Searching for Eden

Once he found that the corridor was clear, Adam cautiously walked out of the elevator then sprinted toward the camber which held the MAGI. At the large double doors, he swiped his authorization card and walked in, then pressed the button to close the doors. He didn't want to be interrupted, for what he had to do took great concentration without the use of his AT field.

The pseudo commander smirked at the slain body of Ritsuko Akagi. He had killed her when he caught her in the act of trying to destroy the MAGI. At the time, it wasn't part of his plan. Nor was is part of his plan to be blown up inside of NERV because of the doctors insane jealously, and her revenge for allowing her cats to starve to death.

Adam laughed at that last thought and crouched down beside the deceased woman. He rested his elbows on his knees, pressed his fingertips together, and concentrated.

"RITSUKO....COME!"

After thirty minutes of summoning, the doctors eyes opened. Slowly, her eyes focused on the commander.

Adam gave the woman a pleased smile. He was pleased with himself and his ability to retrieve her soul. However, he was sure that Lillith allowed the soul to come back to its vessel.

In a raspy voice, the doctor asked. "Where the hell am I?" .

"Not hell..." Adam joked in Gendo's icy voice. "Although you probably couldn't tell the difference."

With painstaking effort, Ritsuko sat up and looked at her hands. She noticed the fingertips were blue signifying the loss of oxygen, a sure sign of death. They were also swollen. She looked down at her body and noticed the bullet wound in her chest and also that her body was bloated, another sure sign of death. With effort, her head whipped toward Gendo/Adam.

" Ahh ahh ahh... Not so fast..." The commander chuckled. "You're suffering from a little rigor mortis."

Akagi whispered out. "How...why..." She couldn't understand how or why the commander brought her back from death.

"How?" He raised a brow then took off his tinted glasses and revealed his red eyes.

She scooted back in fear. "What are you?"

He asked knowingly. "What do you think I am?"

She didn't answer. Instead she tried to force her body to comply and stand up.

Adam stood up and chuckled at her futile attempt to escape. "Where do you think you're going?"

She didn't answer him. She just scrambled on her hands and knees as she tried to crawl away.

The angel allowed her to crawl a few steps away from him before he walked to her and grabbed her by the back of her hair and growled. "Enough games!" He pulled her up by her hair and onto her feet. "I have a job for you!"

"You can't be serious!... .You f*cking killed me..." She tried to swallow hard to moisten her throat so she could speak, but her body was not producing saliva because she was dead. So in a raspy voice she whispered out. "I hate you... I'll never help you again!"

"Oh, I think you will." The commander interrupted flatly and threw her against the super computer.

Ritsuko slammed against it hard, thankfully her pain receptors were no longer functioning, or she would have been sorely hurt by the impact of it. As she slid down, she asked weakly. "What am I?...How am I here?"

Adam stood in a more relaxed stance and watched his deceased lover ponder her existence. He answered a bit mirthfully. "You're a zombie."

She shook her head no and tried to will herself to cry. She didn't want to be back, not under his control. Not in a decaying body! am now worse than what Rei ever was..

He poked out his bottom lip and said in a mock baby voice. "Whaaaat? You don't like the voodoo that I do so well?"

She narrowed her eyes angrily at him. "I hate you!" Her voice was painfully low, but the venom behind her words were as clear as ever.

"That matters not " The commander said cruelly and walked toward her. "I have a job for you. I want you to immobilize the MAGI."

She interrupted weakly. "It's impossible... I tried remember..." She laughed bitterly and slowly stood up defiantly. "And I..."

"Failed" He finished her sentence. His crimson eyes narrowed angrily. He wasted precious time calling for this soul. She was "Useless"

Ritsuko heard what he called her, and gave him a victorious smirk through her blue lips, blue because of the lack of oxygen, right before her body fell limp to the ground. He had returned her soul to Lillith.

