final groan then it was all over. "There you go you've got a little girl."

 Rinoa felt a small bundle being pushed into her arms. It was almost as if it was a dream suddenly it, the little nobody who had been in her stomach for nine months was here. She looked down at the baby, it soft blue eyes looked back at her, suddenly the nobody was someone, someone beautiful, someone hers, something to call her own.

 Rinoa felt a wave of uncontrollable happiness sweep over her, she remembered all the friends who had touched her life, all the precious moments with Squall. Suddenly it did not seem to be for nothing, life had a reason, she had something to live for, some one to love. Rinoa as fell a sleep with exhaustion she whispered three words.

 "I am blessed"

 A/N: I would like to dedicate this story to Willow who was born at 7am on the 18th December. She is the best thing that ever happened to me. Please read and review.