Our World
Therese
I just washed the pills down with some bitter tasting alcohal.
It's not that I think life was all that bad, not until Lux went around with that Trip. That was when our house turned into a high security women's prison. The food everywhere, the underwear strewn across everything, the dispicable odor. It was a hell hole. Lux made them make it as dirty as possible, she said that would be harder for mom. Lux had such a deep seeded hatred for mom. I know she got it from Cecilia.
Lux always did have such an impression on all of us. Heck, even after Cecilia died and she was the youngest, we followed her around. I never was a leader. She told me that if I did the pills and booze, that I would have died like a famous rockstar. I know she's a liar, that I'm just a coward, but since I didn't want to go against her, I didn't speak up.
We were always in our own little world. Well, every night Lux left for some asshole on the roof, but she'd always come back. Lux was like the king, ruling and dictating over all of us. Cecilia was like the princess, in that she told Lux what to do and Lux listened, half the time. Bonnie and I were just peasants, sitting, watching them take control of our life without saying a word. But Mary was the rebel. I've never figured out or asked why, but Mary never listened to Lux. She said Lux was a prick and that she wouldn't take orders from her little sister. Except for tonight. Because after they leave here, she's going to kill herself, too.
I'm not really sure what to do now. I think I'm supposed to just wait, but I don't feel any different. Maybe I should take another pill, but I won't. Lux told me to wait and do nothing, so I'm waiting and doing nothing.
I wonder what my sisters are doing now. Bonnie's probably in the noose, and the oven's probably warming up for Mary, and Lux is probably playing with the heads of the boys. Which was the one idea Bonnie protested. I didn't know why until this morning when Bonnie told me she loved them. She believed herself to be the maiden and them the knights, trying to rescue her. Lux told her to stop daydreaming. I have a feeling she's known for longer.
But, right now, this is my time. I get to be first. So, Cecilia, make room for me. I'm coming.
Therese
I just washed the pills down with some bitter tasting alcohal.
It's not that I think life was all that bad, not until Lux went around with that Trip. That was when our house turned into a high security women's prison. The food everywhere, the underwear strewn across everything, the dispicable odor. It was a hell hole. Lux made them make it as dirty as possible, she said that would be harder for mom. Lux had such a deep seeded hatred for mom. I know she got it from Cecilia.
Lux always did have such an impression on all of us. Heck, even after Cecilia died and she was the youngest, we followed her around. I never was a leader. She told me that if I did the pills and booze, that I would have died like a famous rockstar. I know she's a liar, that I'm just a coward, but since I didn't want to go against her, I didn't speak up.
We were always in our own little world. Well, every night Lux left for some asshole on the roof, but she'd always come back. Lux was like the king, ruling and dictating over all of us. Cecilia was like the princess, in that she told Lux what to do and Lux listened, half the time. Bonnie and I were just peasants, sitting, watching them take control of our life without saying a word. But Mary was the rebel. I've never figured out or asked why, but Mary never listened to Lux. She said Lux was a prick and that she wouldn't take orders from her little sister. Except for tonight. Because after they leave here, she's going to kill herself, too.
I'm not really sure what to do now. I think I'm supposed to just wait, but I don't feel any different. Maybe I should take another pill, but I won't. Lux told me to wait and do nothing, so I'm waiting and doing nothing.
I wonder what my sisters are doing now. Bonnie's probably in the noose, and the oven's probably warming up for Mary, and Lux is probably playing with the heads of the boys. Which was the one idea Bonnie protested. I didn't know why until this morning when Bonnie told me she loved them. She believed herself to be the maiden and them the knights, trying to rescue her. Lux told her to stop daydreaming. I have a feeling she's known for longer.
But, right now, this is my time. I get to be first. So, Cecilia, make room for me. I'm coming.
