This is my very first ff.net fic. I'd appreciate comments, even
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To Think Such a Thing

One thing I've never regretted about myself is that I don't look
back. Forward, always forward. That's the Lina way. But now I find
it's not so bad to look back, although it's taken me a while to realize.
Still, better late than never. Now that I think about it, it's too bad
that advice didn't follow for our last battle. Oh, well. You get used
to it after a while. What to think about today...
Zel. I love Zel. So dependable. So nice to be around. At least, when
he's not storming. I wonder how his cure is coming. It would be nice
to see Zel all un-rocky. Nice. What a calm word. So friendly.
I love everyone, really. Hah. Amelia. She's driven, there's that
to say about about her. I think she'll be very successful as a queen.
I miss Ame-chan. Mm. Never thought I'd hear myself say that. They say
absence makes the heart grow fonder, and I have begun to suspect that
it's true. Hm.
Gourry. He's...mm...he's stupid rather. Not too bad in looks or
manners, mind. Just on the dim side. I miss him as well. I think maybe
I should be able to think more about him, but the only images I have
are about food. And jellyfish.
Xelloss is not stupid. Evil, yeah. But, y'know, there're other
things to a person than good and evil. Brains, for one. And a sense
of humor is nice. Even his annoying characteristics can be somewhat
amusing. He's not really that bad, anyway.
Nice, nice, nice. That's the only thing I seem able to say. I
wonder how long I've been here, anyway. Let me see...it was not too
far into winter when we ran into her, and last time I checked it was
nearing summer. How long do rocks last? A nasty long time. I think I
understand Zel a bit better now.
Forever? Do they last forever? No. They wear down through
centuries. Centuries... If only I hadn't looked at her! I live too
long anyway. Centuries? Maybe I'm not as used to this as I thought.
I can't imagine living in one place for thousands of years. I
can't...No. No way I'll stay this way. I can't...I won't...! I'm not
even a *mountain*, for Cephied's sake! Just a statue. A person-shaped
hill. No. NOOOO!

Gourry plopped down beside Zel and Amelia.
"Here," he said, handing them takeout. They took it with nods of
thanks. They chewed in silence for some time. Suddenly Zel stopped.
"It's sort of strange, don't you think, that we're eating here of
all places?" Amelia paused as well.
"You mean, the way we're eating on a hill without Lina?"
"I mean, this hill." They reflected on that for a moment before
Gourry shrugged.
"It doesn't matter much to Lina now, does it?" And, for all
intents and purposes, it didn't.