Title: Remember, My Love

Author: Angelchica

Email: Mistyblue622@hotmail.com

Summary: Cordelia loses her memory and is in the hands of Wolfram & Hart who brainwash her into thinking that Angel is evil. C/A pairing all the way! Why would I do anything else?

Spoiler: Does there have to be one? Ok well um...if you didn't know that Angel has a son named Connor then don't read this but then again if you read this spoiler then you should know that he has a son so now you can read the story!

Disclaimer: Yes I own them all! I created them! That's why I invented the TV show and am now making millions because of them! j/k!

Feedback: As always please R & R! Your reviews and the fact that you read my stories is what keeps me writing! Send me ideas that you would want me to write about. I would be happy to write stories on ideas that you give me. Just let me know! (mistyblue622@hotmail.com)

I also want to say thanks to Kat! Thank you for the idea and I don't know about you but I think that this story came out pretty good didn't it? Hope you like it and thanks again for the idea! You're da bomb! hehe!


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Brainwashed

Lilah sat down in the living room and was about to turn on the TV but then saw Cordelia walk in. She had showered and was wearing some pants and a shirt Lilah had let her borrow.

"Thanks for your hospitality," Cordelia said.

"Oh no problem. We're like so close. We always borrow each others clothes," Lilah said as she motioned for Cordelia to sit down next to her.

"Thanks," Cordelia said.

"Do you want anything to eat, drink?" Lilah asked.

"No. Not that I'm trying to be all rude or anything but I just want to know who I am and why I'm here and why I can't remember anything," Cordelia said.

"Sure. Well we'll start with the basics. You're name is Cordelia Chase and we've been friends for a long time now. We met back in the day and since then we are like sisters," Lilah said.

"Oh, so how did this happen to me? Why can't I remember anything?" Cordelia asked.

"Well, I could tell you the truth which involves you to trust me a whole deal because a lot of it probably will sound really crazy and I wouldn't expect you to believe any of it or I could lie to you and tell you the gist of things," Lilah said.

"Why wouldn't I believe you?" Cordelia asked.

"Well it's just that a lot of it is far fetched to almost everyone except for a few people in this world. It's going to sound like something coming out of a movie. I didn't believe it at first. It might take you some time to get used to it but if you don't want to know it's fine. I probably wouldn't believe me either if I was told my story," Lilah said.

"That's ok. I want to know everything. Why don't I remember who I am?" Cordelia asked Lilah.

"Well, you were fighting. You got thrown across the room and hit a jukebox really hard and ended up an amnesiac," Lilah said.

"I was fighting? Against Angel?" Cordelia asked. Lilah looked at Cordelia. How did she know about Angel? Then she remembered that she had mentioned his name earlier. She remembered that she was talking to Gavin and telling him about keeping her away from Angel.

"Yes, you were fighting against him," Lilah said.

"Why?" Cordelia asked.

"Well, I think you should know this. He is someone that you don't want to be around by. He is not good. He is evil. In fact, he's not even human," Lilah said.

"Not human?" Cordelia asked.

"You're probably not going to believe me but he's a vampire. In this world at night, things are different. We don't only suffer murders, robberies, kidnapping. It's a different world out there. We live in a world full of vampires and demons. They are pure evil. And that's why we're here. We're here to stop them. You are on the good team. We try to annihilate them. There are some demons that are good and they help us but never will there be a good vampire. If you ever come across him, look the other way. He will try to brainwash you into thinking that he's good and that he knows you and that somehow you are friends," Lilah said.

"Vampires? Demons? You're joking," Cordelia said. Lilah looked at Cordelia and then remembered something.

"I want you to look at something," Lilah said as she took her to the mirror and showed her neck. Cordelia looked and noticed a scar. Something that resembled two puncture marks.

"Did he do that?" Cordelia asked.

"Yes. He tried to kill me and you. He kidnapped you once and I tried to get you back but he bit me. I almost died. That's why I'm begging you to watch out for him. He is the most dangerous creature out there but there are some precautions you can take," Lilah said.

