HIDDEN EMOTIONS II:I LOVE THE WAY YOU LOVE ME
By: Cindy
Email: sg1phileshipper@skynet.be
Disclaimers: The profiler gang isn't mine. They belong to the Sander/Moses production and the NBC network. No infringement is intended and I'm making no money out of this. The song "I love the way you love me" belongs to Boyzone. No infringement intended there either.
Classification: SBR, like always. It's my main reason of living. Sam POV
Rating: PG
Spoilers: None
Summary: This one's a follow-up to 'Hidden Emotions'. You should read that one first.
'Hidden Emotions II: I love the way you love me'
Bailey is standing in front of me. I have opened my eyes only an hour ago, and he's already there. I can see he has been crying. He was scared I would die. I know that. I'm clutching the letter he wrote me to my chest. It's the most beautiful thing I have ever read. I only wish I was able to write like that. I didn't know he was something of a writer. I pictured him more as a talker. It's funny how you can be so wrong with people you know. The song came as the biggest surprise to me. I'd love to hear him sing it to me some day, but today we have more important stuff to do. We have to talk. I always knew Bailey cared a lot about me, but I never hoped he would love me that much. And all this time I was seeing other guys, he has watched me and maybe I did hurt him. If only I could have seen in his eyes it was killing. And now I realize why he said he wasn't much of a talker. He is a talker, but not when it comes to love.
Bailey is finally moving and sits down next to me. He wipes my tears away with his thumb and I realize how lucky I am to have such a friend. He's one out of a billion. He's my lifeline and my only true friend. Sure, Angel is my friend too, but I don't think I am as close to her as I ever was to Bailey. I think Bailey is the only one I couldn't live without. I took me a long time to realize, but now I am so sure of it, I will never let him go again. I will protect Bailey with my life. I love him more than anything in this world. The day he walked into my life, an Angel must have watched over me. And I will be thankful forever.
As he sits down on the bed next to me and I am looking at this letter, I do the only thing I have to. I whisper how much I love him too. And then the color of his eyes change and I see a light burning inside his eyes. Like the changing of the seasons, Bailey eyes are changing color. And then I know why. They are because of me, because how much he loves me. And I consider myself lucky that I have had that chance twice in my life. And I won't let my second chance go. I lost the first love of my life because of Jack and I won't loose the second over him. I'll protect Bailey with my whole being. I'll be his shelter in the rain. I'll be. I'll be. I'll be everything he needs me to be.
Bailey doesn't stay long. He tells me I need some sleep and I guess he is right. I am tired, very tired. But I could spend my whole life looking at him without sleeping. But I know he won't let me do that. I'm sure he'll even sing me a lullaby if he has too. And what am I doing while he is worried about me, I am thinking about how nice it would be to fall asleep in his arms. His strong muscled arms will protect me from all evil. And I know Bailey will do anything to protect me, like he always has. But now something is different. He won't be protecting his best friend; he will protect his best friend AND his future. He hasn't told me that, but I know that is exactly what he's thinking. Then he leaves and I feel his soft, warm lips burning on my forehead. The heat radiating from the kiss goes through my entire core. And then he turns around and walks off without looking back. And I know why he did that. Because if he had looked back, it would have been too hard too leave.
He is gone, but I can't sleep. I read his letter over and over again. It must have been hard for him to write that while he was seeing me dying. Maybe he got his inspiration there, I don't know and I won't ask him. But I'm sure he has a lot more to tell me than this letter says. And I have to let him know how I feel about him. I told him I loved him too, but he deserves more than that. I'll get even with him and write down how I feel. It may be considered childish, but that's the way we both are. I have to give him something he can remember me by. The decision is made quickly and I take pen and paper and start writing:
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Dear Bailey,
You just left a while ago and I can't sleep. I know you would be mad if you saw I was staying awake to write to you. You'd say you already know how I feel. But I have so much more to tell you than those three little words and I hope I will be able to write everything down. It's so easy to think about it, but so damn hard to get it out. But I will try my best to do it, so here it comes.
