Don't Want You Back
Chapter 4
Author: Lockhart
E-mail: Katie@ballantyne24.freeserve.co.uk
Category: Susan Lewis/ Mark Greene/ Susan Lewis
Rating: PG13
Spoilers: Contains minor spoilers for season 7
Archive: Archive my fic on your site if you wish but please let me know first
Disclaimer: I don't own ER or any of the characters but I sure wish I did(especially Carter and Dave, tee hee hee!)
Authors Notes: See end of fic
Summary: Continuation of Don't Want You Back 3
Elizabeth stared out of the window at an elderly man and woman walking hand in hand down the pavement. They looked so happy and content with each other, smiling as they strolled down the paved road. I thought Mark and I would grow old together, Elizabeth thought to herself. I always imagined that years from now we would be that joyful couple, glowing with happiness from our years of marriage. Now I'm not quite so sure.
"Do you want to go see a film tonight?" Mark asked, as they approached a set of traffic lights.
"Not particulary" she replied in a glum, sad tone.
"Elizabeth I am truly sorry for missing the scan. I made one mistake, why can't you forgive me?"
"You just don't understand Mark" she snapped back. "This was an important event to me. We should have been there together as a couple to catch a glimpse of our unborn child. What angers me the most is that you spent the time with Susan Lewis. Is she really more important to you than our daughter?"
"Of course not!"Mark exclaimed. "I love you and I feel terrible for missing the scan. I wish I could turn back time and be there with you and our child but I can't. You and the baby are the most important people in my life. Susan is only a friend"
"So that's all she is then, a friend?" Elizabeth inquired.
"Yes" Mark answered.
"One thing I will not tolerate in a realationship is lies!" she shouted. "Carter told me how you really felt towards Susan. He told me how heartbroken you were when she left for Phoenix"
"Okay I will admit it. I did have feelings towards Susan but that was years ago. I have moved on and I love you now. Only you, Elizabeth."
Elizabeth stared at the diamond ring on her finger. Why didn't she believe Mark words? She wished she could believe she was the only woman for him but Susan's prescence still preyed on her mind.
"Whatever you say Mark" she sighed. "Whatever you say"
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Susan laughed as she flicked through a large, pink photo albulm. A particular photo of little Susie dressed in a pretty white dress with chocolate all over her face had caught her attention. Susie was smiling cheekily for the camera, holding her favourite teddy bear which was also covered in chocolate. Susan sighed as she closed the book and placed it on the coffee table beside her. How could one picture be such a painful memory?
** "Susie, Susie, Susie. What a mess you have got yourself into" Susan laughed as she wiped the chocolate off the toddler's face with a damp cloth. She could never be cross with her neice. "I think it's your nap time now. Yes it is my darling, nap time" Susie giggled with delight as her aunt tickled her fingers and toes. It had been two months now since Chloe's overdose. After her release from hospital she started a course of anti-depressant drugs but they didn't seem to do any good. Chloe refused counselling and any help from doctors. It had been up to Susan to look after Susie whilst also working. This year she was aiming for an attending position within Great Hope Hospital but she had been so caught up in personal matters, her chances were not too great.
"What time is it?" Chloe asked as she entered the sitting room.
"Four pm" Susan answered as she watched her sister take a seat on the couch. "My shift starts at six, I trust you can manage to care for Susie till I come back?"
"You couldn't do me a big favour and take her with you, could you?" Chloe asked as she rubbed her eyes irritibly.
"Chloe............." Susan moaned. Day care fees were not exactly cheap but could she trust her sister to look after the toddler for a few hours?
"Please sis, I'm tired and not feeling very well"
"I suppose so" Susan sighed eventually. "Why don't you come to the hospital with me Chloe? There's a great doctor there....."
"No Susan!" Chloe interrupted. "We've been down this road before. I don't need help, I'm perfectly in a fit state of mind to make my own decisions"
"You've been depressed for months, you hardly eat or go out. In fact all you do is lie around the house all day. I care about you which is why I want you to seek professional help"
"You're not my mother Susan!" Chloe screamed at the top of her voice. "Why can't you just leave me alone?" With those last words Chloe ran up the stairs and slammed her bedroom door shut. Susan shook her head and lifted her neice high into her arms. It was Susie she felt truly sorry for. Having a mother who could barely look after herself, never mind a child. The only thing Susan wanted to do was to provide a safe and secure future for Susie. In her eyes Susie was her daughter. **
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"Hi Mark" Carter smiled as his old friend walked into the locker room. Mark didn't reply back or even acknowledge that John was in the room. "Heard you performed a great save on a kid with heart problems. It's great we have some doctors who perform what I would say is a miracle"
"Mmmmmm........" Mark replied as he opened his locker and placed his coat inside.
