Part 5: You, me, us and the physical inabilities of a new beginning.

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Abby pulled away. It wasn't real, like she had thought; it was just two people trying to make each other feel better. Maybe he knew that too.

"Look Carter…"

"I'm sorry…" They both smiled in unison. What a day!

"Oh my god, Michael!" Abby cried having completely forgotten he was still waiting for her outside. She stopped for a second but then walked away. Everything had already been said. This would be dealt with later, along with the goodbyes, the luggage, then new job, the heartbreak and leaving her home behind. It would have to wait.

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Abby opened the door and noted the time on her clock. It read 3:53am. Who in Gods name would be at her door at this time of night?

"Carter?!" Abby whispered as she opened the door. Her neighbours were banging on the walls and shouting at the top of their lungs. Abby pulled him in quickly by his tie. "What are you doing here? It's 4am!" Abby asked, concerned.

"I…I need to see you" Carter stammered.

"Right now?" Abby asked slightly annoyed.

"Actually yes." Carter finished. He looked at her; he could tell by the shape of her eyes he hadn't woken her up, they began kissing again. It wasn't something that Abby could control. Even if there were a thousand reasons why they shouldn't be doing this, but Abby had to hold it. Had to let go.

" Carter stop." She said firmly, but Carter kept on, Abby half kissing him back pushed him away violently, and Carter stared at her in shock. "God, stop it." Abby repeated, angry both with him and herself. "Can't you see? This is wrong." Abby continued. "I am leaving in two weeks, what the hell are we achieving here Carter? You're getting a rebound girl and I'm getting what I wanted, right? Is that what you think?"

"WHAT?" Carter shouted. "I would never use you like that Abby, you are not a 'rebound girl' me and Susan were over before we began. She was just a way of making me forget, forget you. And for the record I have no idea what you want right now. I never did! One minute we're kissing the next minute you're screaming at me to back off, another minute we're friends and the next minute we're not." Abby sat down. What did she want?

"Carter I am leaving in two weeks, as in gone, never going to see you again. Why do you want to do this now and cause us so much pain? We had something okay? I'll admit that, you've already admitted it, and it's not that I don't want it, it's more like I can't handle it right now. I don't think I'm physically able, I don't think I could make it through."

"Then don't go." He was clear and looked her right in the eye. This option hadn't even crossed her mind.

"Carter…it was meant to be a new start, close to Eric, a new job away from Luka and Richard and…"

"Me?"

"I guess." She finished simply as if it finally made sense for the first time.

"I don't want you to go. I want you to stay, here with me. We've got to try this Ab, it can be a new start for us, you and me, together."

"Carter…I…"

To be continued.

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