I love you Bailey. I love you more than I ever thought I would. After Tom died I thought I'd never been able to love again. But you proved me wrong. Like so many times before you proved I was trying to deny what I was feeling. And what I am feeling for you can't be denied anymore. It goes beyond anything I have ever experienced. Of course I loved Tom. He was the father of my child and the first one I ever truly loved. But I was young then. I am older now and I love in a different kind of way. When you are young you're not always sure you want to spend your entire life with the same person. And maybe you won't believe me when I say I wasn't sure back then if I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. But now the odds are different. I am more mature and I really know what I want in my life. And you are part of it. You have always been a part of my world, just in another kind of way. And now we are both adults and I guess we know what we want. And all I want is you. I want to hold and take your hand in mine. I want to go to the movies; I want to take you and Chloe out for dinner. I want us to be a family again. I want so much for us I can hardly keep up with my thoughts. And I'm sure you won't let me down. You never have let me down and it's not now you will do that.
When I saw that truck coming straight to me, I thought my life was over. And all I thought about during those seconds was you. Not Chloe who I deeply love, but you, my best friend. And it's then I realized I was in love with you. And I thought it would be to late to tell you. I am glad I had my guardian angel with me or it would all be over. And I'm glad it's all starting like you said. Cause having what we are gonna have, is going to be a new start in my life. A life I'll take with both hands and never let go again. Just like I'll never let you go again.
Normally I can't write, but when I think about you I feel like writing a book. It's funny what love can do to a person. I feel like writing songs and poems, but I think I'll stick to poems. And here comes the poem that makes me think of you:
Flying on Emotions
A picture of you
A picture of me
Together we're stronger than others
It has been so long
It has been so good
And still we're in love with each other
Just give me your hand
I'll give you a smile
And feel the vibrations inside me
When you look at me
I know what love means
All through the day you're in my mind
I'll just say how I feel
I'll just say what you mean
I'll gently hold you in my arms
We're flying on emotions
We're flying on our dreams
You know I'll find a way to show my heart is real
Hold on to your feelings
Hold on to your love
And deep inside I'll find the words no one can hide
Our love will last forever
You're the one I need
Our love will last forever
Forever it will be
I think that about covers it Bailey. I can't say more about what I feel. You must understand know that I really meant it when I said I love you. I hope you will cherish this letter like I will cherish you. I love you, Bailey.
Love,
Sam.
XXXX
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I came back from the hospital a week ago. I am lying in front of the fireplace with Bailey by my side. He is lying on his back and I have my head on his chest. We are silently watching the fire burn and enjoying this most wonderful and romantic moment. I never pictured Bailey as a romantic, but he is. He's the most romantic man I have ever met. He can surprise me with the most original things. Like when I came back from the hospital, he had my bed covered with roses and was playing Bon Jovi's "Bed of Roses". Or like he seems to find the music suiting for the circumstance we are in. He is still a secret to me, but I intent to discover his most inner secrets little by little.
When I handed him the letter he was crying. He said it was the most beautiful thing he had ever read and I know he meant it. And I thought I couldn't write. But it's beauty lay in the fact that it came from the heart. My heart belongs to one man now. I never intend to hurt that man. While his finger is running through my hair, I am thinking about our first kiss. It happened the first night I was home. We were watching a romantic movie on TV cuddled against each other. Of course I was crying again, like always when I watch a sentimental movie. And Bailey realized I was crying and he turned my head around. He sweetly smiled at me and kissed me on the cheek, following the path of my tears. And then I felt his soft lips gently covering mine. His lips were so warm and soft and he was kissing me with all the tenderness in the world. Like he was scared he would hurt me. And I know he was because he had told me before he would never do anything to hurt me. He was tracing my bottom lip with his and I totally melted away. Sure, I had been kissed many times before, but not in such a tender and caring way. Because Bailey doesn't only love me, he cares about me and most important he respects me.
I feel Bailey shift under me and I wonder what he is up to again. He softly asks me if I would mind if he got up and I laugh at him. He is so considerate with my I wonder if this is ever going to stop. If there is a piece of heaven, I have found mine.