"So how are the wedding arrangements going?" John asked.
"Thanks to you I'll be lucky if there is a wedding!" Mark snarled.
"What!"
"Oh don't play the innocent with me John. You probably couldn't wait to run and tell Elizabeth that I used to have feelings for Susan"
"Elizabeth asked me to tell her the truth so I did. I can't lie to one of my friends Mark"
"So you don't care that I might now lose the one woman I love?"
"Of course I care" John protested. "Your love for Susan is now in the past, I didn't think it would matter if I told Elizabeth"
"Well it does matter" Mark snapped. "Thanks a lot John, at least I know who my friends are"
Carter leaned against his locker as he watched Mark leave the room. From the moment Susan arrived back at County he knew there would be trouble. How would this horrible mess end?
********
Susan kneeled down on the snow covered ground beside two gravestones. Taking off her black gloves, she placed her right hand on one of the stones. 'Susie Lewis' it read. It was such a small stone, carved beautifully into an oval shape. Susan sighed loudly as she touched the larger gravestone beside Susie's. 'Chloe Lewis'. One year ago today two lives were tragically cut short. One year ago today Susan had lost the two most important people in her life. As the tears started to slide down her cheeks and fall into the blanket of snow, she laid a bouquet of flowers beside Chloe's grave. Lilies, her favourite kind of flower. Beside Susie's stone she placed a small brown teddy bear. The same teddy Susie had been playing with in the photo Susan had been looking at earlier. Why did this have to happen, Susan asked herself. Why? My sister didn't deserve to die and neither did a young, innocent toddler. It hurts every time I think about it. People say time is great healer but it's been exactly one year since their deaths. One year of pain, anguish and suffering. I still can't get over the loss of my family, I still cry myself to sleep most nights. When will this horrible pain end?
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"Good morning Lizzie" Robert grinned as he strolled into the room where Elizabeth was busy scrubbing in for surgery. "Glorious day today isn't it? The birds are singing, the sun is shining......"
"There's ten feet of snow lying on the ground outside" Elizabeth finished his sentence.
"Well someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning" Robert laughed sarcastically. "I thought you would be over the moon to hear you were expecting a daughter"
"I am" Elizabeth replied. "I'm just a little tired, that's all"
"Uh things that bad with Mark, eh?"
"My relationship with Dr Greene is fine" she snapped. "Not that it's any of your business anyway"
"Have you thought about a christening yet?" he asked, completely changing the subject.
"Not yet, why?"
"I hope I am at the top of your list for suitable godparents" Robert said in his predictable sarcastic tone.
"Robert, do you honestly think you could act as an honest, loving, caring figure in my daughter's life? Someone she could turn to in times of help and admire as a human?"
"I think I'd make an excellent godfather. In fact Lizzie I'm rather hurt that you are even questioning my capability. Have you and lover boy decided on a name?"
"Firstly lover has a name, which is Mark, and no we have not decided on a name yet" she glared angrily at the man.
"I always thought the name Susan was nice" Robert smirked at the female surgeon. He loved nothing better than to torment her.
"Dr Romano" Jing-Mei Chen called as she stood by the door. "Dr Weaver needs you down in the Er"
"Well Lizzie I am deeply sorry we have to cut our conversation short but I am needed elsewhere. Goodbye" With a large smirk on his face he walked past Jing-Mei towards the elevators.
"He can't even be nice to anyone for at least a day can he?" Dr Chen shook her head.
"Nooo....ooo...." Elizabeth started to speak but suddenly broke down in tears.
"Elizabeth are you okay?" Jing-Mei asked as she wrapped her arm around the other woman.
"I'm going to lose him" she sobbed.
"Lose who?"
