Searching for Eden

Shinji woke up to a knocking at the door.

"Dinner will be served in 15 minutes!" Then the unknown person walked away.

Shinji could hear the muffled sounds of the voice repeating the information to the next cabin. Rubbing the sleep out of his eyes, he looked down at his sister who was still resting peacefully on top of him. He smiled at the fact that he succeeded in comforting her, and that she was still at peace. It took about an hour to calm her down, whatever she dreamt about really shook her up. The pilot was torn from waking her up so they could eat, or to let her sleep since she was resting peacefully.

After about a minute, he decided. Shinji tightened his embrace around her waist, closed his eyes and attempted to go back to sleep. Rei wasn't the only one was comforted by their closeness; never in his life had he slept so comfortably.

He mentally confirmed his decision food can wait until tomorrow

Unfortunately for the two pilots, fate had other plans. About 35 minutes later

~BAM~

and then a child's giggle.

Rei eyes shot open and she sat straight up, straddling Shinji's waist.

"It was just some kid banging on the door" Shinji assured in a sleepy shocked whisper. He could hear the kid continue to bang on the other cabin doors in a similar fashion.

Rei just sat there in sleepy shock. Slowly her eyes focused on Shinji, and she nodded. She saw him gesture for her to lay back down, but with a sleepy shake of the head she said no, and got up and off the bed.

The third child successfully hid his disappointment. "Did you get enough sleep?"

She answered honestly and shook her head no, as she groggily looked for her black wig.

Shinji perched himself on his elbow. "Then why don't you come back to bed?"

"Hungry." She whispered out.

He nodded and sat on the edge of her bed. "Me too." He really was.

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Shinji sat across from Rei in the dinning room. Dinner was almost over. Rei had decided it would be best if they were the one of the last to be served. and now they were the last to in the dining room.

To save money, Rei only got water, but she allowed Shinji to get a soda. And since it was more economical than just buying a salad and rice, she ordered a full meal and gave the food she couldn't eat to her Shinji. Shinji in turn gave her his rice and salad.

The waiter came to refill their drinks again and asked "Is there any thing else I can get for you this evening?"

Rei shook her head no. Shinji only responded by narrowing his eyes at the male waiter. Normally he wouldn't be so rude, but he didn't like the way the man kept staring at her every time he came to the table. Rei was all he had left in the world; he felt overly protective of her.

"Just ignore him, oniisan." Rei gently commanded in a soft tone, after the waiter walked away.

The boy looked quizzically at her. "Why does he keep looking at you like that?"

Rei took a sip of her water. "Because I look odd to him."

Shinji's gaze whipped from her to the man.

Rei continued. "Do not worry about it, for I am used to such reactions to my appearance."

The third child was taken back by the casualness of her words. And then as if for the first time, he looked at her, as she drank her water. She did look odd. The black wig she was wearing was really too dark for her alabaster skin, making her look even more pale, sickly even. And the tinted glasses made her seem cold and unapproachable. But her extremely ethereal movements made her seem as fragile as a proclin doll. However all those things were surpassed by her face. Even behind the tinted glasses and framed in that dark wig, her face was completely beautiful, angelic and innocent.

Rei looked up over the rim of her glass of water and inquired for the tenth time. "What are you looking at?" It seemed since they started this journey Shinji was always staring at her.

"The boy blushed "Umm..nothing"

Rei took a deep breath and accepted his answer. She knew that he was lying, but it wasn't worth commenting about. "Are you finished?"

Shinji nodded and picked up the Styrofoam containers that held their leftovers and got out of his seat. When Rei started to get out of her chair, she felt woozy and fell back into her seat.

Shinji spun on his heals "Are you ok?"

In a gentle movement, Rei raked her hand over her face and nodded.

The boy's brow furrowed. He didn't believe her. "Are you sure, Rei?"

"Wakaba" Rei weakly corrected. "We are in pubic, remember?"

"Gomen" Shinji put the containers on the table and kneeled in front of his sister. She was looking paler than usual. "Are you sure you're ok?"

She gave him a brave smile and nodded. However, she felt terrible, as if something was trying to steal her..... Rei's brow furrowed, and she grabbed her ears as if someone was screaming in her ears

"FIRST CHILDREN!! COME!! YOU OWE ME!!!!"

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Shinji was absolutely distressed. He didn't know what was wrong with her. Because of his fear, he forgot her command and called out "Rei! Please tell me what wrong!"

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She didn't answer. She was too busy with her internal battle. Whoever was calling her, was trying to steal her life force. It sounded like the commander, but it didn't sound like him.

Leave me alone! She mentally cried out

"I WILL, AS SOON AS YOU COME TO ME!!!"

please... leave me alone

"NO! YOU MUST COME! YOU WILL COME"

Rei could feel her soul being pulled from her body. She verbally cried out. "NO!"

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Shinji was taken back by her scream and he let her go, He wasn't sure if she was talking to him.

