SICK CYCLE CAROUSEL

After Jake left, the next song, "Sick Cycle Carousel," came on.

"If shame had a face
I think it would kinda look like mine.
If it had a home would it be my eyes?
Would you believe me
If I said I'm tired of this?
Well here we go now one more time"

Immediately my mind jumped to Jake, in the last month or so of the war. He was just so tired of it, and all the shame from all the bad things we had to do could be seen plain as day in his eyes.

"Cuz I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down,"

I thought of that time in the anaconda habitat at the then-decimated Gardens. He proposed, I said to wait a year. I should have foreseen the destruction it would do to his self-esteem. But all that was, thankfully, in the past now.

"I tried to see how
Low I could get down to the ground"

Images of that night at that place, I can't even remember where, and Jake left Marco and Rachel to defend themselves. I was so upset, and he didn't come comfort me. Dealing with his own mental and moral problems, I guess. It upset me, and the next morning he called me, nearly frantic, and asked if I was okay. He said he had a really weird nightmare that scared him really badly. He didn't tell me what happened, and I didn't press him. If it was that awful, I wouldn't want to make him relive it.

"I tried to earn my way
And I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I have
Tried to be this"

A flash of the alternate reality when John Berryman the controller got the Time Matrix. Jake, the junior Nazi calling himself the "Supreme Leader" and shutting Ax up.

"When will this end?
It goes on and on"

Two words for that: The war. It just went on and on and on for 3 whole years, our most valuable years, when we should have been spending nights out at the movies and dances and parties, and instead spent nights in the barn, strategizing or attacking.

"Over and over and over again
Keeps spinning around
I know that it won't stop
'Til I stand down from this for good"

A flash of what I imagined it to be like, based on what Marco had told me, when Visser One crawled out of Alloran's ear.

"I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong, now, one more time..."

When Rachel and Tom were killed... OH! Family was what Jake was fighting *for*! He shouldn't have had to lose them!

"'Cause I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low
I could get down to the ground
And I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I have
Tried to be this"

That would be Jake singing along. He came in the roon in the middle of the song.

"Y'know, that one time we were in the decimated Gardens, when we were there, oh I don't know, for some strange reason?"

"No," I said, utterly confused.

"Well I had a really weird dream where we were there, then we got to the amusement park....."

"When will this end?
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keeps spinning around
I know that it won't stop
'Til I stand down from this sick cycle carousel"

"...then we got sucked into the carousel, and we were fighting too. But we knew the war was over......."

"This is a sick cycle, yeah
Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle, yeah"

"...then they all faded, and we got off, and demorphed, and went home."


"When will this end?
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keeps spinning around
I know that it won't stop
'Til I stand down from this for good"

"Wow. That was weird...." my voice trailed off. I gave him a hug, then he left the room (Mini A/N: See? SAP! Not much, but some ^_^)

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A/N: I did insert parts of my music video. Thanks, Lenalaye for giving me the help when I had writer's block (2 author's notes in a row! ~_^) The dream he was telling her about....was the music video.

So what do you think? If, like me, you are a Lifehouse fan and have an idea for any of the upcoming chapters (which, as all you smart readers have figured out, will be the rest of the songs in order from the CD), write it in the review. I'm especially looking for ideas on the next song, "Unknown". I have an idea but I don't know if it'll work so gimme an idea if you have one ("gimme, gimme,gimme, the honky-tonk blues"-- Andalite Chronicles, when Elfangor's riding in the yellow Mustang, remember?)

PEOPLE- I live for reviews. Just make up something to serve as a name and write "good" or "bad" ITS NOT THAT HARD PLEASE REVIEW THIS!!!!