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Merry Christmas!!! Hope everyone had a safe and happy holiday! Here are the last two chapters to Nothing Left to have. This one explains about how Jesi and Yoda know eachother and a bit about Jesi's past. Only a little. Enjoy!
Ch. 16 Nothing Left to Have
"Stay still Jesi."
Pierce demanding to a shifting Jesi as he tried to apply burn treatment to her left calf.Jesi sighed and sat still.
"I swear, you're worse than Pixer."
He added starting to finish up. Jesi laughed thinking of the small toddler who was a nephew to Pierce.
"Well you are."
He said with a smile.
"Pixer is 3 years old."
"Exactly."
He finished the bandaging.
They were making their way to Courasant now.
The two looked up at a slight tap on the door.
"Hey Obi-Wan.How do you feel now?"
Jesi asked jumping onto her good leg to the ground and moving towards him.
"Better, thank you."
Obi-Wan replied with a small smile. Not eating hardly anything in mearly 3 days, 5 of his, and running almost 2 miles wasn't all that great for the body. But some quick IV fluids and lots of things to drink cured it all up.
"That's good."
Jesi turned making her way toward the cabinet for something.
"Always avoiding what was meant to come you were."
Jesi dropped the bottle in her hand. With his quick reflexes Obi-Wan stopped it mid air with an invisible grip. Placing it back into the cabinet he felt rather uncomfortable with the way that Yoda and Jesi stood so still looking at eachother as if daring the other to move.
"I'll be in the seating deck."
He said softly. Jesi looked at him and he paused at the door glancing back but then she looked away and he left.
"Are you alright? You look a little dazed."
Billy asked Obi-Wan as he entered the seating area.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
But now he had everyone's attention and eyes.
"You sure? You don't look so well."
Qui-Gon added ready to stand.
"Just tired is all."
"You should get some rest then..you had a ruff past week."
His master insisted.
"Yes Master. I think I'll do that."
Obi-Wan replied still in thought. He bowed slightly and left the area.Walking through the small hallway he tried to recall whatever came to him when he had paused at the door. Jesi had projected something to him. There was a lot of fear in the image. Sparks and glass breaking then it ended and she had looked away.With a huff he landed on the cabin bed.
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Jesi finally got her senses back now and approached the small master and lowered onto her knees ignoring the protest of her burned leg.She bowed her head, not daring to meet the gaze of the old master.
"Much saddness I feel in you.Guilt and anger as well."
Jesi closed her eyes her head still down.
"So long it has been."
"I know Master Yoda."
Jesi whispered.
"Why so long I wonder. Search for you we did."
He continued.
"I did not wish to be found Master Yoda."
Jesi replied opening her eyes but studied the floor.
"A home you had if you wished it."
Yoda studied the woman.Her signature had darkened as well as weakened.
"I did not wish it."
She replied.
"I had no right to be there."
Jesi began to raise her gaze slowly.
"You had every right."
The master said tapping his gimmer stick on the ground.
"I was..I am a murder Master Yoda. I have no right to be amoung the Jedi. Jedi are respectable beings of high worth and wisdom. I am none of these things."
"Sith spit."
Yoda hit the stick harder and Jesi couldn't stop her eyes from going to the master.
Yoda had found her so long ago. She was 16, alone and very independent. Something about her intriged the old Jedi Master and he had brought her to the Temple. Knowing she was already Force sensitive he knew she'd fit in at least a little, even though she couldn't be trained as a Knight for she was far too old. He knew she listened in on a few things. Simple things, lifting objects, enhanced speed and slowly. Small things that didn't make a difference.When she was 19 she chose to leave the Temple to go back to her home planet of Kishir II. She and the Jedi who probably saved her life kept in close contact.By the age of 22 Jesi met a man by the name of Raiy Stafferi. Two years later they wedded. All the while she often came to visit Courasant. She never went inside the Temple since she left but she did meet Master Yoda on the planet while she was there. Often they discussed small things, recalling memories or about what was in store for them on their different paths.Yoda had become a mentor to Jesi and she looked to him for his wisdom and guidance.
When her first child was born, Kyle, she and her husband decided against bringing him to the Temple to be trained. They did the same with their second born. Little Reghan.