With tears streaming out her eyes, Rei looked down at her travel companion. "Please..." She whimpered out "Help me get to our cabin..." She felt completely weak. She could feel whatever entity the commander had become, was still trying to capture her soul.

Shinji nodded and wrapped his arm around her waist, brought one of her arms to rest over his shoulders, and held onto her wrist. Ever-so-slowly, they started walking out of her dinning area. Unfortunately, they didn't get far.

As Rei walked beside Shinji, she became overwhelmed with lethargy and could no longer fight off the force that was trying to steal her soul.

Shinji eyes swelled up with tears exactly when he felt and realized that she could no longer carry her own weight. "Please...Rei. just.." He started to cry. "Please don't leave me... please don't die.."

Rei looked at him, her tears where streaming out of he eyes. She was trying to honor his wish, but she could no longer hold on to her soul. "Oniisan..." Was all she was able to call out before she fell to her knees and fainted.

"REEEEEIIIIII!!!"

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When her eyes closed in her body, instantly her soul's eyes open up in a blinding white abyss. She didn't know why but she felt safe. As if the force that took her from her body could not reach her here.

where am I?

"Safe" answered a gentle whisper.

who are you? Rei did not fear this this voice, unlike the fear she experience when listening to the commanders. This voice was comforting .. as if it were the home she never had, yet always new always knew she did.

"I am you."

no. I am me. who are you?

"I am alpha.. I am the beginning and the mother of the lillium...I am what you once were."

Rei did not respond.

"You are omega... you are end of the lillium...."

Rei did not respond.

The voice however continued. "Together we are Lillith"

no. I am Ayanami Rei

Lillith's laughter rang out in the abyss. It wasn't cruel, it was amused. "Then you may stay Ayanami Rei..."

The first child did not respond; she not believe the voice.

And the voice laughed even more joyously. "Apprehensive, little one?.. good you should be..."

what do you want with me? Rei asked cautiously.

"I want you to stay away from Adam"

who is Adam?

"He is the death of the lilium"

I though you said I was omega.. I was the end

"Yes, you are the end of the lillium... he is the death... Stay away from him."

who is Adam? Rei asked again.

The scenery change into NERV.

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Shinji was on his knees crying over the lifeless body of his sister.

"You promised!!" He screamed. "You promised we would be together forever!!!"

The train's head conductor tried to pull Shinji back away from Rei, but was unsuccessful. The third child grabbed onto the first and held onto her as if she was his life preserver and he was about to drown.

"Please, young man.." The older man pleaded sympathetically. "We need to get a doctor to her.""

Shinji shook his head and cried into the crook of Rei's neck. He already knew what the doctor would say. Rei was dead! She had stopped breathing ten minutes ago. She had no pulse, no heart beat. She was DEAD!

"Please..uhh" He looked over at his second in command and pleaded with his eyebrows for help.

"His name is Miki ..." The young man whispered. "Kazoku Miki, and his sister's name was Wakaba." The young man sighed dejectedly as he stared a the lifeless young girl that was held in the tight embrace of her brother.

The older man placed a compassionate grasp on Shinji's shoulder. "Miki.... please, Dr.Nomu maybe able to help Wakaba."

"Please .." Shinji weakly sobbed out to the conductor. "Please... just leave us... please just leave us alone.." He shook his head no at his choice of words then correct his mistake "Together.."

"Kazoku-kun"

Shinji froze and looked up to the owner of that cold ,sharp voice. It sounded so much like the way his father spoke.

The owner of that voice belong to the doctor. "You need to move, so I can see if I can help her."

As if he were conditioned to obey that voice, Shinji reluctantly and gently laid Rei on the floor and backed away.

The doctor placed his black medical bag beside the fallen angel, and pulled out his stethoscope. Next he took the tinted glasses off of Rei's face. He wanted to see if her eyes were dilated. He recoiled back when he saw her eyes. As so did the first and second conductor's of the train. They were *not* expecting Rei to have glazed over *red eyes*. Blood red eyes.

Shinji cried even harder when he saw how lifeless her eyes were. Rei was not a person that expressed emotion, but her eyes always mirrored how she felt inside. Unfortunately, how she felt was always sad. Her crimson eyes always looked so sad. As if she had the unfortunate opportunity to view her own death. To know about an inevitable future and there was no way of changing it. However, of late, Shinji had noticed that her look of sorrow was gone and her eyes now showed a glimmer of anticipation and excitement about what was to happen next. But now that was gone. Forever.

The doctor turned to look at the boy then looked back at Rei. "What is she to you again?" He observed her pale skin, and of course, her eyes.

"My..." The pilot could barely make out the words through his hiccups. "My..sister.. my twin sister..."

The doctor looked back at the crying boy and grabbed his chin to see his face. Shinji hit his hand away and reburied his face in his hands and cried. The doctor looked back at the first child and nodded. He was satisfied at their facial similarities.

"What was wrong with her?" Dr Nomu asked the third child coldly. "What type of illness was she suffering from?"

"She wasn't ill!!!" Shinji cried out. "She must have been poisoned by the food we just ate!!" The pilot cried harder.

