Disclaimer::: has on headphones and is head banging to an unknown song, suddenly sings loudly:: TIE ME TO THE BEDPOOOOOOOOOOST! ::suddenly aware of people looking at her like she's crazy (which I am, but that's another story):: oh, hello. You want a disclaimer don't you? Okay, well, I don't own Sailor Moon or Stuck in a Moment. Takeuchi-sama and U2 rock the world for those.. I don't own Inside Out either.:: the song blares through the headphones:: Eve 6 rocks too. Okay. I'm going back to my music now:: puts headphones back on::

Author's note: I have done something quite different than any of my other chapters, but I will not say what it is, I wanna see if anyone pays attention enough to figure out what it is.

I stand in the hall and look at the gorgeous woman that is encased in crystal. It has been several years since she has been awake and walking around. Although I see her daily, I miss her greatly.

Since the day that she went into the coma, so many things have changed, but not my love for her. Nothing can change that. I still cannot believe that she thought that there was no chance of me forgiving her. I was already over it, but I had not told her so. Now I am just so afraid that I will never be able to tell her that I still love her. I sigh loudly and walk away from the large room and begin to wander around the crystal palace.

Right before I turn the corner to go to my chambers, I walk past Venus. I suppose that she noticed the saddened look on my face.

"You went to visit Mako again didn't you Mercury?"

I quietly answer her. "Yes. I did."

She gently put an arm around my shoulder. "I'm sorry Mercury. But you know, Serenity says that she could come out of it at anytime."

"Yeah, I know. That's probably the only thing that is keeping me from attempting to join her."

"As long as you hold on to some glimmer of hope, then there's always a chance. I'm sorry that I can't stay and talk more, but Pluto is waiting for me." She smirked slightly.

"Wouldn't want to keep her waiting to long." I hugged her gently. "I'll see you later Venus." I watch her bound down the hall, and then I glumly walk toward my chamber and shut the door behind me. It is almost dark, so I go ahead and get ready for bed.

~*~

(Mako's sub-conscious)

I am drenched in the cold, falling rain with a knife held to my wrist. I've made my Ami-chan mad at me. I don't deserve to live. The only thing I deserve now is to die. I am hungry, thirsty and my fingers and a small dot on my right wrist are already bleeding. The metal of the knife seems to be getting colder as the rain refuses to stop falling. I am about to do the only thing I have never thought of doing, until now. I'll end everyone's pain. I'll end it now. I drag the knife across my wrist and repeat it on the opposite one. After a few minutes of pain and dripping blood, the darkness envelops me . . .





//You've got to get yourself together

You've got stuck in a moment

And now you can't get out of it//



And the pain begins again.

~*~

I climb into my bed and curl up in the middle of it, the pain of seeing Mako-chan like that still haunting me.



&*&

After splitting up with the rest on the inner senshi, I ran in one direction for a few minutes before I heard a scream. It sounded close, but because of the rain, also sounded distant. I turned in the direction that it seems to be coming from and start running. Another scream ripped through the sound of the pouring rain, this time it seemed to be coming from far behind me. I quickly turned around and ran as fast I could.

~God, please. Don't let that be Makoto. Please, no.~

I run for what seems to be forever before I get to the bridge that the outers use for stargazing. I stop by a tree, trying to catch my breath as the cold rain continues to fall on my head. While I am leaning against the tree, I look at my surroundings. My eyes rest on something in the middle of the bridge. After looking at it closer, it seems to be a very wet brown ponytail with green knocker balls at the base.

"MAKO!" I run up to the bridge and bend down next to her and pull her into my arms. I notice that her wrists are bleeding, and nothing can stop the tears from flowing as I realize that there is nothing that I can do for her right now. I try picking her up to get her off of the bridge, possibly somewhere dry. I managed to get her partially off the ground and staggered under the weight to get her off the bridge.

"Mako-chan," I chuckled slightly, "I would think that with all that cooking you do, you wouldn't eat as much." I chuckle again as more tears fall. "Especially with Usagi-chan around."

