This is for you Raziel . . ..
Ligar. Do you need
me? I mean. Really need me? Doc told me how you never let anyone he knows
of pilot you before me. So what makes me so
Special? Raw skill like I keep telling everyone? But
what's the point of skill, when your weapon has a mind all it's own? I've
talked to Vega.
Now that Backdraft has fallen apart I can see that he
isn't really that bad a kid. But I talked to him Ligar. Ligar . . .. During
that last stretch of
the final battle? The part where after that one hit he
so quickly increased in speed and reaction time? I talked to him. He was
out cold that whole time.
I wasn't fighting him, or him and Berserk Fury in unison;
it was the Berserk Fury, and only the Berserk Fury. Do you ultimate X's
even NEED a pilot? Or are we just for show? Do we just slow you down
with our commands? Leon talked about bringing out your full potential in
our first
fight with him. But now I wonder, am I holding you back?
Are we human beings an obsolete component to the ultimate X Zoids? Leon
says he
just found his Zoid just wandering around. Or rather
it found him.
Do you just LET
us pilot you, just so the Zoid Battle Commission will let you battle? Zoids
aren't allowed to fight without a pilot. Are we just a technicality? Ligar
. . . I considered you my partner, maybe even my friend, but . . . now
I can't help but feel used, betrayed. Do I have any skill at all? Or did
you choose me BECAUSE I had no skill and therefore, would be easy to direct
in combat? Just let the idiot sit in the command chair and let the Zoid
do all the work is that it Ligar?!
You won't give me any
answers. Not even a reactions. Are you ashamed that you used me? Or are
you thinking I still "pilot" you as long as
I think there's a chance that I'm actually doing some
of the work too? Does that surprise you Ligar? That I WANT to be useful?
That I WANT to have to earn that cash I need to break free of my
huge dept to Doc? (the Royal Cup prize money wasn't as much as we thought
it was after
reconnecting the wings to the Rainos and the legs to
the Shadow Fox and having to rebuild the Gun (V)Sniper from almost nothing,
and then was the overhaul the zero armors all needed.) We human like to
useful Ligar, in spit of some ugly exceptions.
But now I doubt, that
I've been doing anything. Vega's revelation is just too much right now.
I'm sorry Ligar. I can do it. Not now. I can go into battle with you. Knowing
that maybe, everything that happens is only you, and I have nothing to
do with it. What's stopping me from taking out your AI and piloting you
without it? To find out if I do indeed have skills at all? I know I've
acted cocky from day one, but . . . this is different. I think I'm afraid
I already know the answer that I'll lose if I go out there. Because it
was all you to begin with. I'm sorry Ligar, I can't deal with this. I wonder
if we can find a copy of Brad's old Zoid somewhere. I'm sorry Ligar. Good-bye.
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