War was beginning to tear apart Kishir II but the Stafferis were so deep into it they couldn't leave Kishir II. Raiy was something of a spy or informant. Jesi was the same. New to it then, and took the smaller jobs she still did her part with her husband. Then the day came where their world came crashing down. Raiy had been given up by anothe informant and Colings and his men came for them.And everything they had.
Jesi closed the doors to the memories there.
"Sacrafice everything for what you believed was right did you not?"
Jesi didn't answer but looked away.
"Of respect that is."
Yoda said satisfied. Neither noticed the person standing just outside the door.
~~~~~~~~~NPV~~~~~~
He really shoudn't be doing this. He was always scolding Obi-Wan for evesdropping. But it was just something he *had* to know.Qui-Gon listened to the two inside the med-cabin. He'd leave in a second, he thought. For a minute the two were silent and he wondered what they were doing.He should go, this wasn't right. He stepped away as master Yoda spoke again but stopped hearing Jesi again.
~~~~~~~NPV~~~~~~~~~
Jesi took a breath.
"I can't even grieve over my own son's murder..tell me what respect that comes out to be Master Yoda."
Jesi replied edgidly.
"Grief will come and go in time."
"Grief doesn't have a schedule..I know that well enough by now. It comes when you realize what happened and leaves when you find something to do about it."
"Grieve over your family still do you not?"
What kind of question was that?
"Yes...I do."
She said softly.
~~~~~~~~NPV~~~~~~~
Qui-Gon left quietly back to the sitting area.That was going in far beyond privacy borders.She'd explain about her past when she was ready. If she ever would.
~~~~~~~NPV~~~~~~~
"Then found something to do about it you haven't."
Jesi took a breath in and let it out slowly.Yoda's ears perked.
"Perhaps nothing you can do about it."
Silence stood for a moment.Jesi spoke again,
"Was there anything I could of done to stop Colings? To at least save my son?"
She asked resting her eyes apon the old Master again.
"This I do not know.Doubt it greatly I do."
"I see."
Jesi replied.
"Allowed two Jedi to return home you did. Owe you their lives they do."
He added.Jesi let a small smile cross her lips.
"They owe me nothing."
She whispered. She was very surprised at how her spirits changed with the mention of the two.
"Gave them everything you had."
"I have nothing left to have."
Jesi replied softly coming to the realization on her own.Yoda's ears dropped slighlty.
"In time child. In time."
Jesi sighed and again studied the ground at the name he'd referred to her as always.
In time what?
~~~~****Few Minutes Later**~~~~~~~
"Have you even closed your eyes since we left?"
Qui-Gon entered the darkened cabin turning the light on 2 knots higher.
"Yes...when Jesiana put the IV needle in my arm."
Obi-Wan replied still looking at the bunk above his. Qui-Gon laughed a little sitting on the side of the bed.
"You should be tired."
"I know."
Obi-Wan rolled over onto his side so he didn't have to left his head to see his Master well.
"Why do you think she did it?"
He asked softly.
"Who?" Qui-Gon asked.
"Jesiana. Why do you think she let us go rather than taking her son away?"
Qui-Gon shifted a little.
"I'm not sure."
He was about to added more to the statement but found that no words could fit a proper reasoning. They sat in silence for a while. A long while just in eachother company.
"I'm glad it wasn't you."
Obi-Wan said softly. Just above a whisper. Qui-Gon looked at the still bruised teen. He smiled a little.
"It never could of been Obi-Wan."
Obi-Wan smiled back a little.
"Get some rest.We still have 2 hours yet to go."
Qui-Gon stood walking to the door turning the lights down again.
Obi-Wan knew he would be punished if he would of been caught listening to Jesiana's and Yoda's conversation. It was an accident really.The med-cabin was right next to his and they happened to be near the wall he was on the other side of. Once, when there was a silence, the images came again this time like quick pictures. Even some vocal noise.Along with feelings. At first there was fear and apprehension. Then happiness on both sides.Then happiness on one side but disappointment on another. Something with children. Then there was only saddness, fear, anger, disbelief and will. Suddenly the doors slammed and Jesi spoke again. So really the reason Obi-Wan heard the conversation was because the ships walls weren't thick enough. That was it.
'I have nothing left to have.'
Still rang in his head though. Why did that sound so important to him?
Obi-Wan sighed and closed his eyes again.
To Be Concluded....
