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Ah, yes, here I am, writing this fic because people asked
me to. Well, not really people, but more actually one person. But who cares? I
kind of want to finish this just to get it off my mind. The thing that is
bothering me most, though, is that no one will read my fic "Interior of a Mind"
(which is kind of weird b/c that should be the name of this fic, but I had
already posted it and couldn't use the same title). It's not fair! I want
reviews on that one dang it!
Anyway, I don't own Digimon. And the beginning of the
story is just them talking and you don't really know who's who, okay? And this
chapter (don't know if its going to be the last or what) has a TON of dialog!!!
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"Aw Matt! You know you love me!"
"Go away Istu."
"Have you ever wondered what
snow looks like before it comes down?"
"Davis, are you thinking? You
know that's bad for you."
"Shut it Miyako."
"I can already see the smoke
coming out of his ears…"
"SHUT UP MIYAKO!"
"Stop the lovers quarrel you
two."
"WHAT?!!"
"Do you lot ever quit fighting?"
"He started it!"
"Hey, hands off."
"Akemi made me do it!"
"Almighty Frith, Istu! I don't
care who made you do it!"
"My hair is getting all limp!"
"Mine doesn't look limp does
it?"
"I love you're hair, Davis. It
always looks perfect."
"Thanks Ken."
"HEY! STOP THAT!"
"Akemi made me do it! Akemi made
me do it!"
"I did not!"
"You did the first time!"
"But not this time!"
"STOP IT ISTU!"
"My hair is going to fall out
from all this cold."
"Snow is pretty."
"Just like me."
"Oh! Oh! Oh! Look at this!"
"Gladly."
"That's not what I meant Akemi."
"ISTU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"Watch out Istu. Matt is getting
feisty…"
Matt shoved Istu away from him
with a glare. "Stop it, now."
Istu smiled and snuggled right
back up to him. Rolling his eyes, Matt began to mess with Akemi's hair. Akemi
swatted his hands away and shot him a look. Matt smiled innocently. "That's
what you get for using me as a pillow."
"I don't care if you play with
my hair!" Istu said. Matt pushed him away again.
"It's cold in here," Matt
chattered, then instantly turned to Istu. He narrowed his eyes icily. "Make a
comment. I dare you."
"Why I'd never!" Istu laughed.
"But you know Matt, I could warm you up…"
"ISTU! I'm going to kill you!"
Mimi jerked Matt back onto the
ski lift seat before he could get up and chase Istu. "No! You are not going to
ruin my nice little cocoon."
"And you're my pillow!" Akemi
added.
Matt mumbled something but
stayed where he was, eyeing Istu who was grinning at him from the other side of
the ski lift. Istu blew him a kiss and he looked out the window in disgust. He
suddenly understood why Mimi didn't want him to leave because there was a draft
of cold air where Istu had left. He
shivered and scooted closer to Mimi.
"Matt! Stop moving so much!"
Akemi griped.
"I can't help it! I'm cold!"
Matt protested.
"Well I'm tired of standing,"
Miyako muttered and sat down beside Matt.
"Hey! You took my spot!!" Istu
complained. Matt smiled and leaned on Miyako, nuzzling up closer to her. Istu
glared at him. "That's not funny."
"Mmm, Matt…" Miyako teased,
playing along.
"Hey!!" Istu whined. "Matt!
That's not fair!"
"And why not?" Matt asked.
Akemi elbowed Matt. "Stop moving
damn it!"
"Did anyone see where Ken and
Davis went to?" Mimi asked.
"I bet they're-"
"Save us the details Akemi."
Their conversation varied from
different topics until the ski lift stopped at the top of the hill. None of
them wanted to get up and walk into the cold, but eventually they all stood up
(except for Istu who was already standing) and opened the little door on the
side of the lift. Cold air swirled inside, making them all shiver.
"You know Matt, if you're still
cold…" Istu started. Matt pushed him away. "One of these days Matt…"
"Keep dreaming."
Matt spotted what he wanted. A
black door. He happily ran over to it and opened, instantly seeing the spirals
and blackness outside. All his friends stayed behind him and watched. He smiled
and stepped outside onto the spiral. The door closed behind him and
disappeared. It felt good to be in the warmth of his inner mind again.
For the first time since he'd
fallen, Matt could see the black hole above him. It was so close now. Only a
few more weird dreams and he'd be able to get out of the place that was
starting to scare him more than anything. Who'd thought a mind could be so
dangerous? Actually Matt was glad his was in his mind and not some one else's,
such as Akemi's or Mimi's. Their dreams would be nothing but sex and malls.
He walked up the pink spiral,
searching for the next door. Usually they were really close together, but he
couldn't find the door anywhere. Getting slightly frenetic he started to jog. A
black object caught his eye and he sighed with relief.
