I don't own OUTLAW STAR, or any of the characters..
This is a poem that could kind of take place after the Lei Line, but before
Gene & Mel really get together. He looks back on his life and gets a sense
that something was missing, and looks upon his feelings for Melfina,
Heart of steel, heart of warmth
I don't love anyone or anything. That's what I've always told myself.
To be an OUTLAW living alone not being held down by anyone, no
obligations, or emotions held for someone else.
A heart of steel, cold and barren, a cage keeping myself separated from all
trying to get through hurting them, pushing them away rather than admitting
that I myself could get hurt, become vulnerable, or in some way might tire of
this lonely existence.
But you were different.
You risked your well being, your own heart and emotions for me, you
risked being hurt by me and my closed heart to be there for me, when I
thought I didn't even want you around.
I was ungrateful and found you to be a nuisance
But the more you tried to wear down my heart, my strong defenses the
higher I built them, but the weaker they became.
20 years of strong defensive walls slowly begin to tremble when you
spoke, and come crashing around me at your touch.
But as much as I try to elude you, and keep you away, and at a distance. I
realize something.
I need you, as much as I've tried to avoid it and pretend it isn't true you
have gotten in.
I now accept what my heart has known all along. I LOVE YOU, I always
have, and always will.
You've been the beacon that without whom, my lonely and painful existence
would be all for not. You're frail, young, confused and naïve, but only your
warm and loving heart brings true meaning to me.
Never forget that
I love you, Mel……
I hope it is as decent as I think it might be. Please let me know what you think of it…
