Maybe It's Just Destiny
By Tonna Yuy
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2 Chapter 9 - Loss of Reality
3 Relena's eyes flew open with a jolt as she found she had been shaken awake with the rattling of the shuttle. She looked up to find herself staring into the piercing cold gaze of Heero Yuy. "Heero.."
4 "Your awake." He stated callously.
5 Relena sat up and peered out the window, trying to determined how far away they were from the base. She pause, "Where will we go after we're in space, Heero?" still starring out the window.
6 He shrugged. "It's none of your concern."
Relena turned toward him with furry in her voice, "None of my concern?" She had had enough, ***Why is he still treating me like I'm a child? Does he really believe that I can't take care of things?*
Heero looked up at her with surprised, but quickly hid it behind his mask. "Relena." He stated rather forcefully, "I don't have time to play games with you, we're almost at the base."
Relena turned away frustrated. ***There's no point in fighting him over it. Once he's made a decision, you can't change his mind no matter what. He hasn't changed. I thought.* Her thoughts were abruptly interrupted by their sudden landing. Once the shuttle was completely stopped, Heero hopped out of the door and turned back to Relena.
"Stay here, I'll be back. I have to make sure that the launch ramp is set." He was about to leave, when Relena stopped him with her words, "Heero. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have lost my temper a minute ago, but I'm tired of this." She trailed off. Heero just turned away and left. Relena sighed and slouched back into her seat.
Hilde sat quietly on the shuttle, peering out at the endless oceans. It hadn't seemed too long ago when Duo and her had been laughing at one of the pranks they at pulled at the sweeper base. She sighed, remembering the look on their advisers face and his speech about how if they really wanted to sell stuff, they shouldn't fool around. A smile crept onto her lips as she pictured Duo firing the guy that moment, telling he, "If you don't have any room for fun in your life, buddy, then they're aren't no room for you at this salvage base." Where was Duo, and the others? They hadn't heard from them since the battle. It's like they disappeared. She turned around, looking at the plane's occupants. Sally was navigating the plane to their rendezvous point somewhere in the Pacific. Lady Une was on her computer trying to get a hold of anyone who might know what happened to the Gundam Pilots or know anything about Relena. Noin was peering over her shoulder, trying to help locate them. The other members of the base who had escaped where meeting them with Mark at the rendezvous point. Hilde got up and wondered her way over to Lady Une and Noin.
"Any luck?"
"Nothing yet. except, that the Christopher Dermain's new organization, the so-called 'Neo Genius OZ' or 'NGOZ' has announced Relena's Death, stating she died when the base was destroyed." Lady Une sneered.
"What!? But.but.she can't be died."
"They're claiming to have her body." Noin stated.
"I don't believe it! She can't be died! They must be lying!"
"I hope your right, Hilde for all our sakes." Lady Une looked away. "NGOZ has moved their headquarters to the old Preventer base in Paris. Most all the Earth Allied Nation bases, along with most Preventer bases have been taken over. The people have been left powerless. We only have about 100 mobile suits and less then 70 preventers who weren't captured, most coming from the recently destroyed Victoria Base and the base in India that you and Sally were at. They're all also meet us at the rendezvous point."
"How long before we get there?"
"We only have about an hour longer." Replied Noin.
Hilde went back to her seat. She was stilled worried and none of the words the other women tried to offer her comforted her. She missed Duo, she missed his smile, his laugh, his jokes and his pranks, she even missed the way Duo stuffed all the food in his face when he ate. She sighed again, and looked around for a second time. ***I shouldn't be so down; I know Duo wouldn't want me to be this way. I must seem so childish to Noin. at least I still have hope that Duo is alive. Noin knows Zechs is dead. I can't give up hope, I just have to believe that Duo is ok.no. I know he's ok.*
Noin was wrapped up in her own thoughts as well, ***God, why is this happening, first I loose the only man I've loved and now, Relena. She was like a sister to me. why do these things happen? Hilde's right, Relena just can't be dead, she can't!* Noin's mind screamed. Her thoughts were interrupted by Lady Une's hushed voice.
"Noin, you better take a look at this."
Noin turned and looked down at the computer again. Her hand went over her mouth in shock as she let out a gasp at what had appeared on the computer screen in front of her.
Zechs paced up and down in front of the couch in the apartment located on the secret base on colony L4b they had been hiding in for the past few days.
"Man Zechs, will you please stop pacing! You're making me nervous, geeezzz!" Duo said, from his position on the couch.
"Well, maybe if you came up with a fucking plan, I wouldn't be pacing so much."
