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Where do we go now?

Part Three: Reaching Out to You

By Aaridys

            There's a void inside my chest that aches each time you are far, a darkness so deep and cold it is unavoidable.  To be so close and yet still apart; fingertips brushing against each other but never grasping.  Is reaching out so hard? 

Can I summon the strenght to call out your name and hope for the best?  You are the knive in my heart; the only cure for my ever-present blindness and only you can offer it.  I cannot come and take it by force but will you stand my presence?

Why are you pulling away?  Can you not see that all I want is to hold you close?  Am I so repulsive?  Was it something I said?

So pure…

Trowa, please!  Please see into your heart that I love you!

And I so dark…

You are part from the wreckage,

Of your silent reverie.

You're in the arms of the angel,

May you find some comfort here.

            Don't you dare pull away from me!  I will not allow you to sink in the depths of your own torments.  Please pull up to me.  I will hold you into the light.

            Help… yes…  You always have it in great amounts.  Your heart is filled with it I guess.  I do not deserve you…

            Enough!  Trowa, as much as I do not want to push you, I feel that the more I remain silent, the more you recoil.

            I cannot touch you Quatre…  It would be blasphemy.

            I don't want to know what happenned to you before!  I don't want to know how many souls you snatched from this Earth!  I don't care if you think you are the worst person on Earth!  Both of us have taken many lives, does that not make me a murderer also?  Stop torturing yourself Trowa, you have to move on.

            Forgetting…

            You have to move on…  For me?

            Getting away…  Evasion…

            Trowa, listen to your heart for once…

            Yes… drown into your light and forget…

            Trowa, open your eyes.

            So much pain…  Are you not afraid I will hurt you?

            Look at me.

            Yes, there is light here, in his arms…

            I love you.

            And I you.

You're in the arms of the angel,

May you find some comfort here.

Notes:  I know the chapters for this where extremely short but I had to put them in separate entries.  It just adds to the story I guess.  Oh!  By the way, 'Angel' belongs to Sarah McLachlan, not to me, sadly enough!  It can be found on the 'City of Angels' soundtrack and Sarah's 'Surfacing' and 'Mirrorball'.