"Mark. I love him so much. I don't think I could live without him. After two years together I thought I had finally met the one man I was destined to spend the rest of my life with. Now I'm going to lose him. I don't know what I will do if he's go back to Susan. I can't carry on without him in my life"
"Shhhhhh, calm down" Jing-Mei cooed in a quiet, soothing tone to try and put Elizabeth at ease. "You are not going to lose Mark, he adores you. If he loved Susan don't you think he would have left you by now?"
"Perhaps" the surgeon replied as she wiped away her tears. "I'm just so scared"
"Elizabeth you are due to marry Mark in a few months time. You are even carrying the man's child! Don't let Susan Lewis spoil your happiness and your wonderful relationship"
"You're right" Elizabeth smiled at long last. "I have nothing to worry about"
"After your surgery come down to the Er, find Mark and arrange to go out tonight for dinner" Jing-Mei suggested. "He hasn't looked happy all day"
"I will" Elizabeth smiled. "Thanks for your help"
"What are friends for?" the doctor laughed as she left the room.
For the first time this week Elizabeth could finally relax and stop worrying.
********
Susan pushed open the door to Exam room four and approached the young teenage girl that was sitting upright on the bed.
"We have your test results back" she said, looking down at the chart she held in her hands.
"I'm not ill, am I?" the girl named Alison asked. She had been brought in by a friend after fainting in the shopping mall.
"The tests show you are four months pregnant" Susan answered taking a seat beside the young teenager.
"I'm pregnant!" Alison exclaimed as she slumped against the pillows in surprise. "Please tell me you are joking, tell me this isn't true"
"I am afraid I'm not joking" Susan replied, feeling rather sympathetic towards the young girl.
"He told me you couldn't fall pregnant the first time" Alison cried. "Please don't tell my parents. They would kill me if they knew I was pregnant"
"Don't worry everything is confidential" the doctor told her. "Although you really should tell your parents. If you decide to keep this baby they will eventually find out"
"No I can't keep this baby. I don't even want it"
"You could give the baby up for adoption"
"I want a termination" Alison demanded.
"That's a very big decision for somone as young as you are" Susan replied. "Perhaps you should contact a friend or a different relative"
"Look I don't want to keep this baby. I'm sitting important exams at school this year, a kid will simply ruin my future."
"Abortion isn't the only option. If you have the baby adopted........"
"I told you I want an abortion"
"So you're just going to kill your child!" Susan shouted at the teenager.
"I can't care for a child" Alison said. "If I give my baby up for adoption I might not want to give him or her away after I give birth"
"What if you regret the termination in a couple of years time?" Susan asked.
"I will not regret it. Lots of women in America have abortions"
"How would you feel if your mother had decided she didn't want you? Would you feel angry or sad knowing your mother was planning to get rid of you?"
"Stop it your scaring me!" Alison yelled at the top of her voice. "Why can't you understand me? I don't want this baby!"
Susan stared sadly at the girl sitting on the bed. Standing up she threw the chart angrily on the bed and stormed out of the room, slamming the door shut behind her. Marching through reception she headed towards the exit of the hospital looking extremely upset.
"Susan" Mark called after her. "Susan what's wrong?"
"I'm sorry Mark" she said, trying her best to hold back the tears that were filling up in her eyes.
As she finally made her way out of the hospital, Susan collapsed onto a nearby bench and started crying. Holding her head in her hands, the tears fell freely dowm her pale cheeks and onto her white lab coat as she watched the tiny snowflakes fall from the dark night sky onto the ground. Why was the world so cruel? Would she ever be allowed to experience happiness in her life? Susan would have given anything to be able to turn back time and stop the horrible accident that took little Susie's life. Susie didn't deserve to die and neither did the innocent young baby the Alison was carrying. Susan had been hurting every day since the death of her neice, why was another child's life going to be cut tragically short? Susan stared hard at the starless sky and wondered if Susie was up there above the clouds. Sometimes she wished she was up there with her.
"Susan" Mark called as he took a seat beside her on the cold bench. "Are you okay?" he asked, concerned for her well-being.
"No" she replied folding her arms in a vain attempt to keep warm.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"My life is such a mess" she laughed bitterly. "Nothing ever seems to go right. Exactly one year ago today I lost the one person I cared about the most in this world. I don't understand why she had to die, she was so young. It should have been me instead!"
