Title: Tied Up

Author: Mana - Anislayerx@aol.com

Summary: Oz misses Willow and writes a song about what happened.

Rating: PG

Feedback: Yes, please.  This is my first fanfic that is actually completed.

I have many other Oz fics, they're just not done...

Disclaimer: Joss, because if it was me Oz would be back.  But I wouldn't do a

good job on the story line, so I guess I'll wait.

Distribution:  OZMIA, go ahead.  Anyone else, ask first.

Dedication:  To Oz, Willow, Seth Green, and Alyson Hannigan.  Oh, and to my site:  http://members.dencity.com/mana/

Author's Notes:  parts in quotes is part of the song

 

Oz sat on the cold floor in a cave.  His thoughts were on Willow, as they

always were.  What was she feelign or doing right now?  Did she miss him?

Stupid question.  Of course she did.  The same way he missed her.

His thoughts went to how he hurt her.  I couldn't help it.  It wasn't my

fault.  Oz's mind quickly attacked.  But it was your fault.  You wanted

Veruca, while still human, remember?  Oz covered his ears.  Then you left

Willow, remember?  Then you sent for all your stuff, didn't even call her,

and made her think you were never coming back.  Oz couldn't stop hearing the

thoughts in his head.  They were echoing throughout his mind, and even the

cave.

Oz's voice echoed throughtout the cave.  "No!  I didn't mean to."  He paused

for the ringing in his ears.  "She didn't even give me a chance to explain."

All the noise stopped and Oz dumped out a sheet of paper and a pencil from

his bag, and began to write a song.

"Put these chains over me."  Oz looked helplessly at the chains around his

wrists and the inevitable landscape outside.  He wanted desperately to be

home.  He needed Willow.  To make him feel whole.  "To make me feel I'm

alive."

Why?!  Why did this happen?  Everything was fine.

His sorrow went against everything in his mind.  He did the unthinkable and

blamed Willow.  It was all her fault!  He couldn't figure out how, but it had

to be.  I loved her so much, I had to leave, and now I'm hurting because of

it.  You didn't even believe me when I tried to explain after the night you

found us.  That's because it wasn't true, his mind intervened.  Oz went on,

"I want to feel you're faith, but you're never on my side.  I want to feel your

faith explain that I never tried."  I tried, Willow.  I tried to resist, I

swear.  Oz's mind echoed.  He quickly continued to write, willing the voice

saying "No you didn't." away.

"I don't care for change.  Tied again."

Oz got out of the chains from the night before.  He felt horrible.  He needed

to get out of the cave.  He dove forever until he got to his home, for now.

"Everything was overturned."  He couldn't think straight.  He just needed her

to believe him.  "I want to see your face explain that I never tried."

A tear came from Oz's eye.  "I never wanted.  I don't care.  I never wanted

change.  I never wanted...  I don't care...  I never wanted..."  Oz sighed.

"Tied again," he said aloud.

He would go back to Willow.  He just needed time.  Maybe only time was on his

side...  Oz shook his head.  No, Willow was on his side, too.  And he'd come

back to show her he knew.

 

TIED UP

by Four Star Mary

put these chains over me

make me feel I'm alive

i want to feel you're faith

but you're never on my side

i want to feel you're faith explain

that i've never tried

i dont' care for change

other worlds won't explain

tied again

see these cars on the road

all these cars overturned

i want to see you're faith

but you're never on my side

i want to see you're face explain

that i've never tried

i don't care for change

other worlds other days

tied again

when i see them tied again

when i see them lie

i never wanted

i don't care

i never wanted change

i never wanted

i don't care

i never wanted

tied again

 

THE END