Title: Remember, My Love
Author: Angelchica
Email: Mistyblue622@hotmail.com
Summary: Cordelia loses her memory and is in the hands of Wolfram & Hart who brainwash her into thinking that Angel is evil. C/A pairing all the way! Why would I do anything else?
Spoiler: Does there have to be one? Ok well um...if you didn't know that Angel has a son named Connor then don't read this but then again if you read this spoiler then you should know that he has a son so now you can read the story!
Disclaimer: Yes I own them all! I created them! That's why I invented the TV show and am now making millions because of them! j/k!
Feedback: As always please R & R! Your reviews and the fact that you read my stories is what keeps me writing! Send me ideas that you would want me to write about. I would be happy to write stories on ideas that you give me. Just let me know! (mistyblue622@hotmail.com)
I also want to say thanks to Kat! Thank you for the idea and I don't know about you but I think that this story came out pretty good didn't it? Hope you like it and thanks again for the idea! You're da bomb! hehe!
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Premonitions and Confessions
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"I don't remember!" Cordelia shouted out.
"Couldn't you try?" Gunn asked.
"Does it really make that big of a difference?"
"Yes! Caffeine makes me all jittery!" Gunn said as he examined the two coffee cups sitting on the counter top.
"I think it's this one," Cordelia said as she pointed to the coffee cup next to Gunn. Gunn took the cup and took a sip and spit it back out.
"This isn't the one! It's loaded with caffeine! I want my decaf!" Gunn yelled. Angel came out of his room.
"What is going on?" Angel asked.
"Nothing. It's just that Gunn here has a big problem with caffeine," Cordelia said. Angel turned and looked at Gunn and shook his head. Those two. Always arguing.
"Do you want to go train?" Angel asked Cordelia.
"Yeah, sure, ok. It's not like I'm going to be drinking any of the coffee anymore now that the taste tester has tasted too much of mine," Cordelia said as she followed Angel to the basement.
They went downstairs and they each took a sword. Cordelia grabbed her scrunci and put her hair into a ponytail. She grabbed her sword.
"Now take it easy on me 'cause we haven't practiced in a good while," Cordelia said.
"You'll do fine," Angel said. He lunged towards her and Cordelia blocked his sword with his. They continued to match each other's moves without hesitating. Angel had to admit the Cordelia had the ability to learn things fast and he was happy about that. She had proven him wrong. He had always thought of her as weak and scared. He remembered back to when they both lived in Sunnydale and she would always be screaming and running away from the bad guys. He wasn't complaining. It probably was the best thing for her to have done otherwise she probably would have been killed.
Now he was proven wrong. She had changed drastically over the years. She actually put other people in front her. The visions had a lot to do with it. She was put through so much torture just to save other people. He had offered her a cure but she chose to endure headache after headache over her own liking. She also cared about her own well being. Plus she was making an effort to learn how to defend herself. And she was doing a great job. She had mastered the sword fights pretty good and her self defense skills were picking up as well. He was almost sure that she could easily take on Wesley. They had gone on for a while and he noticed that she was sweating and was looking kind of tired.
"Do you want to take a break?" Angel asked as he continued to block Cordelia's moves.
"I thought you would never say those beautiful words," Cordelia said as she let the sword fall and then herself.
"I'll go bring some water," Angel said with a smile as he looked at Cordelia sprawled on the floor, breathless.
Cordelia watched Angel leave and then looked back down. She was exhausted. Then she thought back to who she used to be. There was no way that anybody would have gotten her to even break a sweat. She remembered when she was in PE and would always be bringing a forged note saying that she shouldn't participate in the activities because sweat gave her some kind of rash. Cordelia laughed at the memory.
Cordelia sat up and looked around. The stuff she had gotten herself into. She was so different now and she realized that Angel had changed as well. She noticed that ever since he got back from his little retreat to "forget" Buffy, he had come back a new man, or should she say new vampire? He was not the same brooding vampire she had met in the old days. He was actually telling jokes and best of all, he smiled. She loved it when he did. He seemed a totally different person. She liked him this way.
He even started acting more happy with the baby. He was a father now and he was making sure that he would fit that category. Cordelia had told Angel that she would be there for the baby even though it hurt her. She knew it wasn't his fault but the fact that Angel had lied to her and gone and slept with Darla hurt her. She knew why. She knew why it hurt. She had fallen in love with the vampire with a soul. It killed her inside because she knew she would never be with him. There were too many things that pulled them apart. All she had was his friendship and she would cherish that forever.
Cordelia heard Angel coming back down the stairs and he handed her a bottle of water that was freezing cold. Cordelia started to chug on it and then grabbed for her head and moaned. Angel ran to her.
"Are you alright?" Angel said.
Cordelia looked up at him and then started to laugh.