"Don't talk like that" Mark said sharply. "You've been a wonderful friend to me, I don't think I could cope if you passed away"
"Please help me Mark" Susan pleaded. "Help me get over this pain. I'm scared incase I lose you too"
"Oh Susan" Mark whispered as he wrapped his arm around the crying doctor.
She buried her face in his chest as she cried for her neice. The tiny droplets of water fell quickly down her face and onto the cold snow on the ground. The bitter wind whistled but Susan felt warm and safe in Mark's embrace.
"Mark" she sighed as she raised her head to meet his face. Looking into his dark blue eyes she leaned forward slightly to kiss him tenderly on the lips. As Mark looked up he caught a glimpse of the figure standing metres behind Susan. The figure belonged to the woman he was intending on marrying in a few months time.
"Elizabeth" he said loudly as he let go of the tight grip he had of Susan. "I can explain"
"Don't bother Mark" the English suregon replied as she headed towards the ambulance bay.
"Elizabeth!"
"Mark wait" Susan shouted as he jumped off the bench and chased after his fiancee. "I love you" she whispered as the shadow of the male doctor disappeared into the distance.
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Elizabeth ran as fast as she could through the car park. A few hours ago she had persuaded herself that Mark and Susan were just simply good friends, now she could confirm that wasn't true. She had seen the pair with her own eyes, kissing on the bench. The man she loved with all her heart had kissed another woman. The man she wanted to marry, the man who's baby she was carrying at the moment. Her heart had been broken into a million tiny pieces. All she wanted to do was run away and pretend the situation never happened. Wake up in Mark's arms the next morning and find out it was nothing but a terrible nightmare. Glancing behind her she saw him chasing after her.
"Elizabeth watch out!" Mark screamed in horror.
It was too late though. Elizabeth had not seen the oncoming ambulance.
Author's Notes: Okay I know I'm cruel for leaving it at such a cliffhanger. So will Elizabeth survive this horrific incident or will she not pull through? What will happen after that kiss between Mark and Susan? What exactly happened a year ago that cost Chloe and Susie their lives? Find out in the final installment of Don't Want You Back. As always feedback is greatly accepted.
Chapter 4
Author: Lockhart
E-mail: Katie@ballantyne24.freeserve.co.uk
Category: Susan Lewis/ Mark Greene/ Susan Lewis
Rating: PG13
Spoilers: Contains minor spoilers for season 7
Archive: Archive my fic on your site if you wish but please let me know first
Disclaimer: I don't own ER or any of the characters but I sure wish I did(especially Carter and Dave, tee hee hee!)
Authors Notes: See end of fic
Summary: Continuation of Don't Want You Back 3
Elizabeth stared out of the window at an elderly man and woman walking hand in hand down the pavement. They looked so happy and content with each other, smiling as they strolled down the paved road. I thought Mark and I would grow old together, Elizabeth thought to herself. I always imagined that years from now we would be that joyful couple, glowing with happiness from our years of marriage. Now I'm not quite so sure.
"Do you want to go see a film tonight?" Mark asked, as they approached a set of traffic lights.
"Not particulary" she replied in a glum, sad tone.
"Elizabeth I am truly sorry for missing the scan. I made one mistake, why can't you forgive me?"
"You just don't understand Mark" she snapped back. "This was an important event to me. We should have been there together as a couple to catch a glimpse of our unborn child. What angers me the most is that you spent the time with Susan Lewis. Is she really more important to you than our daughter?"
"Of course not!"Mark exclaimed. "I love you and I feel terrible for missing the scan. I wish I could turn back time and be there with you and our child but I can't. You and the baby are the most important people in my life. Susan is only a friend"
"So that's all she is then, a friend?" Elizabeth inquired.
"Yes" Mark answered.
"One thing I will not tolerate in a realationship is lies!" she shouted. "Carter told me how you really felt towards Susan. He told me how heartbroken you were when she left for Phoenix"
"Okay I will admit it. I did have feelings towards Susan but that was years ago. I have moved on and I love you now. Only you, Elizabeth."
Elizabeth stared at the diamond ring on her finger. Why didn't she believe Mark words? She wished she could believe she was the only woman for him but Susan's prescence still preyed on her mind.