Adam paced around angrily. "Dammit!" He needed the MAGI deactivated. He could just as easily blow it up with use of his AT field, but that wouldn't deactivate the others that were connected within the worldwide system. He need the blue light detection cut off. He walked over to the corpse of the doctor, and kicked out his frustrations on it. "Dammit! Dammit! Dammit to HELL!!"

He then angrily paced around and thought about his current situation. A few minutes of deliberation passed before he glanced at Ritsuko again. The attention he gave to her was because he just realized the mistake he just made. His mistake was in the way he was vented his displaced anger on the doctors body, for his foot tore a hole in her side, and the gaseous build up that was bloating her was slowly seeping out. The smell of it was absolutely disgusting. He covered his nose with the back of his fingers and fought the urge to vomit. Though his thoughts were cloudy because of the mind numbing smell, he continued to ponder on why Ritsuko failed in her attempt so destroy the MAGI. When the answer finally came to him, he smiled behind his hand and whispered

"Naoko..."

Adam now knew that he was going to have to retrieve the soul of Ritsuko's mother. That would be easy enough, for he had a vessel to house it in. He didn't have to have the elder doctor Akagi's original body, any vessel would do and he had one, in her daughter.

"I should have called on her in the first place." He growled to himself.

Adam knew that it was Naoko who designed the super computer. She was the one who put her personalities in Melchior-1, Balthasar-2, and Casper-3, who were the three computers which made up the MAGI. She was the one who foiled Ritsuko's plans by creating a firewall to block any attempt to destroy her creation. Naoko wanted to ensure that Gendo succeed in his plan, whatever the cost, no matter who was hurt or betrayed. But would she still be so loyal? Gendo had punished the soul of Naoko by having Rei deposit it in unit 00 Eva. He purposely allowed the child that she killed, to force her into compliance. Gendo made Rei, Naoko's master.

With Gendo's past grievances in mind, Adam ignored the putrid smell, sat beside the body, and meditated. He called upon the soul of the elder Dr. Akagi.

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Shinji locked the door behind Rei, then leaned back against it, closed his eyes and sighed. What had just transpired in the hall was one of the worst things he ever had to experience. It ranked up there with the first time he had to pilot unit 01. Ok, maybe it wasn't one of his worst experiences, but it was pretty bad. Standing up for himself was something he never did, and in his opinion it was harder than piloting an Eva or fighting and angel. His heart was pounding a mile a minute as he stood there breathing heavily, until a soft tender voice called on him.

"Shinji"

The pilot froze when she called him. He wasn't ready to face Rei yet. After what happened between them, he didn't know how to act around her. He wasn't sure if she would demand physical affection from him again. He wasn't sure if he would continue to reject her desire, for it was also his desire as well. But as the minutes passed and he still did not respond, he quickly realized that there was no were he could go and hide from her. So he slowly pried his eyes open, one at a time, and look upon his beautiful sister.

Rei was standing there with her hands delicately clasped in front of her, and she stared quizzically at him with her angelic tear streaked face.

He swallowed hard before he answered. "Y-y-yes...Rei?"

Before she could speak, someone kicked their door, scaring both children. Shinji jumped away from the door, grabbed Rei by the hand, and ran to the opposite side of the cabin. The two teens could hear a man yell some curses at them and call them an abomination.

It wasn't until a few minutes after the man went away did Shinji realize that he still was holding Rei protectively in his arms. Once he realized this, he guiltily let her go.

"Gomen"

She tilted her head to the side, but did not respond to his comment. She had no idea why he would be sorry for trying to protect her. maybe he realized I could protect myself?

Shinji looked away from her, but stayed there against the wall. He was afraid to move from that location. He felt safe there because it was the furthest spot from the door and those hateful people.

Rei looked away from him too and walked toward her bed. Unlike her brother, she was not afraid.

Shinji eyes widened frightfully when he saw her walking toward the middle of the room, for he could still hear people outside the door cursing them for their love. He didn't want her anywhere the door just incase they burst through. So he grabbed her wrist.

The first child stopped and gave him a side profile of her face. "Yes?"

"Rei... I want you to stay over here." His fear was clearly audible.