"I know understand why Heero hates you so. I mean I feel bad for the guy, 'cause the girl he happens to love is your sister!"
"What are you saying baka!?"
"Man, you still haven't figured it out, well, I don't plan to explain it to you then." Duo trailed off as he felt a fist collide with his chin.
"That's enough you two!" Quatre yelled pushing his way in between the two. "Relena, wouldn't want this!"
Duo backed away as he wiped the blood that was dipping from his chin. "Man, you didn't have to get so uptight about it."
Zechs just crossed his arms and turned toward the window. You could hear the click of the TV turning on. He heard the newscaster voice drown on, until his ears picked up something that make his head spin round.
"And in other news, Neo Genius OZ has announced that Relena Dorlain died in recent the destruction of the Victorian Base. According to the NGOZ her boding was recovered early today after the base exploded in flames following the Preventers retaliation to the NGOZ seizing of control over the Earth and the Space Colonies. The NGOZ has currently set their capital in Paris and plans to carry out harsh measures to ensure that any remaining aspects of the Earth Allied Nation be destroyed including these remaining Preventers. Christopher Dermain stated, 'I will not rest until all opposing forces to this Neo Genius OZ's new government are completely destroyed. Anyone who opposes us will be arrested for treason and will be swiftly executed. If you're not with us you're against us.'"
Trowa grabbed the remote from Duo's shacking hand and turned off the TV. Zechs looked at the around the room in shock and anger. "This can't be!"
"Ojousan can't be dead. I don't believe those basters!" Duo said standing up in rage.
The other gundam pilots each had their own look of anger or frustration, shock or denial on their faces.
"Guys, don't believe OZ's tricks, Relena's not dead, only hiding." Quatre's voice sounding weak and lost, more like he was trying to convince himself and not them.
Suddenly there was aloud bang, and everyone in turned to see what the sound was. The main door to the apartment had been busted off its hinges and now lay coldly on the floor. A tall shadow stood in that door way.
Relena sat once again starring out the window, looking back at the base the space shuttle had rocket launch from. The sky became dark and darker as the ship went further and further into the outreaching hands of space. Her thoughts drifted once again to the pilot of the shuttle she was on, Heero.
He hadn't said anything since he'd left returned to the shuttle.
~~FLASH BACK~~
Her head jerked up and she heard the shuttle door open and close. Heero was now sitting in the pilot sit once again.
"Buckle up, we're leaving."
"But Heero." She replied desperately.
"Relena, just do what I say."
The shuttle began to move very abruptly and after Relena almost fell out of her seat, she buckled up without another word.
~~End of FLASH BACK~~
.that was over an hour ago.
Heero could feel Relena's eyes on him, but he suppressed the urge to speak with her. ***It's best just to stay silent, then maybe she won't bug me about where we're going. It's better this way, the more unattached I stay to her, the better off she'll be.*
Relena, thinking ***I'm going to clear this mess up once and for all, Heero,* finally spoke, "Heero." she began.
"Huh?"
"Heero. I don't know how to begin but."
Heero finally turned to look at her, switching the shuttle onto autopilot.
"I."
Heero could feel his heart pounding in his ear, what was she so desperately trying to say to him?
"I demand to know where we are going." Relena said abruptly.
***Well, was that all?* Heero thought. He inwardly sighed to himself. She could be so stubborn at times.
"You'll see when we get there." Heero replied.
"Heero, I'm tired of this. Stop treating me like a child!" She said raising her voice even more abruptly.
Heero looked at her, again in shock, but quickly recover by stating, "I'm not treating you like a child Relena. I'm only doing my duty."
"You're duty?! So, what is your duty to treat me like some helpless child who can't take care of herself, who can't protect herself?" She screamed frustrated.
Heero was now scowling. "Relena, if I haven't rescued you, you'd be dead by now."
"That's not true! I had almost escaped by myself until you appeared! I don't need you to protect me! I don't want you're protection." She spat out.
"Then, what do you want Relena?"
She paused, she knew what she wanted from him, but he would never give it to her. If she said what she wanted, he'd probably just laugh in her face. She decided instead to take a different approach to the argument, but before she knew what she was saying, her voice and runaway with her, "You only see me as a symbol anyway, so what does it matter? You only protect me because you have to, for the peace. I'm just your mission, what do you care anyways, what I really want, huh? Well, I don't need your protection, I don't need you!"
