"Fade to Black"



DISCLAIMER: I do not own Outlaw Star, nor the title, which belongs to a Metallica song.

WARNING: Gene-lovers might cry.



by Laguna





Everything...all gone in an instant.

People in my life or anyone that ever comes close to me tends to disappear...fade into darkness without a cause.

Is it me?

It starts with my own father.

I might have been a wreck at times but no one is perfect.

Look at Jim, he and his dad didnt get along.

Although they are together at the end, they were six feet under....together dead.

Damn it, why didnt I stop them, those damned pirates.

Killed my best friend.......at least he and his father are together.

Back to my own father, that heartless bastard.

He lied to me.

Nothing but all lies.

I have been following by his example, have I been living my life as a lie as well?

I cling to this bottle of whiskey and think about that everyday.

What happened to the rest of the crew you might ask?

Do you really want to know?



Hanmyo....she was a sweet girl, always full of hope.

Her dreams of being with Jim shattered at the news of his untimely death.

She went back to the new Anten 7.

That didnt last long.

She died in a botched up mission.

I wonder if the grass is always greener on the other side, who knows?



Aisha, Strong, powerful, but somewhat annoying at times.

I really don't want to repeat her story....lets just say its too hard on me and leave it to that.



Yeah....I skipped Hilda?

So what?

Everyone knows what happened to her, she died while saving my ass?

Wrong my friend, wrong.

It was "the right time" for her to go away.

Why did I read her diary for?

Surprising of her to have one.



Melfina.....heh....I could be with her.

I tell that to myself everyday.

I guess I didnt grow enough guts to tell her the truth.

I couldnt explain her death, even the doctors have no idea.

They said it was of natural causes.

Natural causes my ass. She was still young for that to ever happen.



Yeah and Suzuka and Laguna died....

So?.....I never cared about those two. That's why I wont bother explaining their death

Those two stupid bastards.



Heh....I guess "bastard" has became apart of my vocabulary now, maybe it's the fact Im used to being one.



As I sit here, a bottle in my hand, the ship known as the Outlaw Star rust somewhere in a Heifong Dump.

Yes..what a grand end to the greatest ship in the universe.

Ripped and torn apart and sold for scrap.



As I lay here dead, I just want to know one thing.

Will the grass ever be greener on the other side?

Or will it be another hell I must go through?































How was that?....Well...that was out of boredom, atleast you know I am alive and still writing fics. And as usual, please, no flames.