She looked at the door, listened to the rants, then turned and faced him. "Why are they so angry?"

The boy looked at the door then back to her. "They think that our love is wrong..."

"Why?" She tiled her head to the side.

Shinji looked down at his feet and meekly answered "Because we're related."

Rei took a step closer to him and asked. "And that it is wrong... to love one's sibling?"

He looked at her and answered "No..." She was about to say something else, but he interrupted her. "But they think *our* love is wrong..."

Her face was expressionless. "I do not understand."

Shinji swallowed hard and looked away from her. He did not know how to explain this. He took a deep breath and turned back to her. "Rei, do you love me.."

"Yes" She interrupted.

He smiled. He couldn't help himself, it felt good to be loved, he continued hesitantly. "Do you love me as a brother?"

She answered absolutely. "Yes."

Shinji furrowed his brow.

As so did Rei's. By his reaction to her response, she realized that she gave him the wrong answer; although she didn't know why it was wrong.

He took a deep breath. "Rei..."

She interrupted him. "Do you not love me as a sister?"

The boy shook his head no.

Her chin started to quiver and her eyes watered up. His answer tore out her heart. so he doesn't love me after all!!

He quickly corrected his error. "I love you in a different way..."

She choked out. "I do not understand."

He took another deep breath. He if he wasn't looking into her melancholy crimson eyes, he would swear that she was purposely being difficult. Unfortunately that wasn't the case, for he could tell that she really didn't understand. He leaned his back against the window and slid down into a sitting position.

Rei took that as her queue to sit as well. But unlike Shinji, who sat in an Indian style, she sat on her knees Japanese style. She continued to look at him quizzically.

The boy raked his hands through his brown hair and began. "Rei ... when I think about our relationship... I see us... together but...." He looked into her eyes as she passively waited for his explanation. "But like a man and a woman"

Rei slightly quirked at brow. She didn't understand. man and a woman... does he only want to be together when we're older?

Shinji could tell that she still didn't understand. "Rei... weren't you ever taught about this?"

"No." She answered innocently. "Were you?"

That question caught him off guard. "Uhh... No.."

"I was created to fulfill the commander's plan." The first child answered honestly "Since my death and my reawaking my knowledge and my memories mostly consists of the happenings of NERV."

The boy nodded in understanding. He took another deep breath to give himself strength to continue with the conversation. and to calm his queasy stomach. Her confession brought up bad memories. Before he began, he brought his knees up to his chest, turned beet red, and admitted meekly.

"Rei...oh gawd.. how can I admit this.. the way... I feel..." He raked his hands in his hair, and hid his face between his knees and mumbled out. "I love you, and I want to be with you the way we were when we were kissing ...and stuff..." oh gawd just take me now

Rei crawled over to him, stood up on her knees, and gently ran her fingers through the back of his hair. "Me too."

Shinji muffled a groan. This was not going well. Fortunately, fate was going to help him out. Someone from the outside hit their door hard, and called them incestuous bastards. Rei twisted slightly and looked at the door, other than that she did not outwardly respond to the comment, but Shinji got pretty shaken up.

She turned back around, looked down into her brothers dark blue eyes and asked "What is this incest they keep yelling about?"

Shinji looked back into her eyes. He couldn't believe she didn't know, then he remember her confession.

She tilted her head quizzically and awaited his answer.

Shinji blushed heavily and said. "It when relatives have sex."

Her brow furrowed "And this is wrong?"

duh "Umm... yes"

"But all lillum are related." Rei's voice rang with pure innocence. "Are you sure it is wrong?"

Now it was Shinji's turn to furrow his brow. "Why did you call us lillum?"

She looked away from him and was silent for about 2 minutes. "Something inside me...considers you lillum.."

"But you never considered us lillum before..." The boy asked curiously. "Or did you?"

She looked at the floor and shook her head no. "Part of me was suppressed ...I took pills...that made me into the girl you knew...That part of me... is now waking up ."

"Oh.." He looked at her sympathetically. "Do you still take them?"