Her face turned to surprise and then remorse at the realization at what she had just said. "Heero." she breathed and looked at him. His face was cold, so very cold. For a second, she thought she saw pain in his eyes, but it disappeared so quickly, she wondered if she really saw it. He gave her an icy glare that was colder than anything she'd ever seen before. He didn't say anything, but turned and looked away from her and out the window. She whisper to herself, "I'm sorry Heero. I didn't mean it." Knowing he hadn't heard her, she stopped herself, ***Were those words really meaningless? It's true though, he'll never see me as anything more than a mission, he'll never feel the way I feel for him.* She turned back to the window, her hurt once again broken.
Heero stared out the window reeling from shock. It hurt. It hurt so much and he didn't know why. Why did it hurt so? The words stung. ***Is that what she really thinks? That all she is to me is a mission, a symbol of peace? If only she knew. Knew what?* another voice said within him, ***How much I really. What, care? I didn't think you cared for anything, Heero. That's not true, I do care. Then what's holding you back? It would never work. She'd only get hurt. I'd only hurt her. It's better this way. Is it really better?* The voice went on. Heero suppressed it. ***Yes, it's best this way. All the people I ever care about only end up getting killed. Everyone I care about always ends up dead, I.I. Kill. Them. It's better this way, it's better for her to hate me. I don't believe you. Shut up.* Heero thought to the voice. It strangely sounded a little too much like Duo's. ***Why do I have to have Duo's voice in my head? Why? Because, buddy, you need someone to watch over you. Baka. Call me anything you like, but you are stuck with me. You can't be in my head. So, who are you really? I'm your conscience. And of course you just have to have Duo Maxwell's voice. Yup. I've had enough of this. Just shut up. Whatever buddy, but you can't get rid of me. You just watch.* Heero decided it was better to stop thinking for a while and get some rest. He took one more glance at Relena and got up to head back to the shuttle to sleep on one of the bunks.
"Where are you going Heero?" Relena asked.
"To get some sleep. You should too." He replied in an even more cold voice to her if that was possible.
"I don't need you to tell me what to do Heero Yuy." She replied again.
Heero just glared at her and went back to get some sleep.
7 End of Chapter 9
Author's Note: So what did you think? Will Heero ever admit his feelings to Relena? What's so shocking on Lady Une's lab top? And who is the mysterious visitor at Zechs' door? Find out in the next chapter! I'm sooo evil aren't I? ~_^
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By Tonna Yuy
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2 Chapter 9 - Loss of Reality
3 Relena's eyes flew open with a jolt as she found she had been shaken awake with the rattling of the shuttle. She looked up to find herself staring into the piercing cold gaze of Heero Yuy. "Heero.."
4 "Your awake." He stated callously.
5 Relena sat up and peered out the window, trying to determined how far away they were from the base. She pause, "Where will we go after we're in space, Heero?" still starring out the window.
6 He shrugged. "It's none of your concern."
Relena turned toward him with furry in her voice, "None of my concern?" She had had enough, ***Why is he still treating me like I'm a child? Does he really believe that I can't take care of things?*
Heero looked up at her with surprised, but quickly hid it behind his mask. "Relena." He stated rather forcefully, "I don't have time to play games with you, we're almost at the base."
Relena turned away frustrated. ***There's no point in fighting him over it. Once he's made a decision, you can't change his mind no matter what. He hasn't changed. I thought.* Her thoughts were abruptly interrupted by their sudden landing. Once the shuttle was completely stopped, Heero hopped out of the door and turned back to Relena.
"Stay here, I'll be back. I have to make sure that the launch ramp is set." He was about to leave, when Relena stopped him with her words, "Heero. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have lost my temper a minute ago, but I'm tired of this." She trailed off. Heero just turned away and left. Relena sighed and slouched back into her seat.
Hilde sat quietly on the shuttle, peering out at the endless oceans. It hadn't seemed too long ago when Duo and her had been laughing at one of the pranks they at pulled at the sweeper base. She sighed, remembering the look on their advisers face and his speech about how if they really wanted to sell stuff, they shouldn't fool around. A smile crept onto her lips as she pictured Duo firing the guy that moment, telling he, "If you don't have any room for fun in your life, buddy, then they're aren't no room for you at this salvage base." Where was Duo, and the others? They hadn't heard from them since the battle. It's like they disappeared. She turned around, looking at the plane's occupants. Sally was navigating the plane to their rendezvous point somewhere in the Pacific. Lady Une was on her computer trying to get a hold of anyone who might know what happened to the Gundam Pilots or know anything about Relena. Noin was peering over her shoulder, trying to help locate them. The other members of the base who had escaped where meeting them with Mark at the rendezvous point. Hilde got up and wondered her way over to Lady Une and Noin.
