Session 3:
The World Around us


"You heard everything?" Spike asked.

I nodded, "Yes."

Spike hugged me and sighed. "Faye...I..."

I broke away from his embrace and looked in his eyes, so soft and caring. I didn't want to turn back into my old self again; I didn't want to be angry with him. I couldn't...I loved him.

"What is it?" I asked quietly.

Spike pulled me into another hug and whispered in my ear, "I love you."

I smiled and whispered back, "I know. I love you too."

"This is just great, I'm telling you, Spike. I thought you hated kids and women that act like Faye," Jet growled.

Spike pulled away and looked at Jet. "You know I thought I did too, but things change Jet and they were meant to change," Spike replied.

Ed marched into the room with Ein following her. She looked blankly at us and walked to her computer. She could have probably cared less. Ein barked happily at her side.

"What's that Ein?" Ed asked.

Ein barked more loudly.

"Spooky!" she giggled.

All three of us looked at Ed. She was oblivious to the problems concerning everyone else, oblivious to the whole world around her. I could not tell if it was a good thing or not. Maybe she was better off this way, being cheerful and not knowing sadness. I wish I could do the same. My luck was running dry and now I am not so well.

In my heart I knew I was lonely but I couldn't understand why. Now I know and want to be myself...the girl I once was. There was a piece of me missing...maybe there were two pieces missing. One was a lover, now realizing that Spike loved me was a sure sign that that piece will be found. The second was my past, not knowing who I really was destroyed me. All I want to know is who I was and where I was from. I remember shattered pieces of my past that seem like a movie. A sorrowful song that someone used to sing. Was there a doorway to my past? I had to know!

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Preview of the upcoming session:
There was a song I knew and a voice that used to sing it. I can't remember who it was that sung it, but I can hear it in my head. They say remembering is painful...maybe it is. I don't know. Next session: Castle on the Clouds



A/N: I decided to put a preview in but I'll leave the other sessions as they are. So, I at least have an idea for the next session. Hehehehe...I haven't planned anything...yet! Until I write it!

Oh, sorry that this session was short I ran out of ideas. Gomen ne!
~Melfina Starwind