He opened the door and stepped
inside…
"Bye Davis. Bye Ken." Mimi waved
goodbye to them from Matt's bedside. Miyako was still in the hospital room, but
she was getting ready to leave too. Mimi was glad Akemi and Istu weren't
leaving yet since they still had a long time before rehearsal (which Mimi
thought was incredibly stupid to have since they didn't have their guitar
player and lead singer). Mimi smiled as Matt's eyes opened a little. She almost
felt like he could see her.
"Don't you just love his hair?"
Tai was standing in the doorway
with TK. They'd become regular visitors like Mimi. Tai sat down in a seat
beside Istu and TK sat near the window. He didn't like it when other people
were in the room with Matt when he was not there. It made him uncomfortable to
know that one of them might have been the one who poisoned his brother. He
couldn't trust any of them.
Mimi stared at Matt on the
cliff's edge. "I think you're crazy."
"I already knew he was crazy,"
Tai laughed.
"I think he's hot." Istu winked
at Matt.
"Yeah, I already knew that too!"
Tai walked up to Matt's side. "So, do you think you'll fall up or down?"
"I hope he doesn't fall and hurt
himself," TK muttered.
"Ohhh! Mr.
I-can't-stand-my-brother is showing some feelings!" Akemi kidded. TK glared at
him and turned away from the group.
"You lot are a bunch of
retards."
"Whatever. Should I jump or
not?" Matt stared at the water below him and the blue sky above. He cautiously
turned to Mimi. "What do you think?"
"I already told you what I
think. You're crazy," Mimi retorted. She smiled anyway. "But if you want to
commit suicide, then by all means, go ahead."
"Alright then!"
Matt leaped off the edge of the
cliff, closing his eyes. He didn't feel like he was falling up or down. He
slowly opened one eye, then both. He was floating and the others were staring
at him in disbelief.
"I told you it wouldn't hurt,"
Tai said victoriously.
"Why am I not falling?" Matt
asked.
"Maybe the pull is so strong
from both directions that it's holding you in one place," Mimi suggested.
"I suppose."
Matt walked back to the cliff's
edge. That had been boring. He started to head back down the cliff. So far,
he'd been searching this new dream and hadn't found a single black door. In his
other dreams he'd found them effortlessly. This dream was a lot bigger and the
scenery changed more, too. Maybe his mind was broader when it got closer to his
conscious state.
"Hey Matt," Akemi called from
the back of the group. "Would you rather have sex with Joe or Istu?"
"Joe."
"Tai or Istu?"
"Tai."
"Mimi or Istu?"
"Mimi."
"Me or Istu?"
"You."
"Izzy or Istu?"
"Izzy."
"Kari or Istu?"
"Kari."
"TK or Istu?"
"You're sick."
"I know. Sora or Istu?"
"Sora."
"The world's most annoying girl
or Istu?"
"You mean Jun?" Matt paused.
"That one is hard."
"You're cruel and evil Matt!"
Istu shouted at him. "I understand being mean, but saying that it's hard to
pick on that one! Come on!!"
Matt sighed. "Oh all right.
Jun."
"I hate you," Istu grumbled.
"No you don't," Tai laughed. He
ran forward and grabbed Matt around the waist and flipped the blonde into his
arms. "We all love Matt!"
"Ah! Tai! Put me down!" Matt
whined.
"But I'm your knight in shining
armor!" Tai spun around in circles, making Matt dizzy.
"Stop flirting. You're making me
sick!" Istu declared. Tai paused in his spinning to stick his tongue out at
him.
"Hey! You're disappearing Istu!"
Matt said flippantly. "And you too Akemi! I guess you are leaving."
"Bye Istu! Bye Akemi!" Mimi
said. Then she looked at herself to see that she was disappearing too. "Oh
dear. I suppose I'm going also. Bye Matt! Tai! TK!"
"Tai, please tell me if you know
anything. Please."
Tai stared up at Mr. Ishida.
"I'm sorry. I don't know a thing. If I did, I would have said it already. Matt
is my best friend, you know."
"I know. But it's been five
months and there's no leads!" Mr. Ishida ran his hands nervously through his
hair and sat down in the seat that Akemi had been sitting in. "I don't
understand it. We searched Matt's room and there's no sign of a needle. The
doctors say that it could have been passed into him by way of drink and that
Matt might have done this to himself, but I don't see Matt doing something like
that."
"No. Matt would never do
anything in that way," TK said softly.
"I'll see you guys later!"
Matt dashed out the black door,
having finally found it. He had made good progress today. Already through two
black doors in only a little time! How lucky! He looked up at the black hole.