He walks to the stereo and flips a tape in the player. The soft beats of the music are filling the room and he walks to me and asks me if I want to dance. Of course I do. I can't imagine anything better than being in his arms. He holds me very tight as we dance to the rhythm of the most beautiful song I have ever heard. And then he whispers magic words in my ears:
"I wrote this song for you Sam. A friend of mine wrote the lyrics and sang it. "
I can't believe this. This guy is so talented and he never said a word of it. As I sway in his arms, I listen closely to the lyrics:
I like the feel of you name on my lips
And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The was that your fingers run through my hair
And how your sent lingers even when you're not there
And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh
And how you enjoy your two-hour bad
And how you've convinced me to dance in the rain
With everyone watching like we were insane
But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me
And I like to imitate ol' Jerry Lee
And you roll your eyes when I'm lightly off key
And I like the innocent way that you cry
At old sappy movies you've seen hundreds of times
But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me
And I could list a million things
I love to like about you
But they could all come down to one reason
I could never live without you
But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me
But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me
The song is finished and I am standing here in tears. I am surprised at this. I don't know what to say anymore and that will be the first time in my life. You notice I am crying and you tenderly kiss my tears away. I smile at you, because I know it is the most beautiful present I can offer you right now:
"I love it, Bailey. It is the most beautiful song I have ever heard. You are so talented."
"You're my talent, Sam. All this is because of you."
And then you kiss me again, you take my hand and lead me in front of he fireplace. I sit down and you take something out of your jacket. And then you kneel in front of me and I know what will come next. And like always when you're around, tears come by themselves. I have never cried as much as I have with you, because I have never been so happy in my entire life.
You are sitting on your knees in front of me, you take my hand and you look me into the eyes:
"Sam, you are the most precious thing in my life and I love you more that life itself. Would
make me the happiest person in the universe and become my wife?"
"Yes."
I only manage a whisper, but a smile spreads on your face and I know I have made the right decision. I handled on impulse here, because I did what my heart was telling me to do. I softly whisper you name and you put the superb diamond ring on my finger. You brush my lips with yours and I know one thing: " I love the way you love me."
THE END. Let me know what you think.
By: Cindy
Email: sg1phileshipper@skynet.be
Disclaimers: The profiler gang isn't mine. They belong to the Sander/Moses production and the NBC network. No infringement is intended and I'm making no money out of this. The song "I love the way you love me" belongs to Boyzone. No infringement intended there either.
Classification: SBR, like always. It's my main reason of living. Sam POV
Rating: PG
Spoilers: None
Summary: This one's a follow-up to 'Hidden Emotions'. You should read that one first.
'Hidden Emotions II: I love the way you love me'
Bailey is standing in front of me. I have opened my eyes only an hour ago, and he's already there. I can see he has been crying. He was scared I would die. I know that. I'm clutching the letter he wrote me to my chest. It's the most beautiful thing I have ever read. I only wish I was able to write like that. I didn't know he was something of a writer. I pictured him more as a talker. It's funny how you can be so wrong with people you know. The song came as the biggest surprise to me. I'd love to hear him sing it to me some day, but today we have more important stuff to do. We have to talk. I always knew Bailey cared a lot about me, but I never hoped he would love me that much. And all this time I was seeing other guys, he has watched me and maybe I did hurt him. If only I could have seen in his eyes it was killing. And now I realize why he said he wasn't much of a talker. He is a talker, but not when it comes to love.
Bailey is finally moving and sits down next to me. He wipes my tears away with his thumb and I realize how lucky I am to have such a friend. He's one out of a billion. He's my lifeline and my only true friend. Sure, Angel is my friend too, but I don't think I am as close to her as I ever was to Bailey. I think Bailey is the only one I couldn't live without. I took me a long time to realize, but now I am so sure of it, I will never let him go again. I will protect Bailey with my life. I love him more than anything in this world. The day he walked into my life, an Angel must have watched over me. And I will be thankful forever.