"Whatever you say Mark" she sighed. "Whatever you say"
********
Susan laughed as she flicked through a large, pink photo albulm. A particular photo of little Susie dressed in a pretty white dress with chocolate all over her face had caught her attention. Susie was smiling cheekily for the camera, holding her favourite teddy bear which was also covered in chocolate. Susan sighed as she closed the book and placed it on the coffee table beside her. How could one picture be such a painful memory?
** "Susie, Susie, Susie. What a mess you have got yourself into" Susan laughed as she wiped the chocolate off the toddler's face with a damp cloth. She could never be cross with her neice. "I think it's your nap time now. Yes it is my darling, nap time" Susie giggled with delight as her aunt tickled her fingers and toes. It had been two months now since Chloe's overdose. After her release from hospital she started a course of anti-depressant drugs but they didn't seem to do any good. Chloe refused counselling and any help from doctors. It had been up to Susan to look after Susie whilst also working. This year she was aiming for an attending position within Great Hope Hospital but she had been so caught up in personal matters, her chances were not too great.
"What time is it?" Chloe asked as she entered the sitting room.
"Four pm" Susan answered as she watched her sister take a seat on the couch. "My shift starts at six, I trust you can manage to care for Susie till I come back?"
"You couldn't do me a big favour and take her with you, could you?" Chloe asked as she rubbed her eyes irritibly.
"Chloe............." Susan moaned. Day care fees were not exactly cheap but could she trust her sister to look after the toddler for a few hours?
"Please sis, I'm tired and not feeling very well"
"I suppose so" Susan sighed eventually. "Why don't you come to the hospital with me Chloe? There's a great doctor there....."
"No Susan!" Chloe interrupted. "We've been down this road before. I don't need help, I'm perfectly in a fit state of mind to make my own decisions"
"You've been depressed for months, you hardly eat or go out. In fact all you do is lie around the house all day. I care about you which is why I want you to seek professional help"
"You're not my mother Susan!" Chloe screamed at the top of her voice. "Why can't you just leave me alone?" With those last words Chloe ran up the stairs and slammed her bedroom door shut. Susan shook her head and lifted her neice high into her arms. It was Susie she felt truly sorry for. Having a mother who could barely look after herself, never mind a child. The only thing Susan wanted to do was to provide a safe and secure future for Susie. In her eyes Susie was her daughter. **
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"Hi Mark" Carter smiled as his old friend walked into the locker room. Mark didn't reply back or even acknowledge that John was in the room. "Heard you performed a great save on a kid with heart problems. It's great we have some doctors who perform what I would say is a miracle"
"Mmmmmm........" Mark replied as he opened his locker and placed his coat inside.
"So how are the wedding arrangements going?" John asked.
"Thanks to you I'll be lucky if there is a wedding!" Mark snarled.
"What!"
"Oh don't play the innocent with me John. You probably couldn't wait to run and tell Elizabeth that I used to have feelings for Susan"
"Elizabeth asked me to tell her the truth so I did. I can't lie to one of my friends Mark"
"So you don't care that I might now lose the one woman I love?"
"Of course I care" John protested. "Your love for Susan is now in the past, I didn't think it would matter if I told Elizabeth"
"Well it does matter" Mark snapped. "Thanks a lot John, at least I know who my friends are"
Carter leaned against his locker as he watched Mark leave the room. From the moment Susan arrived back at County he knew there would be trouble. How would this horrible mess end?
********
Susan kneeled down on the snow covered ground beside two gravestones. Taking off her black gloves, she placed her right hand on one of the stones. 'Susie Lewis' it read. It was such a small stone, carved beautifully into an oval shape. Susan sighed loudly as she touched the larger gravestone beside Susie's. 'Chloe Lewis'. One year ago today two lives were tragically cut short. One year ago today Susan had lost the two most important people in her life. As the tears started to slide down her cheeks and fall into the blanket of snow, she laid a bouquet of flowers beside Chloe's grave. Lilies, her favourite kind of flower. Beside Susie's stone she placed a small brown teddy bear. The same teddy Susie had been playing with in the photo Susan had been looking at earlier. Why did this have to happen, Susan asked herself. Why? My sister didn't deserve to die and neither did a young, innocent toddler. It hurts every time I think about it. People say time is great healer but it's been exactly one year since their deaths. One year of pain, anguish and suffering. I still can't get over the loss of my family, I still cry myself to sleep most nights. When will this horrible pain end?
