Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon, and despite my mindset, I am not Sailor Jupiter. ::snaps fingers:: Damn. And I don't own the song either… I think that's owned by Vertical Horizon. Neway, this is a continuation of "Standing Still" from Ami's point of view… Yes, I am insane. And, yes, I am open to flames. But that doesn't mean I won't flame back.

I was sitting in front of my computer, doing some research and daydreaming slightly when there was a knock at the door. I called out, "Who's there?" I got up and walked over to the door. Upon the opening of the door, I saw Mako-chan standing there. "Oh, hey Mako-chan." I raised my brows as I noticed a slightly hazy look in her gorgeous emerald eyes. It looks as if she's been crying. But why would Mako-chan be crying? She's so strong, she never cries. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah. I just need to talk if this isn't a bad time." It is never a bad time for me when Mako-chan is around.

"Okay, I was just studying… come on in and have a seat." She walked over and sat down on the couch. "Mako-chan, what's wrong?"

"Ami-san, hear me out please."

"Of course Mako." I sat down opposite her as she took a deep breath, then slowly began to speak. "Ami-san.  I don't really know how to explain this." She closed her eyes tightly and quickly blurted it out. "I love you."

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

I blinked several times looking at her in a semi-blank fashion. Her eyes lowered toward the ground and she looked as if she might cry again.  "Makoto. I-I don't know what to say. Maybe if you give me a little bit of time, I can figure this out…" She sat there for a moment and I could have sworn that she was going to break out in tears right then and there.

"I understand Ami-san," she stood up and walked over to the door, "I-I'll talk to you later." She quickly walked out and I sat there staring at the closed door.

 But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

That night I couldn't sleep and ended up pacing back and forth on the carpet at the foot of my bed. How am I going to do this? She is such a good friend, I don't want to hurt her more then it looks like I already have. How can I tell her?

So you stole my world
now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
leaves me down and lonely

I sit down in front of my computer and start typing anything and everything that comes to mind.

Dear Mako-chan,

Backspace

Makoto,

Delete

Mako-san,

Highlight, DELETE

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

###Several Hours Later###

I finally finished the letter, saved it onto my hard drive and shut down the computer. I looked at the clock, which had just turned to 5:41 AM. I blinked several times. Oh my god! I have to go to school! I started grabbing stuff and ran out the door, trying to make it to school on time.

But it's not so bad

You're only the best I ever had

You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

I spent my lunch hour in the library, much to the dismay of Usagi-chan. Later, while walking home with her, I ask her how lunch went with them. "Well, I don't know what was wrong, but Mako-chan offered me her entire lunch without eating any of it." I faltered in my step slightly upon hearing that. Usagi turned around to look at me.

"Are you okay Ami-chan?"

"Yeah. I think I tripped over a rock." She paused for a minute.

"…Wait a minute, that's my job!"

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

"Um, excuse me Usagi-chan… I need to go study."

"Okay Ami-chan. See you later." I turned around and bumped straight into Haruka.

"Hello Haruka-san."

"Hello Ami-chan."

"Excuse me, I must be going." I walked past her and I felt her watching me as I walked away.

~*~

I could tell that there was something wrong with Ami-chan so I decided to follow her.  She didn't seem to know which way to go, but she ended up walking straight into the library. "Fun…" I followed her in and sat down on the opposite side of the room as her. She picked up a book and opened the cover of the book. Then turned a page. And turned another page. "Joy, let's make a documentary. Ami at the library!" She closed the book, picked up another book… and I left. "Koneko-chan can do her own following."

~*~

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

After a few minutes in the library, I realized that the books that I was looking at were doing nothing for cheering me up, so I got up and left. I ended up wandering around without any idea of where I was going or which way I was turning. Before I knew it, I was standing in front of Makoto's apartment. I stood there for several minutes just staring up at her window.  For some reason, I couldn't look away. After a few minutes, I turned and began to walk away.

~*~

I walked over to my window and looked out. I quickly spotted Ami-chan standing on the sidewalk on the other side of the street. She turns and started to walk away. Oh my god. I've really hurt her this time. She can't even stand to talk to me anymore. Oh my god… what am I going to do? I walked away from the window and sat down on my bed, beginning to cry for about the fifth time in the past two days.

~*~

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

I walked into my apartment and turned on the computer, connecting to the Internet. I opened up the letter I had written the night before. After using spell check and grammatical check to fix the numerous mistakes I had made, and reading it over many times, I used copy and paste and put it into e-mail, addressed for Makoto.

Dear Makoto-san,

I am very sorry about last night. You caught me off guard and I didn't know what to do at the moment. I didn't mean to hurt you at all, but I know that I have.  After thinking of what to do, and how to do it, I have figured things out. I love you too. I have for quite some time now. I was shocked last night when you showed up and told me that. I was not expecting it at all. I didn't know what to say, or even do, when you said that. I would understand completely if you decided to have nothing to do with me for how much I have hurt you. But I strongly hope that you will consider forgiving me for causing you to hurt. I am extremely sorry for it and I hope that I will never hurt you again. But, I do love you.

~Ami-chan