"Precautions?" Cordelia questioned her.

"Vampires do have weaknesses. They are killed by direct sunlight, holy water, and a wooden stake through their hearts. But I want you to put this on," Lilah said as she took off her cross necklace and handed it to Cordelia.

"What's this for?" Cordelia asked.

"It's for protection. Wear it all the time. I have a few crosses that I can give you in case you ever do run into Angel. Oh. I almost forgot to tell you about his posse," Lilah said.

"His posse?"

"Yeah. There's three of them and a baby but I'm sure the baby can't harm you. First of all there's Wesley. He's nerdy looking but don't let that deceive you. Then there's Gunn. He's a tough kid as well. Then there's this other nerdy girl called Fred. I'm sure she's no harm but she very weird so I wouldn't trust her," Lilah said.

"Wow! It's just so overwhelming. It's like starting a whole new life. I don't know if I can remember all that," Cordelia said.

"Do you think you could take in one more piece of information?" Lilah said.

"I don't know. Everything is just running around in my mind right now," Cordelia said.

"Well this is important. You have a gift. And you use it to help other people. You have visions. It's like you can see into the future. You see things that go on. You see vampires about to kill people or demons about to attack. It gives us a head start and saving the people. The visions are very painful and they give you huge headaches but eventually the pain goes away," Lilah said.

Cordelia just looked at her. All of this was just too overwhelming.

"Wow! Visions, huh. This is just too much. I never thought I would have all this to take on. Would it be ok if I go outside. I just need some fresh air. I know you said it's dangerous outside but I'll stay on the busy roads and I won't go far," Cordelia said.

Lilah hesitated but then gave in.

"Alright but take this cross and be careful. Angel is bound to be on the streets right now and I don't want you to get hurt. I'm sure he won't try to hurt you but he will try to convince you to leave with him. Promise me you won't," Lilah pleaded.

"After what you told me you really think I would go to him?" Cordelia asked.

"Just be careful and remember what I told you. He has hurt you in all the ways possible. If you can kill him, do it. A simple stake to the heart and it will all be over," Lilah said. Cordelia smiled and got up. She went over to the door and left. Lilah heard her phone ring. She got up and went over to it.

"Hello?...Don't worry. I've got it covered...Yes. I told her everything you told me to...She's out...She needed air after all the news...Don't worry. She won't go to him...I told her he's an enemy and I made hate spark towards him. I've got him right where I want...Yes...Don't worry...Everything is going according to plan." Lilah hung up the phone and had a huge smile on her face.

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Cordelia walked down the streets. Everything was still so strange to her. She hated not knowing who she was or where she was. Lilah had been great and she was happy that she was at least in good hands but still, something felt incredibly wrong. She knew something was missing and that Lilah was holding out on her. She didn't know what it was but hopefully she wouldn't be an amnesiac all her life. Then she thought about her parents. Where were they? Who were they? Did she have parents? What about friends? What about her enemies?

Cordelia thought about the name Lilah had told her had caused her so much pain. Angel. That was his name. She wondered what he had done to her but then she didn't. Maybe she was better off not knowing. Lilah had said he had hurt her in every way possible. She also said he was a vampire. Cordelia shrugged. Maybe she was better off not knowing anything. She wasn't sure she wanted to. Everything sounded so strange and scary yet familiar but she couldn't quite figure it out. Then she heard a car pull up in front of her. She turned around and saw a young, handsome man climb out of the car and head towards her.

"Cordelia! Oh my gosh! You're ok! I was so scared! Why haven't you called?" he asked. Cordelia looked up at him, confused.

"I'm sorry. Do I know you?" Cordelia asked.

"Cordy this isn't funny. I was worried about you!" he said.

"I'm not trying to be funny. I'm just lost and I can't find my way back. I don't remember anything but it seems you know who I am and I barely know who I am," Cordelia said.

"What are you talking about? What do you mean you don't remember anything?" he asked.