"Brain freeze." Cordelia said as she started to laugh. Angel turned around embarrassed. Cordelia took another sip of her water and grabbed her sword and approached Angel.
"You ready to continue?" Angel asked.
"Yeah. The water cooled me-me..." Cordelia grabbed her head and fell into Angel's arms. She battled the pain the visions always brought her.
Cordelia concentrated on the vision. It was vague but she tried to catch on to every detail she could. Finally the vision started to fade away, as did the pain. She still hung on to Angel, afraid that if she let go, she would fall. Tears were streaming down her face from the aftermath of the vision.
"Are you ok?" Angel asked not wanting to let go of her.
"I will be, but the people in my vision won't if we don't get there in time," Cordelia said.
"What did you see?" Angel asked as he looked into his seer's eyes.
"Vampires. So many of them. They were hitting a local club called...Utopia. They were just killing everyone. Angel we have to hurry before it's too late!" Cordelia said as she started to get upset.
"Calm down, Cordy. I'll go and stop them. Just rest and take it easy," Angel said.
"You'll go? You mean we'll go! I'm not letting you go there alone. There were too many of them! You couldn't take them all on! They would kill you," Cordelia said.
"I can't take you with me. I don't want to risk-"
"Angel, don't start with me! We are all going to go. We are a team. A team doesn't just give all the responsibility to one person. If we all go, we have a chance," Cordelia said.
Angel looked into her eyes. He loved how she wanted to make everything work. How she always wanted to help even when she wouldn't be able to do much but now it was different. She felt extra special now that her skills were increasing and that now she had the ability to kill more vampires.
Angel knew there was no use in arguing with her. Once she had her mind set to do something, she didn't back off. Even if she knew it was a life or death situation, she didn't care.
"Alright. We'll go get Wesley and Gunn," Angel said as he helped Cordelia up.
"Thanks," Cordelia said as she started walking up the stairs while holding on to the railing.
"Cordy?" Angel called out. Cordelia turned around and looked at Angel. She saw that he wasn't moving so she went back down towards him.
"What's wrong?" Cordelia asked. She hated it when she couldn't tell what was bothering him. He always kept things to himself and never shared his true feelings even though he was working on that now.
Angel neared Cordelia and stood right in front of her. He looked at her. He couldn't hide it anymore. He knew he shouldn't but he had to. He had to tell her how he felt about her. He had to tell her how she always made him smile. How she was the first thing he thought about in the morning, how she was the last thing he thought about, and how he would always dream about her during the night. He couldn't hide these feelings inside of him anymore. They were stronger than he.
"I have a confession to make. You might want to sit down. It won't take long," Angel said.
"Don't tell me you slept with another girl and now she's having the second miracle child!" Cordelia said.
"No! It's nothing like that. It's about you," Angel said.
"About me? Am I getting fat? Cause I know I've been eating a little bit lately but I haven't really gained much. Or have I been charging to much? It's just that business has been kind of slow so I needed to make up for our paychecks. I promise I won't charge that much-"
"No, no it's not that. It doesn't have anything to do with you charging too much or you getting fat which by the way you're not. You look as good as ever," Angel interrupted. Cordelia smiled at his remark.
"Then what is it?" Cordelia asked.
"Well, you and I, we've been getting pretty close, wouldn't you say that?" Angel asked.
"Well compared to when we were in Sunnydale I would have to say yes," Cordelia said. She was confused. She didn't know where this was heading.
"Yeah, well I mean we fight evil together and we train together and well we've been spending a lot of time together-"
"Is that a bad thing?" Cordelia interrupted. She was hoping that he wasn't trying to end their closeness. She loved it when they were together and she knew she would just burst into tears if he told her to stay away from him.
"No! I mean, no, of course not. It's good," Angel said.
"Is this supposed to lead anywhere because there is a pack of vampires about to attack helpless people and unless we want the vampires to enjoy their feast, I suggest we get going," Cordelia said as she started heading back up the stairs.
"I love you," Angel said.
"Oh my God! Is the world ending again?" Cordelia asked.
"No. I was just saying it you know, friend to friend," Angel said but regretted saying the words.
"Oh, well in that case, I love you too. Now we better get going," Cordelia said as she left the room.
Angel looked down at the floor. Friend to friend, he thought to himself. Why did he have to say those words. Why couldn't he have just said he loved her. Just like that. Angel shook his head and headed up the stairs.
Cordelia went into one of the rooms and changed. He was making this all harder on her now. He had told her he loved her. At first she wasn't sure she had heard him right but then she figured the world was going to end so he was just saying he loved her. But the part that killed her was the friend to friend thing. She had hope that one day they would be together as more than just friends but now she realized that it would never happen. She realized that he would always love Buffy more than him and now that he was a father, he wouldn't care about her as much.
"Well I bet he wouldn't need me anymore," Cordelia said to herself as she grabbed some stakes and headed back downstairs.