As he sits down on the bed next to me and I am looking at this letter, I do the only thing I have to. I whisper how much I love him too. And then the color of his eyes change and I see a light burning inside his eyes. Like the changing of the seasons, Bailey eyes are changing color. And then I know why. They are because of me, because how much he loves me. And I consider myself lucky that I have had that chance twice in my life. And I won't let my second chance go. I lost the first love of my life because of Jack and I won't loose the second over him. I'll protect Bailey with my whole being. I'll be his shelter in the rain. I'll be. I'll be. I'll be everything he needs me to be.
Bailey doesn't stay long. He tells me I need some sleep and I guess he is right. I am tired, very tired. But I could spend my whole life looking at him without sleeping. But I know he won't let me do that. I'm sure he'll even sing me a lullaby if he has too. And what am I doing while he is worried about me, I am thinking about how nice it would be to fall asleep in his arms. His strong muscled arms will protect me from all evil. And I know Bailey will do anything to protect me, like he always has. But now something is different. He won't be protecting his best friend; he will protect his best friend AND his future. He hasn't told me that, but I know that is exactly what he's thinking. Then he leaves and I feel his soft, warm lips burning on my forehead. The heat radiating from the kiss goes through my entire core. And then he turns around and walks off without looking back. And I know why he did that. Because if he had looked back, it would have been too hard too leave.
He is gone, but I can't sleep. I read his letter over and over again. It must have been hard for him to write that while he was seeing me dying. Maybe he got his inspiration there, I don't know and I won't ask him. But I'm sure he has a lot more to tell me than this letter says. And I have to let him know how I feel about him. I told him I loved him too, but he deserves more than that. I'll get even with him and write down how I feel. It may be considered childish, but that's the way we both are. I have to give him something he can remember me by. The decision is made quickly and I take pen and paper and start writing:
*********************************************
Dear Bailey,
You just left a while ago and I can't sleep. I know you would be mad if you saw I was staying awake to write to you. You'd say you already know how I feel. But I have so much more to tell you than those three little words and I hope I will be able to write everything down. It's so easy to think about it, but so damn hard to get it out. But I will try my best to do it, so here it comes.
I love you Bailey. I love you more than I ever thought I would. After Tom died I thought I'd never been able to love again. But you proved me wrong. Like so many times before you proved I was trying to deny what I was feeling. And what I am feeling for you can't be denied anymore. It goes beyond anything I have ever experienced. Of course I loved Tom. He was the father of my child and the first one I ever truly loved. But I was young then. I am older now and I love in a different kind of way. When you are young you're not always sure you want to spend your entire life with the same person. And maybe you won't believe me when I say I wasn't sure back then if I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. But now the odds are different. I am more mature and I really know what I want in my life. And you are part of it. You have always been a part of my world, just in another kind of way. And now we are both adults and I guess we know what we want. And all I want is you. I want to hold and take your hand in mine. I want to go to the movies; I want to take you and Chloe out for dinner. I want us to be a family again. I want so much for us I can hardly keep up with my thoughts. And I'm sure you won't let me down. You never have let me down and it's not now you will do that.
When I saw that truck coming straight to me, I thought my life was over. And all I thought about during those seconds was you. Not Chloe who I deeply love, but you, my best friend. And it's then I realized I was in love with you. And I thought it would be to late to tell you. I am glad I had my guardian angel with me or it would all be over. And I'm glad it's all starting like you said. Cause having what we are gonna have, is going to be a new start in my life. A life I'll take with both hands and never let go again. Just like I'll never let you go again.
Normally I can't write, but when I think about you I feel like writing a book. It's funny what love can do to a person. I feel like writing songs and poems, but I think I'll stick to poems. And here comes the poem that makes me think of you:
Flying on Emotions
A picture of you
A picture of me
Together we're stronger than others
It has been so long
It has been so good
And still we're in love with each other
Just give me your hand
I'll give you a smile
And feel the vibrations inside me
When you look at me
I know what love means
All through the day you're in my mind
I'll just say how I feel
I'll just say what you mean
I'll gently hold you in my arms
We're flying on emotions
We're flying on our dreams
You know I'll find a way to show my heart is real
Hold on to your feelings
Hold on to your love
And deep inside I'll find the words no one can hide
Our love will last forever
You're the one I need
Our love will last forever
Forever it will be
I think that about covers it Bailey. I can't say more about what I feel. You must understand know that I really meant it when I said I love you. I hope you will cherish this letter like I will cherish you. I love you, Bailey.