"Well Lilah says it has something to do with me being thrown across the room and banging my head up hard," Cordelia said.

"Lilah! You've been with Lilah!" Angel said.

"Yeah. Why is something wrong?" Cordelia asked.

"Cordy, you have to get away from her. She's evil. Come on, I'll take you back to the hotel or back to your apartment. Dennis is kind of lonely," he said.

"You're Angel aren't you," Cordelia said.

"You know who I am?" Angel asked. At that moment Cordelia took out her cross and put it in front of Angel. He backed off.

"I know who you are. You better stay away from me and Lilah. If you come near either one of us, I'll kill you," Cordelia said as she started to back away slowly.

"Cordelia what are you talking about? Don't do this! Lilah is evil! She's brainwashed you!" Angel yelled out following Cordelia.

"Stay away or I'll-" Cordelia started to feel weak. She felt a sharp pain climbing up her spine and into her head. Cordelia felt lightheaded and fell to the ground screaming in pain. She saw flashes of people in trouble. She saw a girl being killed by some kind of demon. She could sense and feel the girls' pain. Finally the vision ceased. This must have been what Lilah was talking about. It was a vision. Cordelia opened up her eyes and realized that she was in Angel's arms. She looked at him and got up too quickly and almost fell back down but was caught by Angel.

"Let go of me!" Cordelia yelled and was surprised to see that he did as he was told.

"Are you ok? What did you see?" Angel asked. Cordelia looked at him confused.

"You know about the visions?" Cordelia asked.

"Of course I know. You're visions are what helps me and my crew save lives," Angel said.

"I don't believe you. I want you to leave me alone. I don't ever want to see you again," Cordelia said.

"At least promise me you won't tell Lilah that you saw me. And if you change your mind here's my card," Angel said as he handed her the card but Cordelia refused it. She looked down at the little card and then looked away.

"Like I said. I don't want to see you again," Cordelia said as she continued to walk but Angel followed her and grabbed her by the arm.

"I will get you back. I won't let her do anything to you. I won't hurt you either. I love you," Angel said as he slid the business card into her purse without her seeing. Cordelia took out a little bottle of holy water from her pocket.

"You might not hurt me but I will," Cordelia said as she opened the bottle of holy water and threw it at his face. His face was stinging. Cordelia started to run. She didn't want him to see where she was going. She ran and ran until she knew she was out of sight. She came up to a huge building with a fence around it and stopped there to rest. Then she felt as if another vision was coming on but different. It just brought a wave of dizziness. It was different. She didn't feel any pain but she saw him. She saw Angel. She saw him and three other people standing next to each other. Then she saw herself holding a baby and standing right in front of them. Then as quickly as it had come, it left. She opened her eyes and looked around.

She looked but was confused. What was that? Was that a vision or was it a memory? She was too confused and didn't care. It couldn't have been a memory. She seemed happy and was with Angel. That was wrong. Cordelia decided to continue back to Lilah's apartment.

She eventually got back and saw that Lilah was waiting for her.

"Why did you take so long? I was beginning to get worried! Did you see him? Did you see Angel?" Lilah asked.

"No, it's just that I thought that I remembered that I was kind of athletic and decided to take a jog. Gotta keep fit, huh," Cordelia said. Lilah eyed her a bit suspicious but then just shook her head.

"Well, now that you're all sweaty you might want to hit the shower again," Lilah said.

"Yeah, I was planning on it. I don't think I like being all sweaty in the first place," Cordelia said as she walked over to Lilah's room and grabbed a towel. Then she headed towards the bathroom and locked the door. She put her towel down on the toilet seat and then went to the mirror and looked at herself.

Something was wrong. She had to find out what it was. She couldn't just keep on looking at herself in the mirror and wonder who she is and who Angel is. What he had said earlier made her think. He had said to her that he loved her. It might have been a plan to get her but she didn't know. She felt she heard such tenderness in his voice and then when she looked into his eyes she saw such love and care but it could just be her mind playing tricks on her.

She had to find out who she was before she did anything she would regret.