Disclaimer: ::peers out from behind a bush:: Will someone help me please? I'm being stalked! ::out of paranoia, ducks back behind the bush::
Aramina posing as a detective: Well, do you have any clue as to who is stalking you?
Lita: YES! It's Boredom!!!!!
Yes, you heard it; this is a product of being stalked by boredom. I do not own Sailor Moon or Every Time it Rains… you gotta love Takeuchi-sama and Ace of Base for those.
Author Note: This chapter is going to be very different from what I am used to writing, so if you like, go ahead and flame me… it would make a nice fire… I'm quite cold. Maybe I can warm up from it.
I lay in a completely pitch black room, even though it is the middle of the day. For the past few days I haven't even bothered to get out of bed to cook anything. I think I've eaten a total of three crackers in the past 4 days. I can't get myself together. Not after what happened. Ami must be furious with me. I shift in my bed until I'm comfortable. My stomach's growling, begging for food, but I ignore it. I don't feel like eating. Every time I think about Ami, I want to cry.
Why did Haruka kiss me? Why didn't I pull back? Why did I kiss back? Oh god. Ami-chan I'm sorry. I was so deep in my thoughts that I didn't hear the phone ring. I sighed. Can't they just leave me alone? At times my friends are too nosey, especially the blondes.
I don't even bother with picking it up and I just let the machine get it. It was Haruka.
"Makoto, please pick up the phone. You can't cut yourself from us forever. Please talk to some-" the machine cut her off there and inserted a message stating that the message box had become full.
I bury my head in the pillow and I guess I fell asleep because the next thing I know the doorbell was ringing.
"Mako open the door!!!" I can hear Usagi's voice. She sounds worried. I shouldn't let her worry but can't she see I want to be alone. "Mako please open the door. I'm here alone this time I swear!"
I sighed. ~Fine! You win Usa.~ I thought to myself. Slowly I stand with shaky legs. I think I've lost too much weight. I'm so tired and nauseous I don't feel like standing but I force myself too. When I reached the door I leaned heavily on it. I have never been this tired in my life. I can't even hold my self up without any troubles. Slowly I opened the door and I can hear a faint gasp from my friend. I looked up at her and suddenly I'm hit with a dizzy spell. I feel myself falling. "Usa."
"Mako!" That was the only thing heard but the voice wasn't Usagi's. The last thing I remember, trembling arms were wrapping around my waist.
I regain consciousness, but nothing smells, or sounds, like it should. I keep my eyes closed and try to figure out where I am. There is only one steady beeping, several small, sporadic beeps and the loud sound of thunder.
//I see dark clouds out my window
I know the storm is coming any minute
and the thunder just confirms my fears
and I know the tears are in it
I'll be cryin unable to stoplook here comes the very first drop//
I slowly open one eye, and then quickly close it again as a bright light bombards my sight. Slowly, I move my left arm across my waist and my fingertips come in contact with something stuck into my right wrist.
~Please don't tell me they've put me in a hospital~
I started to open my eye again and this time I resisted the light. Soon after it was adjusted, I open my other eye and look around, only to confirm that I am in a hospital. I weakly sit up and look around more at the machines and the IV that is attached to my wrist. As the rain began to fall, my attention was glued to it beating against the window.
I was so preoccupied with watching and listening to the rain that I didn't notice when Usagi opened the door and walked in.
"I'm glad to see that you're awake Mako-chan. You had us all worried"
She startled me and I turned to look at her.
"What happened? Why am I here?"
"You passed out and we brought you here immediately. The doctors say you haven't eaten and that you are dehydrated."
I look back at the window. "Yeah? Your point being?"
"Mako, you can't do this to yourself."
A small tear forms in the corner of my eye but I force my voice to belie my emotions. I ended up sounding harsh. "Watch me."
"Mako," she put a hand on my shoulder, "I won't let you. You are my friend. I care to much about you to let you do this."
"But why should I care when I've hurt the only person I've ever truly loved?"
"Mako-chan. She's worried about you too."
I shrug her hand off my shoulder and speak in a cold, harsh tone. "Liar." I still refuse to look at her anymore.
"I'm not lieing Makoto. She's here right now. But she didn't want you to be to mad at her, so she ask me to come in and talk to you first."
That broke it and I start screaming at her. "LIAR! Get out!" My voice only raised in volume. "Just get out and stop lieing to me."
She turns around and calmly walks out. As soon as she is out of view, I start to pull out the IV and other machines that I am hooked up to. I slowly stand up and stay still until I get my balance, then, ignoring my bleeding wrist, I slowly make my way out of the room and down the hall. I get about half way down the hall before a nurse stops me. I don't know where it came from, but somehow I got the strength to push her out of my way and I continue to walk out of the hospital.
I get out of the hospital with very little more interference.
~When she realizes I'm gone, the first place she'll look is my apartment. I have a head start so I probably have enough time to go pick up some stuff and hightail it out.~
So I walk as fast as I can, becoming drenched in the pouring rain, to my apartment and gather a few sets of clothes and wrap a large butcher knife in them.
//'Cuz every time it rains I fall to pieces so many memories the rain releases I feel you I taste you I cannot forget everytime it rains I get wet//I grab another set of clothes and quickly change out of the soaked hospital gown. I walk out of my apartment and close the door… no need to lock it. I won't need anything in it anymore. Before I turn to go in either direction, I begin to hear angry voices of the inner senshi coming from the elevator. I run as fast as my, still weak, legs will take me toward the stairs and disappear down the stairwell, hopefully before anyone notices me.
//On sunny days I'm all right I walk in the light and I try not to think about the love I live without//It takes about four seconds to get completely drenched again. I let my feet take me where they will and I find myself on the bridge where the outers like to look at the stars. There are no stars out in this rain, but that is all the better. That means that there will be fewer witnesses to my act. I sit in the middle of the bridge and open my burden and pick up the knife that is lying inside, awaiting its task. I lightly run my hand against the flat of the wet blade, then let my fingers gently glide against the sharp edge. A thin line of blood quickly appears, attesting to the sharpness of the blade.
~There are plenty of senshi now to protect Queen Serenity. They don't have to have the stormy one.~
A bolt of lightning flashes across the sky above me then fades away slowly. How appropriate. I look down at my right wrist and gently flick off the dried blood, which had accumulated since I pulled out the IV. A small trickle decided to spring up and join the beads on my fingertips.
//But every time it rains I fall to pieces so many memories the rain releases I feel you I taste you I cannot forget everytime it rains I get wet//My gaze rested on the knife in my hand, which I lightly put against the skin of my left wrist. The metal is cold and constantly becoming colder as the rain continues to fall. I take a deep breath, and pull the edge across my wrist with as much pressure as I can possibly put into it. I scream against the pain and loud enough to rip through the sound of the thunder and rain. But I know that will not be enough. I pass the knife into my left hand, more blood oozing out of that wrist. I repeat the process on my right wrist, pulling the edge straight across the IV wound.
//'Cuz every time it rains (every time it rains) I fall to pieces (every memory) so many memories the rain releases I feel you I taste you I cannot forget everytime it rains (every time it rains) I get wet 'Cuz every time it rains (every time it rains) I fall to pieces (every memory) so many memories the rain releases//After a few minutes of watching the blood gush and the rain, washing it down my arms, I finally pass out. Glorious unconsciousness.
Author note: I know you are all screaming "NO YOU CAN'T END IT THERE!" but I did… can you blame me? I wrote this entirely in one day… and only through the efforts of myself and the ff.net empress of the crossovers, Altheia. We must all praise Altheia and thank her for writing almost my entire first page! ::bows to Altheia:: Thank you everyone!
