Christmas in a Shot Glass Including "Silent Night" (Translated from the original German lyrics)
An original songfic by Kathryn
::Warnings:: very angsty, kind of AU
::Disclaimer:: I do not own GW or its characters. I'm just an obsessed fan.
Duo: You are obsessed. You're mean about it too. You're terribly cruel to us.
Me: Am not!
Quatre: You can get a little mean, killing us off and all.
Me: But…. But…
Wufei: Shut up, onna. If you make us commit suicide in this one-
Heero: Omae o korosu.
Other Pilots: Yeah. We'll all help.
Me: Fine. No one commits suicide in this one.
Duo: Then what's with the angst warning?
Me: I didn't say people wouldn't be depressed.
Pilots: Aaaaaacccccckkkkkkk!
Me: ^_~;; Enjoy!
~ * ~
(Heero's POV) (Alternate ending to EW: What if Heero was the only one who survived against Marimeia?)
*song*
*Silent Night! Holy Night!*
That old, familiar tune of this day. It rings empty in my mind. It's all over. We've
failed. I've failed. I've failed them. They're all dead because of me. Because I couldn't
beat Marimeia. They're dead because of me. It's my fault.
*All is calm, all is bright*
It's all quiet, except for the carolers outside. They sound so joyful singing that song.
I've got nothing to be joyful for. Anyone I've ever cared about or has ever cared for me
is dead, gone, never to return. All I have now is my hiding place and this bottle. I'll have
leave soon, but this bottle will help me until then. I'm wanted. Marimeia's preventers
are after me. What a bright future. That song…. I'm feeling something I haven't felt in a
long time. My eyes are so blurry. My cheeks feel warm and damp. I'm crying. I've
been broken.
*Round yon Virgin
Mother and Child*
I don't want to be alone. I want to feel Quatre's hand on my shoulder, reassuring me that
everything will be okay. I want to see Duo bouncing through the doorway, tripping on
things in the process. I even want to see Wufei, quietly practicing his katas with
complete concentration. Hell, even Zech would be a pleasant sight. I just don't want to
be alone.
*Sleep in Heavenly peace,
Sleep in Heavenly peace*
I didn't realize I already had ¼ of the bottle down. That may shots. Ugh. Drown my
problems in whiskey. Why not? Life already sucks as it is, why no wake up with a
giant hangover to complicate it? I feel about the same as I did when I started, maybe
more depressed.
*Silent Night! Holy Night*
My friends are gone, my life is in a swiftly falling downward spiral. I have nothing left.
I have nothing but death to look forward to. I could say the preventers the time and do
it myself right now, but I can't. Why?
*Shepherds quake
At the sight*
I'm afraid. I'm afraid of what will become of me. This isn't me. I've tried to kill myself
before, but hose were in times of panic and absolute necessity. It isn't necessary now,
and I realize how stupid I was to do it before.
*Glories stream
From Heaven afar*
At least I realize that now. How could I have been so stupid? Life is so precious. Hmf.
I say this with 1/3 of the bottle gone. But it feels so warm, like arms around my
shoulders. Gawd! They've only been gone a few hours and I already miss them all. The
Gundams have been defeated. At least we had our moment of glory, of joy.
*Heavenly hosts
Sing alleluia*
The times we had between missions were always interesting, especially with Duo. He
was my favorite person to be around. I don't think he ever realized it, but I always
thought him to be my best friend. He had more time for us than himself. He always
and cheered us up even though, deep down, I know he was feeling like crying or
screaming. Well, I think he's gone to a place where he can see everyone he ever cared
for.
*Christ the Saviour is born
Christ the Saviout is born!*
Mybe his minister's collar had meaning. I never got he nerve to ask. I thought it was a
stupid question, but I'll never know the answer now. I should've gotten to know them all
better and been nicer to them, especially Duo and Quatre. I was such a jerk to them.
*Silent Night! Holy Night!*
I never really got to know Trowa, even during the time we spent together after the first
time I self destructed. He was always so quiet, like he was contemplating something,
and I didn't want to disturb him. Now I wish I had. I don't know anything about him.
*Wonderous star
Lend thy light*
I didn't know Quatre too well. He was so kind to me when we were together. He had
problems, but he was still very nice to everyone, save for the Wing Zero incedent, but
that wasn't his fault. I don't blame him for it either.
*With the angels
Let us sing*
Wufei was too solitary to get close to, but I feel he had a reason to always wanting to
fight alone. I only wish I knew what it was. It was something down far in his soul which
he covered up with an arrogant attitude.
*Allelulia
To our King*
But I miss Duo most. He was the strongest of all of us. He only broke from his goofball
persona a couple of times, but those were always at only the worst of times. Even then,
he'd at least try and smile for us, even if it didn't reach his eyes. Sigh. ½ the bottle gone.
*Christ the Saviour
Is here*
Well, Merry Christmas to you all, where ever you are. Wait for me, I may be a while and
hopefully I'll be able to meet you there, but you'll just have to wait. For now I'll just
indulge in my Christmas. My Christmas in a shot glass.
~ * ~
A.N. Ho ho ho. Aren't I in the Christmas spirit? Just such a happy fic, ne? Kinda
makes you want to dance. Such a happy scene: Heero alone in a dark, bare room with a
bottle of whiskey. Anyway, I know it was late and I'm sorry. It really was written before
Christmas. Feedback?