It was so close now he could almost touch it. There wasn't hardly any of the
spiral left. He ran up it and groaned when he saw another black door. Why did
everything have to be difficult!?
Something Matt had learned
during all this was that he couldn't run past a black door. There was like a
wall of glass that he couldn't see and would smack into if he tried to pass. It
was annoying. He'd probably already have made it to the top and be awake if he
could just run the spiral.
But oh well. One more dream and
he'd be free. Well, sort of anyway. He wouldn't be free from himself, but at
least he'd be free from his mind. Matt opened the door and walked inside.
Lights flashed on around him and he could see an ice skating rink stretched out
before him. Tai was skating back and forth with TK and his dad. They smiled at
him and skated closer.
"Hey Matt. See the birds?" Tai
asked. He pointed up at the sky above them to where some penguins were flying.
Matt laughed. Tai grinned and started to skate away.
"Wait Tai. Where are you going?"
Matt said, running to catch up with him, but the ice was slippery which made it
hard. Tai circled around him and picked him up in his arms again.
"I haven't figured that one out
yet. I thought I'd just skate until I found something to do," Tai said and
carried Matt to one side of the rink. "You shouldn't be on the ice without
skates, ya know. You could hurt yourself."
"Thanks for the advice," Matt
joked. Tai set him down on the little hillside and started to skate away again.
"Tai! Come back!"
Tai turned around and started
skating backwards. "Why?"
"Because I want to… talk to
you?" Matt said, not quite sure why he didn't want Tai to leave.
Tai vanished from in front of him
and reappeared behind him. He snatched Matt up in his arms and whispered,
"You're falling for me."
Matt fidgeted as soon as he felt
Tai's breath on his neck. "That's not it. I don't want to be alone. Besides,
you're just what I think you are. I can't fall for myself."
"Of course you can!" Tai
laughed. He let go of Matt and was in front of the blonde within a few seconds.
"Lots of people do. You know, you see them staring at themselves ALL THE TIME,
and they're always talking about themselves ALL THE TIME."
Matt grinned at Tai's joke.
"Yeah, but that's different."
Tai shrugged. "I suppose." Then
he cocked his head to one side and murmured, "What if you fell for the real
Tai?"
"I… I don't think I… will…" Matt
answered, frowning a bit. "I don't think Tai really likes me like that in
reality."
"Then maybe I'm what YOU wanted.
If I'm not what the real Tai is, then why has your mind created me? Hm? Ever
thought about that?" Tai asked. He grinned and skipped off, leaving Matt alone
to think. Matt understood what Tai had said, so maybe he DID have feelings for
Tai that way…
Tai was sitting on Matt's
bedside. He was running his hands through the blonde hair and brushing it out
of Matt's face, making everything look perfect. Tai didn't look at TK because
he knew that the boy's eyes would be shooting into him like arrows, accusing
him for Matt's harm. TK didn't mean to look at Tai like that, but it was hard
not to and he looked at all his friends with a glare. Tai understood. TK
couldn't trust them. Tai had become a bit suspicious himself.
Matt stirred and rolled over so
that his back was to Tai. The doctors said that Matt was getting more restless
and coming close to waking up. They said that if he wasn't awake within the
next two months, then he'd probably never wake up. But there was a slim chance
of that because Matt was turning out to be more and more conscious with each
day.
Again Matt stirred and rolled
over. He whispered some things and Tai leaned over in hope that he could hear
and make out what his friend was saying.
"You're crazy… Stop… TK… Tai is
silly… TK come back… TK… I'm sorry… Tai stop him…"
"His dreams are weird."
Tai looked up at TK. He hadn't
realized that the younger boy had gotten up to hear Matt also. Tai smiled.
"He's sorry. Don't leave."
TK couldn't help but smile back.
Tai did have a way of making painful things funny. "Who do you figure he thinks
is crazy? Me or you?"
"TK! I was only kidding!" Matt
yelled. "I wasn't really going to through the books at Kari! Look at Tai! He's
not mad and it's his little sister!"
"Well he should be mad!" TK
yelled from atop the house. Matt could tell that he was teasing now. TK
chuckled and slid off the house. "You're fanatical Matt."
"ME? I wasn't the one who was
about to try and leap across the lily pads…" Matt snorted.
"Hey! I just wanted to see if
they'd hold my weight!" Tai objected.
TK snickered. "Yes, Tai's
definitely the wildest!"
"Shut up - Oh hey Matt! Look! One of those doors you
keep going out of!" Tai exclaimed. Matt and TK spun around to see the black
door. Matt leaped in the air with joy. This was finally it! He'd finally get to
go home! All he had to do now was get through that black hole again!