She wanted to drop that subject. Rei looked at her brother and shook her head no, then scooted closer to him.

Before she could do anything else, Shinji squeaked out. "Rei...we can't do that?"

She looked him in the eyes, and asked "Do what?"

He blushed because of the intensity of her gaze, and reluctantly admitted. "Kiss and....stuff"

The first child quirked a brow and looked away from him. That was not her intention when she closed the distance between them, but since he decided to change the subject, she decided to ask "Why?" She was curious anyway.

"Because you're my sister and its wrong."

She looked him deep in the eyes and asked. "Do you believe that?"

He didn't answer immediately. When he did answer, it was in a guilty whisper. "It doesn't matter what I think or want... It's forbidden for a brother and sister to be intimate in that way."

Rei repositioned herself so that she was sitting on her knees, and thought about what he just said. She looked into his glistening eyes. They were moist from unshed tears. She took a deep breath and embraced his shoulders.

Shinji stiffened. He was worried that she still didn't understand, until she whispered in his ear.

"Oniisan.. I have never known family...so I do not know if this is appropriate..."

Shinji eyes rolled to the back of his head. Rei's sweet lips were brushing up against his ear as she spoke. He never knew, before that moment that every nerve in his body was connected to his earlobe.

Rei continued. "Is it ok ...if I do this?"

Shinji knew she was talking about the hug and not what she was unconsciously doing to his ear. He nodded.

She pulled back and smiled warmly. She placed her hands on his perched up knees and pressed on them until he got the hint to lower them. She then straddled his thighs and embraced him again.

"Is this ok?"

His eyes had tripled their size and he barely made out. "I-I..I don't think so"

She nodded and got off of him.

The third child instantly regretted his answer.

Rei gently put her hands on his shoulders and pushed him until he was laying on his side on the floor. She then laid on her side and scooted close to him. "Is this ok?"

Shinji wasn't sure, but since she wasn't laying on top of him he nodded.

She gave him a warm smile and scooted closer to him, pressing her body against his, and draped his arm over her slender waist. "Is this ok." She draped her arm across his chest.

"Uhhh..I-I'm not sure.." He admitted. "I guess.... It would be ok... if you or I were having a nightmare ..or something...?"

"Only then?" She asked innocently.

He reluctantly nodded and slightly shrugged.

She nodded in understanding then leaned forward and tenderly kissed his cheek. "Is that ok?"

He stiffly nodded. His whole body was beet red and completely stiff. Rei's quest to find out what was appropriate was really turning him on.

She smiled and nodded too, then gave him another tender kiss very close to the corner of his mouth "Is that ok?"

"I-I-I'm not sure...but...I don't think so"

She nodded then caressed his lips tenderly. The lips she would never be able to kiss again and whispered. "I love you.... but I guess I don't love you like a sister because I want more."

He swallowed hard and nodded in understanding.

She continued. "But since it is forbidden to do more, I will only interact with you as this society deems appropriate for a sister and a brother...." She sat up and got to her feet, bowed respectfully and walked to her bed. "Good night, oniisan."

Again, the third child swallowed hard and nodded. That's all he could do. He was immobilized by unrequited lust.

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It was almost morning by the time Ritsuko's eyes opened again.

Adam smirked at his accomplishment, but he knew that Lillith allowed this soul to come. He wasn't sure why, but he had a feeling that Lillith too wanted the blue light detection disabled, most likely for benefit of Ayanmi Rei.

Adam caressed the face of the doctor and smiled warmly. He had a feeling that Naoko was going to be pissed with him because of what Gendo did to her, so he decided that he was going to seduce her into complying with his wishes. This way of achieving compliance was used on her once and worked. It worked on her daughter. It was an old trick, but Adam felt, why try an fix what isn't broken.

"Finally my love, I was able to bring you back..." He lied in a seductive voice.

A smile graced those dead blue lips, and she hoarsely whispered lovingly. "Gendo.."

oh this is just too easy Adam inwardly smirk. "I'm here, my love"

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