Love,
Sam.
XXXX
*******************************************
I came back from the hospital a week ago. I am lying in front of the fireplace with Bailey by my side. He is lying on his back and I have my head on his chest. We are silently watching the fire burn and enjoying this most wonderful and romantic moment. I never pictured Bailey as a romantic, but he is. He's the most romantic man I have ever met. He can surprise me with the most original things. Like when I came back from the hospital, he had my bed covered with roses and was playing Bon Jovi's "Bed of Roses". Or like he seems to find the music suiting for the circumstance we are in. He is still a secret to me, but I intent to discover his most inner secrets little by little.
When I handed him the letter he was crying. He said it was the most beautiful thing he had ever read and I know he meant it. And I thought I couldn't write. But it's beauty lay in the fact that it came from the heart. My heart belongs to one man now. I never intend to hurt that man. While his finger is running through my hair, I am thinking about our first kiss. It happened the first night I was home. We were watching a romantic movie on TV cuddled against each other. Of course I was crying again, like always when I watch a sentimental movie. And Bailey realized I was crying and he turned my head around. He sweetly smiled at me and kissed me on the cheek, following the path of my tears. And then I felt his soft lips gently covering mine. His lips were so warm and soft and he was kissing me with all the tenderness in the world. Like he was scared he would hurt me. And I know he was because he had told me before he would never do anything to hurt me. He was tracing my bottom lip with his and I totally melted away. Sure, I had been kissed many times before, but not in such a tender and caring way. Because Bailey doesn't only love me, he cares about me and most important he respects me.
I feel Bailey shift under me and I wonder what he is up to again. He softly asks me if I would mind if he got up and I laugh at him. He is so considerate with my I wonder if this is ever going to stop. If there is a piece of heaven, I have found mine.
He walks to the stereo and flips a tape in the player. The soft beats of the music are filling the room and he walks to me and asks me if I want to dance. Of course I do. I can't imagine anything better than being in his arms. He holds me very tight as we dance to the rhythm of the most beautiful song I have ever heard. And then he whispers magic words in my ears:
"I wrote this song for you Sam. A friend of mine wrote the lyrics and sang it. "
I can't believe this. This guy is so talented and he never said a word of it. As I sway in his arms, I listen closely to the lyrics:
I like the feel of you name on my lips
And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The was that your fingers run through my hair
And how your sent lingers even when you're not there
And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh
And how you enjoy your two-hour bad
And how you've convinced me to dance in the rain
With everyone watching like we were insane
But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me
And I like to imitate ol' Jerry Lee
And you roll your eyes when I'm lightly off key
And I like the innocent way that you cry
At old sappy movies you've seen hundreds of times
But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me
And I could list a million things
I love to like about you
But they could all come down to one reason
I could never live without you
But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me
But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me
The song is finished and I am standing here in tears. I am surprised at this. I don't know what to say anymore and that will be the first time in my life. You notice I am crying and you tenderly kiss my tears away. I smile at you, because I know it is the most beautiful present I can offer you right now:
"I love it, Bailey. It is the most beautiful song I have ever heard. You are so talented."
"You're my talent, Sam. All this is because of you."
And then you kiss me again, you take my hand and lead me in front of he fireplace. I sit down and you take something out of your jacket. And then you kneel in front of me and I know what will come next. And like always when you're around, tears come by themselves. I have never cried as much as I have with you, because I have never been so happy in my entire life.
You are sitting on your knees in front of me, you take my hand and you look me into the eyes:
"Sam, you are the most precious thing in my life and I love you more that life itself. Would
make me the happiest person in the universe and become my wife?"
"Yes."
I only manage a whisper, but a smile spreads on your face and I know I have made the right decision. I handled on impulse here, because I did what my heart was telling me to do. I softly whisper you name and you put the superb diamond ring on my finger. You brush my lips with yours and I know one thing: " I love the way you love me."
THE END. Let me know what you think.