Author: Angelchica
Email: Mistyblue622@hotmail.com
Summary: Cordelia loses her memory and is in the hands of Wolfram & Hart who brainwash her into thinking that Angel is evil. C/A pairing all the way! Why would I do anything else?
Spoiler: Does there have to be one? Ok well um...if you didn't know that Angel has a son named Connor then don't read this but then again if you read this spoiler then you should know that he has a son so now you can read the story!
Disclaimer: Yes I own them all! I created them! That's why I invented the TV show and am now making millions because of them! j/k!
Feedback: As always please R & R! Your reviews and the fact that you read my stories is what keeps me writing! Send me ideas that you would want me to write about. I would be happy to write stories on ideas that you give me. Just let me know! (mistyblue622@hotmail.com)
I also want to say thanks to Kat! Thank you for the idea and I don't know about you but I think that this story came out pretty good didn't it? Hope you like it and thanks again for the idea! You're da bomb! hehe!
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Premonitions and Confessions
* * *
"I don't remember!" Cordelia shouted out.
"Couldn't you try?" Gunn asked.
"Does it really make that big of a difference?"
"Yes! Caffeine makes me all jittery!" Gunn said as he examined the two coffee cups sitting on the counter top.
"I think it's this one," Cordelia said as she pointed to the coffee cup next to Gunn. Gunn took the cup and took a sip and spit it back out.
"This isn't the one! It's loaded with caffeine! I want my decaf!" Gunn yelled. Angel came out of his room.
"What is going on?" Angel asked.
"Nothing. It's just that Gunn here has a big problem with caffeine," Cordelia said. Angel turned and looked at Gunn and shook his head. Those two. Always arguing.
"Do you want to go train?" Angel asked Cordelia.
"Yeah, sure, ok. It's not like I'm going to be drinking any of the coffee anymore now that the taste tester has tasted too much of mine," Cordelia said as she followed Angel to the basement.
They went downstairs and they each took a sword. Cordelia grabbed her scrunci and put her hair into a ponytail. She grabbed her sword.
"Now take it easy on me 'cause we haven't practiced in a good while," Cordelia said.
"You'll do fine," Angel said. He lunged towards her and Cordelia blocked his sword with his. They continued to match each other's moves without hesitating. Angel had to admit the Cordelia had the ability to learn things fast and he was happy about that. She had proven him wrong. He had always thought of her as weak and scared. He remembered back to when they both lived in Sunnydale and she would always be screaming and running away from the bad guys. He wasn't complaining. It probably was the best thing for her to have done otherwise she probably would have been killed.
Now he was proven wrong. She had changed drastically over the years. She actually put other people in front her. The visions had a lot to do with it. She was put through so much torture just to save other people. He had offered her a cure but she chose to endure headache after headache over her own liking. She also cared about her own well being. Plus she was making an effort to learn how to defend herself. And she was doing a great job. She had mastered the sword fights pretty good and her self defense skills were picking up as well. He was almost sure that she could easily take on Wesley. They had gone on for a while and he noticed that she was sweating and was looking kind of tired.
"Do you want to take a break?" Angel asked as he continued to block Cordelia's moves.
"I thought you would never say those beautiful words," Cordelia said as she let the sword fall and then herself.
"I'll go bring some water," Angel said with a smile as he looked at Cordelia sprawled on the floor, breathless.
Cordelia watched Angel leave and then looked back down. She was exhausted. Then she thought back to who she used to be. There was no way that anybody would have gotten her to even break a sweat. She remembered when she was in PE and would always be bringing a forged note saying that she shouldn't participate in the activities because sweat gave her some kind of rash. Cordelia laughed at the memory.
Cordelia sat up and looked around. The stuff she had gotten herself into. She was so different now and she realized that Angel had changed as well. She noticed that ever since he got back from his little retreat to "forget" Buffy, he had come back a new man, or should she say new vampire? He was not the same brooding vampire she had met in the old days. He was actually telling jokes and best of all, he smiled. She loved it when he did. He seemed a totally different person. She liked him this way.
He even started acting more happy with the baby. He was a father now and he was making sure that he would fit that category. Cordelia had told Angel that she would be there for the baby even though it hurt her. She knew it wasn't his fault but the fact that Angel had lied to her and gone and slept with Darla hurt her. She knew why. She knew why it hurt. She had fallen in love with the vampire with a soul. It killed her inside because she knew she would never be with him. There were too many things that pulled them apart. All she had was his friendship and she would cherish that forever.
Cordelia heard Angel coming back down the stairs and he handed her a bottle of water that was freezing cold. Cordelia started to chug on it and then grabbed for her head and moaned. Angel ran to her.
"Are you alright?" Angel said.
Cordelia looked up at him and then started to laugh.