//I never thought you were a fool

1 But darling look at you

You gotta stand up straight

Carry your own weight

These tears are going nowhere baby

You've got to get yourself together

You've got stuck in a moment

And now you can't get out of it//



&*&

I curl tighter into my ball to try and stop the pain that is rebuilding inside me.

I quietly speak aloud, just before I bury myself in my blankets. "I still love you Ma-chan. I love you."

~*~

It has been to long for Jupiter to be in her coma. It is time for me to help her find her way out of her memory.

I grab my time staff and quickly glance at Minako-chan, who is asleep on the bed, before walking out of the room and toward the crystal room. I stand just beside the crystal encasement that contains Jupiter and held my time staff above it, the garnet orb above Makoto-san's head. The orb brightens, and then dims. My job is finished.

~*~

After a few minutes of pain and dripping blood, the darkness envelops me . . .

2 //Don't say that later will be better

3 Now you're stuck in a moment

4 And you can't get out of it//

Ami is standing in front of me, smiling. "I love you Ma-chan." . . .

5 //Oh love, look at you now

6 You've got yourself stuck in a moment

7 And you can't get out of it//

The blade is cold against my skin, the rain refusing to stop falling on me, the blood still oozing from my fingers . . .

8

9 //I'm not afraid

10 Of anything in this world

11 There's nothing you can throw at me

12 That I haven't already heard//

Ami and I are lying in my bed, my arms wrapped around her naked waist and sunlight shining through the window, catching colors from my sun catcher, the colors slightly reminiscent of the sparks that were flying between Ami and I the night before . . .

13 //I will not forsake

14 The colors that you bring

15 The nights you filled with fireworks//



I am bleeding.

I am wet.

I am hungry.

I am thirsty.

I am in pain.

16 //I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall

17 It's a long way down to nothing at all//

Ami glanced at me over her Quantum physics book and smiled lovingly at me.

An unknown, yet familiar voice broke into my mind. "Jupiter. Your love needs you."



My eyes fly open, no one is there. Something transparent is surrounding me. I slowly reach up and lightly touch it before it disappears. My back trying to stay straight and stiff while I carefully sit up. I look around at the large room that I am in, the walls seemingly glowing a radiant whiteness.

"What's going on? Where am I?" I stand up and almost fall over, but catch my balance quickly.

I walk toward the door, stumbling a few times, while stepping through the frame of it, I feel a familiarity sweep over me, and then it disappears. Looking down, I notice that I am now in my senshi uniform.

"What the hell?" After turning to my left I start walking, still trying to figure out where I am.

~*~

"Sailor Mercury."

I spin around and I am face to face with Pluto.

"Go to the Grand Ballroom."

"Pluto, why?"

She smiled, and then disappears.



I wake up, completely under my blankets. They immediately get thrown onto the floor as I bolt out the door and toward the Grand Ballroom. I stop dead in my tracks as I reach the door and my hand shakily rises to cover my mouth. There, in front of me, was Sailor Jupiter, her back turned to me and looking up at the chandelier. She starts looking around, seemingly awestruck and with a good reason.

"Where the hell am-" Our eyes connected, "iiiiii . . . . . oh . . . . . . ."

I took one step forward. "Ma-chan?"

She stepped back slightly. "You're still mad at me aren't you?"

I bolt forward and wrap my arms around her chest. "Of course not Ma-chan! I that was years ago and I was only angry with you for a few hours. But you never listened to anyone." I sniffle and a tear forms in the corner of my eye as I remember.

She cautiously wraps her arms around my waist and laid her head on top of mine. "I'm so sorry Mi-chan. I wasn't thinking right."

I pull back and look up at her. "You know that you'll never be able to forget it." I hold the back of her hands and put them in front of her face, indicating the scars on her wrists and fingertips to her. "Serenity wouldn't let us heal those. She wanted to leave them as a reminder to you."

She looks at the scars for a few moments, then hugs me tightly.

"I'll never leave you again Mi-chan. I'm sorry."