Moonlight and silliness. The words repeated over and over again in my mind.

Why? Why had I given in to Jonathan's plea? Maybe I'm just being crazy. Maybe I did do the right thing. Maybe I am just paranoid. However I am still not sure about what went on last night.

Did John just say those things to get me in bed? A new virgin for him to have fun with, is that what I am?

Regret, it has so many faces. How will I survive my knight training if I am unable to look my knight master in the eyes.

His eyes. How their deep saphire used to warm me. I looked over to Jon laying next to me. Why? I asked myself again. Saphire, is that not a beautiful colour? I no longer know. After a night of them looming in my mind I am unsure.