"Any luck?"
"Nothing yet. except, that the Christopher Dermain's new organization, the so-called 'Neo Genius OZ' or 'NGOZ' has announced Relena's Death, stating she died when the base was destroyed." Lady Une sneered.
"What!? But.but.she can't be died."
"They're claiming to have her body." Noin stated.
"I don't believe it! She can't be died! They must be lying!"
"I hope your right, Hilde for all our sakes." Lady Une looked away. "NGOZ has moved their headquarters to the old Preventer base in Paris. Most all the Earth Allied Nation bases, along with most Preventer bases have been taken over. The people have been left powerless. We only have about 100 mobile suits and less then 70 preventers who weren't captured, most coming from the recently destroyed Victoria Base and the base in India that you and Sally were at. They're all also meet us at the rendezvous point."
"How long before we get there?"
"We only have about an hour longer." Replied Noin.
Hilde went back to her seat. She was stilled worried and none of the words the other women tried to offer her comforted her. She missed Duo, she missed his smile, his laugh, his jokes and his pranks, she even missed the way Duo stuffed all the food in his face when he ate. She sighed again, and looked around for a second time. ***I shouldn't be so down; I know Duo wouldn't want me to be this way. I must seem so childish to Noin. at least I still have hope that Duo is alive. Noin knows Zechs is dead. I can't give up hope, I just have to believe that Duo is ok.no. I know he's ok.*
Noin was wrapped up in her own thoughts as well, ***God, why is this happening, first I loose the only man I've loved and now, Relena. She was like a sister to me. why do these things happen? Hilde's right, Relena just can't be dead, she can't!* Noin's mind screamed. Her thoughts were interrupted by Lady Une's hushed voice.
"Noin, you better take a look at this."
Noin turned and looked down at the computer again. Her hand went over her mouth in shock as she let out a gasp at what had appeared on the computer screen in front of her.
Zechs paced up and down in front of the couch in the apartment located on the secret base on colony L4b they had been hiding in for the past few days.
"Man Zechs, will you please stop pacing! You're making me nervous, geeezzz!" Duo said, from his position on the couch.
"Well, maybe if you came up with a fucking plan, I wouldn't be pacing so much."
"I know understand why Heero hates you so. I mean I feel bad for the guy, 'cause the girl he happens to love is your sister!"
"What are you saying baka!?"
"Man, you still haven't figured it out, well, I don't plan to explain it to you then." Duo trailed off as he felt a fist collide with his chin.
"That's enough you two!" Quatre yelled pushing his way in between the two. "Relena, wouldn't want this!"
Duo backed away as he wiped the blood that was dipping from his chin. "Man, you didn't have to get so uptight about it."
Zechs just crossed his arms and turned toward the window. You could hear the click of the TV turning on. He heard the newscaster voice drown on, until his ears picked up something that make his head spin round.
"And in other news, Neo Genius OZ has announced that Relena Dorlain died in recent the destruction of the Victorian Base. According to the NGOZ her boding was recovered early today after the base exploded in flames following the Preventers retaliation to the NGOZ seizing of control over the Earth and the Space Colonies. The NGOZ has currently set their capital in Paris and plans to carry out harsh measures to ensure that any remaining aspects of the Earth Allied Nation be destroyed including these remaining Preventers. Christopher Dermain stated, 'I will not rest until all opposing forces to this Neo Genius OZ's new government are completely destroyed. Anyone who opposes us will be arrested for treason and will be swiftly executed. If you're not with us you're against us.'"
Trowa grabbed the remote from Duo's shacking hand and turned off the TV. Zechs looked at the around the room in shock and anger. "This can't be!"
"Ojousan can't be dead. I don't believe those basters!" Duo said standing up in rage.
The other gundam pilots each had their own look of anger or frustration, shock or denial on their faces.
"Guys, don't believe OZ's tricks, Relena's not dead, only hiding." Quatre's voice sounding weak and lost, more like he was trying to convince himself and not them.
Suddenly there was aloud bang, and everyone in turned to see what the sound was. The main door to the apartment had been busted off its hinges and now lay coldly on the floor. A tall shadow stood in that door way.
Relena sat once again starring out the window, looking back at the base the space shuttle had rocket launch from. The sky became dark and darker as the ship went further and further into the outreaching hands of space. Her thoughts drifted once again to the pilot of the shuttle she was on, Heero.
He hadn't said anything since he'd left returned to the shuttle.