"Of course she was ill. " The head conductor assured. He didn't want to be sued or accused of killing a perfectly healthy girl. "Just look at her!" He gestured to Rei with his hand.

Shinji eyes whipped up to the man and he gave him a cold, angry expression that rivaled is father's. "She's albino! Not sick!"

The doctor turned his gaze away from the angry teen, and looked back at the girl. "I guess that would explain her odd color eyebrows and eyelashes." He looked closer. "What are they... blue?" He started to reach for her wig.

"They're not odd!" Shinji cried out defensively, pushed the doctor aside before he could touch her wig, and embraced Rei again. "Please.. come back... you promised... never to leave me..."

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As an observing spirit, Rei stood over the lifeless body of the commander. He was laying on his back. His trademark glasses had falling off his face. But in death, he looked like he had acquired a sense of peace he could never grasp in life.

I killed him she admitted solemnly.

"He was already dead" Lillith assured.

I do not understand?

"Watch"

Rei continued to observe the lifeless body of the commander. Then she heard it

~thump thump~

~thump thump~

Blood squirted out of the bullet wound.

~thump thump~

A few seconds later, the bullet dislodged itself and fell to the floor.

Rei stepped back in fear.

~thump thump~

The commander's body twitched.

"Time to leave Ayanami Rei" Lillith whispered

Rei nodded in agreement.

"NO! NOT THIS TIME!" The commander's voice roared and his eyes snapped open, revealing to red orbs that were very similar to Rei's.

Rei heard herself cry out

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Because she was literally screaming.

As so was EVERYONE in the dining room. They were all terrified because the girl that had been *dead* for over twenty minutes, just came to life and was screaming as if she had just escaped Hell itself.

Rei sat straight up and frantically looked side to side. She was looking for Shinji. She needed Shinji!

The third child quickly got over his fear, and embraced her. He knew too much about her to stay afraid by what just happen. His fear was in losing her, not in her coming back to him.

Rei sobbed onto his shoulder and cried out in a shaky whisper. "I'm scared oniisan... I'm scared we will never be free..."

Shinji didn't know how to respond to her comment; he just knew that no matter what, he would protect her. Rei was the most important thing in his life and he had to protect her. He gaze whipped to the left when he heard the door slam. He just realized the he and Rei were the only ones left in the dining room. The first and second conductor, plus the doctor ran out like cowards when Rei awoke

"Rei-chan" The pilot whispered out lovingly "You don't have to be afraid.. I won't let anything harm you. I promise"

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Deep in NERV The commander wiped the blood off his forehead; the bullet wound was no longer there. He was no longer dead. He chuckled as he took of his glove and looked at the implanted embryo of Adam. This was why he was still alive. Thick veins were running all up his arm. He had been infected with the angel and he had been for a long time. Actually it was just the body that was infected, Ikari soul had left this body long ago. Gendo had the embryo implanted in his hand to keep SEELE from retrieving it and starting the 3rd impact with it. He never counted on it killing him, and taking over his body as if he were still alive. Gendo never counted on Adam using him, and his position to try and start the impact; the very thing he had been trying to avoid.

Adam-Gendo looked side to side for his rose tinted glasses, and smirked when he found them. He placed them on his face, and put the glove back on "Stupid lillium, they don't even question why I where glasses and gloves all the time." A sadistic laughter rang throughout the carnage that was now NERV."Have your fun Ayanami Rei... I will come for soon."

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Okay first things first. I would like to say thank you to everyone who responded to my plight. Hopefully I won't have anymore problems with my computer ^__^ Thank again it really meant a lot to me

Second

I know this is way different from So Happy but I was asked to do different *hehe* It's going to lighten up.. I just have to explain a couple more things first.. Don't worry Gendo is not going to be in this fic much. He's just an annoyance in the back ground. ^_~

Third ~_~ GRRR

I don't know who you are but DO NOT SEND ME ANYMORE EMAIL ADDRESS'S THAT GO TO INCESTUOUS WEBSITES!!!!!! I assure you I am NOT into incest!! I mean for crying out loud!! You could be breaking the law sending that SH*T to me!!! You don't even know how old I am!!!

I am a Rei and Shinji supporter. Unfortunately the creators wanted to make them related, but they also made Shinji and Rei the perfect couple. That's a bridge that all Rei and Shinji supporters had to cross and get over. But I assure you that I DO NOT CONDONE THE RELATIONS BETWEEN RELATIVES!!! I think it is NASTY!!! So I DON'T care to have those types of address's given to me. EVER!!!!!

This is a fic. It has no bearing on my life, or my personal feelings. It is only an idea that came up after reading a V.C. Andrews book called Flowers in the Attic. My friends dared me to write something along these lines and another friend told me to go for it! So I repeat I AM NOT INTO INCEST!! AND IF I GET ANYMORE OF THAT SH*T IN MY EMAIL I SWEAR I'LL FIND OUT WHO YOU ARE AND REPORT YOU TO THE COPS!!

with that being said. I still do not own anything that deal with Evangelion