"Brain freeze." Cordelia said as she started to laugh. Angel turned around embarrassed. Cordelia took another sip of her water and grabbed her sword and approached Angel.
"You ready to continue?" Angel asked.
"Yeah. The water cooled me-me..." Cordelia grabbed her head and fell into Angel's arms. She battled the pain the visions always brought her.
Cordelia concentrated on the vision. It was vague but she tried to catch on to every detail she could. Finally the vision started to fade away, as did the pain. She still hung on to Angel, afraid that if she let go, she would fall. Tears were streaming down her face from the aftermath of the vision.
"Are you ok?" Angel asked not wanting to let go of her.
"I will be, but the people in my vision won't if we don't get there in time," Cordelia said.
"What did you see?" Angel asked as he looked into his seer's eyes.
"Vampires. So many of them. They were hitting a local club called...Utopia. They were just killing everyone. Angel we have to hurry before it's too late!" Cordelia said as she started to get upset.
"Calm down, Cordy. I'll go and stop them. Just rest and take it easy," Angel said.
"You'll go? You mean we'll go! I'm not letting you go there alone. There were too many of them! You couldn't take them all on! They would kill you," Cordelia said.
"I can't take you with me. I don't want to risk-"
"Angel, don't start with me! We are all going to go. We are a team. A team doesn't just give all the responsibility to one person. If we all go, we have a chance," Cordelia said.
Angel looked into her eyes. He loved how she wanted to make everything work. How she always wanted to help even when she wouldn't be able to do much but now it was different. She felt extra special now that her skills were increasing and that now she had the ability to kill more vampires.
Angel knew there was no use in arguing with her. Once she had her mind set to do something, she didn't back off. Even if she knew it was a life or death situation, she didn't care.
"Alright. We'll go get Wesley and Gunn," Angel said as he helped Cordelia up.
"Thanks," Cordelia said as she started walking up the stairs while holding on to the railing.
"Cordy?" Angel called out. Cordelia turned around and looked at Angel. She saw that he wasn't moving so she went back down towards him.
"What's wrong?" Cordelia asked. She hated it when she couldn't tell what was bothering him. He always kept things to himself and never shared his true feelings even though he was working on that now.
Angel neared Cordelia and stood right in front of her. He looked at her. He couldn't hide it anymore. He knew he shouldn't but he had to. He had to tell her how he felt about her. He had to tell her how she always made him smile. How she was the first thing he thought about in the morning, how she was the last thing he thought about, and how he would always dream about her during the night. He couldn't hide these feelings inside of him anymore. They were stronger than he.
"I have a confession to make. You might want to sit down. It won't take long," Angel said.
"Don't tell me you slept with another girl and now she's having the second miracle child!" Cordelia said.
"No! It's nothing like that. It's about you," Angel said.
"About me? Am I getting fat? Cause I know I've been eating a little bit lately but I haven't really gained much. Or have I been charging to much? It's just that business has been kind of slow so I needed to make up for our paychecks. I promise I won't charge that much-"
"No, no it's not that. It doesn't have anything to do with you charging too much or you getting fat which by the way you're not. You look as good as ever," Angel interrupted. Cordelia smiled at his remark.
"Then what is it?" Cordelia asked.
"Well, you and I, we've been getting pretty close, wouldn't you say that?" Angel asked.
"Well compared to when we were in Sunnydale I would have to say yes," Cordelia said. She was confused. She didn't know where this was heading.
"Yeah, well I mean we fight evil together and we train together and well we've been spending a lot of time together-"
"Is that a bad thing?" Cordelia interrupted. She was hoping that he wasn't trying to end their closeness. She loved it when they were together and she knew she would just burst into tears if he told her to stay away from him.
"No! I mean, no, of course not. It's good," Angel said.
"Is this supposed to lead anywhere because there is a pack of vampires about to attack helpless people and unless we want the vampires to enjoy their feast, I suggest we get going," Cordelia said as she started heading back up the stairs.
"I love you," Angel said.
"Oh my God! Is the world ending again?" Cordelia asked.
"No. I was just saying it you know, friend to friend," Angel said but regretted saying the words.
"Oh, well in that case, I love you too. Now we better get going," Cordelia said as she left the room.
Angel looked down at the floor. Friend to friend, he thought to himself. Why did he have to say those words. Why couldn't he have just said he loved her. Just like that. Angel shook his head and headed up the stairs.
Cordelia went into one of the rooms and changed. He was making this all harder on her now. He had told her he loved her. At first she wasn't sure she had heard him right but then she figured the world was going to end so he was just saying he loved her. But the part that killed her was the friend to friend thing. She had hope that one day they would be together as more than just friends but now she realized that it would never happen. She realized that he would always love Buffy more than him and now that he was a father, he wouldn't care about her as much.
"Well I bet he wouldn't need me anymore," Cordelia said to herself as she grabbed some stakes and headed back downstairs.