~~FLASH BACK~~
Her head jerked up and she heard the shuttle door open and close. Heero was now sitting in the pilot sit once again.
"Buckle up, we're leaving."
"But Heero." She replied desperately.
"Relena, just do what I say."
The shuttle began to move very abruptly and after Relena almost fell out of her seat, she buckled up without another word.
~~End of FLASH BACK~~
.that was over an hour ago.
Heero could feel Relena's eyes on him, but he suppressed the urge to speak with her. ***It's best just to stay silent, then maybe she won't bug me about where we're going. It's better this way, the more unattached I stay to her, the better off she'll be.*
Relena, thinking ***I'm going to clear this mess up once and for all, Heero,* finally spoke, "Heero." she began.
"Huh?"
"Heero. I don't know how to begin but."
Heero finally turned to look at her, switching the shuttle onto autopilot.
"I."
Heero could feel his heart pounding in his ear, what was she so desperately trying to say to him?
"I demand to know where we are going." Relena said abruptly.
***Well, was that all?* Heero thought. He inwardly sighed to himself. She could be so stubborn at times.
"You'll see when we get there." Heero replied.
"Heero, I'm tired of this. Stop treating me like a child!" She said raising her voice even more abruptly.
Heero looked at her, again in shock, but quickly recover by stating, "I'm not treating you like a child Relena. I'm only doing my duty."
"You're duty?! So, what is your duty to treat me like some helpless child who can't take care of herself, who can't protect herself?" She screamed frustrated.
Heero was now scowling. "Relena, if I haven't rescued you, you'd be dead by now."
"That's not true! I had almost escaped by myself until you appeared! I don't need you to protect me! I don't want you're protection." She spat out.
"Then, what do you want Relena?"
She paused, she knew what she wanted from him, but he would never give it to her. If she said what she wanted, he'd probably just laugh in her face. She decided instead to take a different approach to the argument, but before she knew what she was saying, her voice and runaway with her, "You only see me as a symbol anyway, so what does it matter? You only protect me because you have to, for the peace. I'm just your mission, what do you care anyways, what I really want, huh? Well, I don't need your protection, I don't need you!"
Her face turned to surprise and then remorse at the realization at what she had just said. "Heero." she breathed and looked at him. His face was cold, so very cold. For a second, she thought she saw pain in his eyes, but it disappeared so quickly, she wondered if she really saw it. He gave her an icy glare that was colder than anything she'd ever seen before. He didn't say anything, but turned and looked away from her and out the window. She whisper to herself, "I'm sorry Heero. I didn't mean it." Knowing he hadn't heard her, she stopped herself, ***Were those words really meaningless? It's true though, he'll never see me as anything more than a mission, he'll never feel the way I feel for him.* She turned back to the window, her hurt once again broken.
Heero stared out the window reeling from shock. It hurt. It hurt so much and he didn't know why. Why did it hurt so? The words stung. ***Is that what she really thinks? That all she is to me is a mission, a symbol of peace? If only she knew. Knew what?* another voice said within him, ***How much I really. What, care? I didn't think you cared for anything, Heero. That's not true, I do care. Then what's holding you back? It would never work. She'd only get hurt. I'd only hurt her. It's better this way. Is it really better?* The voice went on. Heero suppressed it. ***Yes, it's best this way. All the people I ever care about only end up getting killed. Everyone I care about always ends up dead, I.I. Kill. Them. It's better this way, it's better for her to hate me. I don't believe you. Shut up.* Heero thought to the voice. It strangely sounded a little too much like Duo's. ***Why do I have to have Duo's voice in my head? Why? Because, buddy, you need someone to watch over you. Baka. Call me anything you like, but you are stuck with me. You can't be in my head. So, who are you really? I'm your conscience. And of course you just have to have Duo Maxwell's voice. Yup. I've had enough of this. Just shut up. Whatever buddy, but you can't get rid of me. You just watch.* Heero decided it was better to stop thinking for a while and get some rest. He took one more glance at Relena and got up to head back to the shuttle to sleep on one of the bunks.
"Where are you going Heero?" Relena asked.
"To get some sleep. You should too." He replied in an even more cold voice to her if that was possible.
"I don't need you to tell me what to do Heero Yuy." She replied again.
Heero just glared at her and went back to get some sleep.
7 End of Chapter 9
Author's Note: So what did you think? Will Heero ever admit his feelings to Relena? What's so shocking on Lady Une's lab top? And who is the mysterious visitor at Zechs' door? Find out in the next chapter! I'm sooo evil aren't I? ~_^
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