Our World
Bonnie

Therese is gone, we all watched her. So, there's no turning back now. But, I really don't want to die like this, right now at least. I love those boys, and Lux had to think of the only plan that would deceive them and make them hate us.

If Lux hadn't chose the car as her final departure, I'd be half tempted to drive to Florida with them. We could have a great life. But, I know I could never do it, even if I could use the car. I couldn't abandon the promise Lux and I made to Cecilia the night of her brave attempt.

Wonder if we'll make the news. Not like it'll matter when I'm gone, but you never know. Maybe being on the news will hit mom like an upper cut, or whatever terms those boxers use.

It's around my neck now. This makes me feel like I did something noble, like rebelling against a king. But the truth is that I'm just a coward, and I give up when the going gets tough. But, I'm with my sisters.

I want to write the boys a note, but I know it's to late. So instead of thinking anymore, which is only causing me pain, I'm kicking the box out from under me. I love you.