********
"Good morning Lizzie" Robert grinned as he strolled into the room where Elizabeth was busy scrubbing in for surgery. "Glorious day today isn't it? The birds are singing, the sun is shining......"
"There's ten feet of snow lying on the ground outside" Elizabeth finished his sentence.
"Well someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning" Robert laughed sarcastically. "I thought you would be over the moon to hear you were expecting a daughter"
"I am" Elizabeth replied. "I'm just a little tired, that's all"
"Uh things that bad with Mark, eh?"
"My relationship with Dr Greene is fine" she snapped. "Not that it's any of your business anyway"
"Have you thought about a christening yet?" he asked, completely changing the subject.
"Not yet, why?"
"I hope I am at the top of your list for suitable godparents" Robert said in his predictable sarcastic tone.
"Robert, do you honestly think you could act as an honest, loving, caring figure in my daughter's life? Someone she could turn to in times of help and admire as a human?"
"I think I'd make an excellent godfather. In fact Lizzie I'm rather hurt that you are even questioning my capability. Have you and lover boy decided on a name?"
"Firstly lover has a name, which is Mark, and no we have not decided on a name yet" she glared angrily at the man.
"I always thought the name Susan was nice" Robert smirked at the female surgeon. He loved nothing better than to torment her.
"Dr Romano" Jing-Mei Chen called as she stood by the door. "Dr Weaver needs you down in the Er"
"Well Lizzie I am deeply sorry we have to cut our conversation short but I am needed elsewhere. Goodbye" With a large smirk on his face he walked past Jing-Mei towards the elevators.
"He can't even be nice to anyone for at least a day can he?" Dr Chen shook her head.
"Nooo....ooo...." Elizabeth started to speak but suddenly broke down in tears.
"Elizabeth are you okay?" Jing-Mei asked as she wrapped her arm around the other woman.
"I'm going to lose him" she sobbed.
"Lose who?"
"Mark. I love him so much. I don't think I could live without him. After two years together I thought I had finally met the one man I was destined to spend the rest of my life with. Now I'm going to lose him. I don't know what I will do if he's go back to Susan. I can't carry on without him in my life"
"Shhhhhh, calm down" Jing-Mei cooed in a quiet, soothing tone to try and put Elizabeth at ease. "You are not going to lose Mark, he adores you. If he loved Susan don't you think he would have left you by now?"
"Perhaps" the surgeon replied as she wiped away her tears. "I'm just so scared"
"Elizabeth you are due to marry Mark in a few months time. You are even carrying the man's child! Don't let Susan Lewis spoil your happiness and your wonderful relationship"
"You're right" Elizabeth smiled at long last. "I have nothing to worry about"
"After your surgery come down to the Er, find Mark and arrange to go out tonight for dinner" Jing-Mei suggested. "He hasn't looked happy all day"
"I will" Elizabeth smiled. "Thanks for your help"
"What are friends for?" the doctor laughed as she left the room.
For the first time this week Elizabeth could finally relax and stop worrying.
********
Susan pushed open the door to Exam room four and approached the young teenage girl that was sitting upright on the bed.
"We have your test results back" she said, looking down at the chart she held in her hands.
"I'm not ill, am I?" the girl named Alison asked. She had been brought in by a friend after fainting in the shopping mall.
"The tests show you are four months pregnant" Susan answered taking a seat beside the young teenager.
"I'm pregnant!" Alison exclaimed as she slumped against the pillows in surprise. "Please tell me you are joking, tell me this isn't true"
"I am afraid I'm not joking" Susan replied, feeling rather sympathetic towards the young girl.
"He told me you couldn't fall pregnant the first time" Alison cried. "Please don't tell my parents. They would kill me if they knew I was pregnant"
"Don't worry everything is confidential" the doctor told her. "Although you really should tell your parents. If you decide to keep this baby they will eventually find out"
"No I can't keep this baby. I don't even want it"
"You could give the baby up for adoption"
"I want a termination" Alison demanded.
"That's a very big decision for somone as young as you are" Susan replied. "Perhaps you should contact a friend or a different relative"
"Look I don't want to keep this baby. I'm sitting important exams at school this year, a kid will simply ruin my future."
