NEW FEELINGS

New Feelings




This is a Trunks & Goten fanfic,
so if you're a big Trunks & Marron/Pan
or Goten & Bra fan, either don't read it,
or if you do, don't get pissed...

P.S. If you still don't understand
who Trunks will be thinking about,
you're a moron.

Well, enjoy :)!




Trunks' point of view:


Here i'm sitting again.
This is the place where I come when something is troubling me or i'm depressed.
I've been coming here quite often lately!
Many people have problems, but it's different with me.
Others can talk to somebody about it, I can't, not even to my best friend.


I try to clear my mind and look at the reflection of the full moon in the clear water a few meters under my feet.
For a while I marvel at the beauty of my surroundings.
The dark forest, the small green hills, although you couldn't really see how green they are now, the clear lake beneath me, and the beautiful sky covered with millions of bright stars.
That takes my mind off my worries for a bit, but not for long.


Again i'm forced to think about Goten, my best friend.
I only realized that he was more than a friend to me about 3 weeks ago, and it's already torturing me.
It's especially hard since I spend so much time with him.
It's a wonder he hasn't noticed yet.
Everyone has noticed that something is wrong with me, that I became more withdrawn and quiet, but nobody has any idea why.


Even the simple things he does such as patting me on my shoulder makes me feel weird now.
I used to be so easygoing and extraverted around him just a month ago.
After all, he is my best friend, so I felt comfortable being with him!
Not any more though.
Whenever he's around me I become so shy!


Kami, why me? Of all people, why me?
What did I do to deserve this?
Why my best friend?
And what am I supposed to do now?
We used to have such great times, but I doubt that i'll ever be able to enjoy them as much now.
If i'll be able to enjoy them at all.


I throw a rock into the water and watch the ripples for a while, until they die out.
Then I sigh lowering my head.
I really feel like crying now, overwhelmed by all these new emotions.
Goten thinks i'm so lucky always being surrounded by a crowd of girls, what he doesn't know is that I could care less, lately at least.
I take a deep breath, which makes me feel ever so slightly better, but still not helping much.


I have this great urge to tell him, to get this heavy load off my chest.
But I can't do that.
What if he doesn't feel the same way?
That's probably right, he most likely doesn't.
So then what?
I won't have him as either a friend or lover.
I'd rather have him as a friend than nothing at all.


But no, he'd probably want to stay friends even after that.
He'd say that he cares about me too, but not in that way.
The problem is, after I tell him, even if he'll want to stay friends, I wouldn't be able to.
I wouldn't be able to look him in the face after I tell him.


Ofcourse there is a chance that he feels the same way.
Oh what would I give to find out.
That would make everything so much simpler.
But now I can't know for sure.
And I don't want to risk it, not yet.


I might tell him after, once i'll summon up the courage to do so.
But I have a feeling that that will be very hard.
For now i'll just stay quiet and try to hide my true feelings from him.
I'll just have to admire him from the side, hoping he finds a nice girlfriend and stays happy.
As long as he'll be happy, so will I.
I sigh.
For now, as long as he doesn't notice, i'll be fine, I hope.
Time will show.






Well, that's it :)! Hope you enjoyed it!
I've never exactly written anything like this before,
so don't expect it to be perfect.

But anyway, I still hope you liked it, so please review on it :)!



Next chapter: Goten is trying to figure out what's wrong with his best friend. He has an idea, but he right? Read on to find out ;)!