"Abortion isn't the only option. If you have the baby adopted........"
"I told you I want an abortion"
"So you're just going to kill your child!" Susan shouted at the teenager.
"I can't care for a child" Alison said. "If I give my baby up for adoption I might not want to give him or her away after I give birth"
"What if you regret the termination in a couple of years time?" Susan asked.
"I will not regret it. Lots of women in America have abortions"
"How would you feel if your mother had decided she didn't want you? Would you feel angry or sad knowing your mother was planning to get rid of you?"
"Stop it your scaring me!" Alison yelled at the top of her voice. "Why can't you understand me? I don't want this baby!"
Susan stared sadly at the girl sitting on the bed. Standing up she threw the chart angrily on the bed and stormed out of the room, slamming the door shut behind her. Marching through reception she headed towards the exit of the hospital looking extremely upset.
"Susan" Mark called after her. "Susan what's wrong?"
"I'm sorry Mark" she said, trying her best to hold back the tears that were filling up in her eyes.
As she finally made her way out of the hospital, Susan collapsed onto a nearby bench and started crying. Holding her head in her hands, the tears fell freely dowm her pale cheeks and onto her white lab coat as she watched the tiny snowflakes fall from the dark night sky onto the ground. Why was the world so cruel? Would she ever be allowed to experience happiness in her life? Susan would have given anything to be able to turn back time and stop the horrible accident that took little Susie's life. Susie didn't deserve to die and neither did the innocent young baby the Alison was carrying. Susan had been hurting every day since the death of her neice, why was another child's life going to be cut tragically short? Susan stared hard at the starless sky and wondered if Susie was up there above the clouds. Sometimes she wished she was up there with her.
"Susan" Mark called as he took a seat beside her on the cold bench. "Are you okay?" he asked, concerned for her well-being.
"No" she replied folding her arms in a vain attempt to keep warm.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"My life is such a mess" she laughed bitterly. "Nothing ever seems to go right. Exactly one year ago today I lost the one person I cared about the most in this world. I don't understand why she had to die, she was so young. It should have been me instead!"
"Don't talk like that" Mark said sharply. "You've been a wonderful friend to me, I don't think I could cope if you passed away"
"Please help me Mark" Susan pleaded. "Help me get over this pain. I'm scared incase I lose you too"
"Oh Susan" Mark whispered as he wrapped his arm around the crying doctor.
She buried her face in his chest as she cried for her neice. The tiny droplets of water fell quickly down her face and onto the cold snow on the ground. The bitter wind whistled but Susan felt warm and safe in Mark's embrace.
"Mark" she sighed as she raised her head to meet his face. Looking into his dark blue eyes she leaned forward slightly to kiss him tenderly on the lips. As Mark looked up he caught a glimpse of the figure standing metres behind Susan. The figure belonged to the woman he was intending on marrying in a few months time.
"Elizabeth" he said loudly as he let go of the tight grip he had of Susan. "I can explain"
"Don't bother Mark" the English suregon replied as she headed towards the ambulance bay.
"Elizabeth!"
"Mark wait" Susan shouted as he jumped off the bench and chased after his fiancee. "I love you" she whispered as the shadow of the male doctor disappeared into the distance.
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Elizabeth ran as fast as she could through the car park. A few hours ago she had persuaded herself that Mark and Susan were just simply good friends, now she could confirm that wasn't true. She had seen the pair with her own eyes, kissing on the bench. The man she loved with all her heart had kissed another woman. The man she wanted to marry, the man who's baby she was carrying at the moment. Her heart had been broken into a million tiny pieces. All she wanted to do was run away and pretend the situation never happened. Wake up in Mark's arms the next morning and find out it was nothing but a terrible nightmare. Glancing behind her she saw him chasing after her.
"Elizabeth watch out!" Mark screamed in horror.
It was too late though. Elizabeth had not seen the oncoming ambulance.
Author's Notes: Okay I know I'm cruel for leaving it at such a cliffhanger. So will Elizabeth survive this horrific incident or will she not pull through? What will happen after that kiss between Mark and Susan? What exactly happened a year ago that cost Chloe and Susie their lives? Find out in the final installment of Don't Want You Back. As always feedback is greatly accepted.
