The Only Gift
Written by: FuuMegami
Email: FuuNeko@yahoo.com
Disclaimer: I don't own Rayearth, all characters belong to CLAMP.
Chapter Three
"You aren't serious," Fuu said softly.
"Right?"
"Yes, I am. I gave everything up to be with you. I gave my
kingdom to Clef, who will appoint a new prince. I did it all for
you." Ferio replied.
Fuu reached out to take his hand, but he pulled back.
"Ferio, I'm sorry but-" Fuu began as her eyes began to
fill with tears.
"Shush. Don't speak, maybe I won't remember the words I have
not heard." Ferio said as he pressed a finger to Fuu's soft
lips.
Fuu took Ferio's finger from her lips. "Ferio, I gave up on
you four years ago. I couldn't live in a dream. In a hope that
I'd see you someday."
"I never gave up on you. The fire inside me never
died." Ferio replied as he put his hand over his heart.
"But I'm in love with Sam now." Fuu replied softly.
"I would break his heart if I left him for you."
"But you will break my heart a thousand times over every
time you look at me. Every time I think of what I gave up for
you." Ferio replied harshly.
"It's not my fault you lived in a silly fantasy that we
would meet again. It's not my fault, all you had to do was forget
about me." Fuu said angrily.
"How could I? How could I ever forget you?" Ferio
replied as he put a hand on the side of her face. "There
wasn't a single thing about you that I ever forgot. Fuu I felt
like I died inside when you left." Tears filled his eyes.
"But it was like dieing a million times over when I saw in
your eyes that you were in love, and that it wasn't with
me."
"I never meant to hurt you," Fuu said as she placed her
hand over his.
"But you don't love me." Ferio said as he face
hardened.
"I can't hurt Sam too." Fuu replied.
"I understand." Ferio replied numbly.
"Can we talk about you?" Fuu asked.
Ferio nodded slowly.
"How about I make some hot chocolate and we can sit by the
fire?" Fuu suggested.
Ferio nodded, "sounds good."
Fuu smiled faintly, she turned to leave, and caught herself
looking back at him. She finally got up enough sense to leave the
room and go into the kitchen.
Ferio flopped back on to the couch as soon as she was gone. He
let out a heavy and troubled sigh.
"I feel so stupid," Ferio mumbled as he pushed his hair
out of his eyes, only to have it fall back once more, like a
green screen.
He had done the one thing he had never wanted to do; cause Fuu
any pain. He silently scolded himself for not thinking about
Fuu's feelings. He then began to wish he had never come to earth.
Fuu stood at the kitchen counter filling a pot with milk. She
couldn't believe how thoughtless she was. How heartless and harsh
she had seemed. She scolded herself for not thinking about
Ferio's feelings. She could see his heart breaking as she told
him that she couldn't live a dream.
"To see his eyes filled with a mixture of tears and hurt...
I'll never be able to forgive myself."
She shook her head in disgust of herself. Then she realized that
the milk was pouring over the rim of the pot, onto the counter
and then to the floor. Fuu bit down on her lip and put down the
plastic milk jug. She put the pot on the stove and then began
cleaning up the spilled milk.
And all the while she thought about Ferio. And she began to wish
she had told Ferio how hard it was to decide to move on. She also
wished she had told him that for the first two years she had
hopped he would find a way to get to her.
And she was heart broken over leaving Cephiro. She cried a
thousand times, only to cry until there were no more tears, and
so she had to cry inside.
Fuu then looked up and took the pot off the stove. She poured the
milk into two mint green mugs, and then she added the chocolate.
She took both mugs into the living room where Ferio sat on the
couch, deep in thought. She felt like she had no right to disturb
him, that she had thrown that right away. It wasn't until he
turned around that she even dared to say anything.
"The hot chocolate is ready," Fuu mumbled.
Ferio smiled and patted the seat, "sit down then." Then
he added, "I won't bite."
Fuu laughed and handed Ferio a mug. She sat down and took a sip
of her hot chocolate.
"While I was in Cephiro, after you had left, I really began
to wish I had a picture of you." Ferio said softly.
"But I also set a side a time to because I always had that
mental picture, and with the one in my heart, it was almost like
you were there with me."
"I wish I'd had a picture of you too. And you know, none of
it was easy for me either." Fuu said softly.
"I'm sure it wasn't easy. And yet you managed." Ferio
said without looking at her.
Fuu sighed. "What can I do to make you forgive me?"
"Just don't push me away any more than you already have. I
won't stay for long. Two days tops while I look for a place. But
tonight, can we just talk?" Ferio replied.
Fuu nodded. "Sure. Sounds good."
Ferio put his empty mug on the coffee table. Then he put his arms
behind his head.
"I guess I'll go first." Ferio said.
Fuu put her mug down and focused her attention on Ferio.
"Caldina and Lafarga have a daughter named Skyla. Ascot's
got his own monster training program, he enjoy's teaching kids
how to handle them. Presea and Clef spend *a lot* of time
together, alone, in his study. We all know what's going on, but
no one will say anything."
Fuu laughed and Ferio smiled. her *loved* Fuu's laughter.
"Aska and Sanyun are engaged, they'll be married in the
spring."
"Oh?! I wish I could be there!" Fuu said, full of
excitement.
"So, what's been up with you?" Ferio asked, wishing he
could know every detail of her life, but he would have to settle.
"I graduated jr. high, went on to a fancy high school where
I'm the top student. I'll graduate this year from high school.
Two years ago I met Sam... He's a nice guy. Very
protective."
Ferio made a snorting noise. Fuu stuck her tongue out at him.
"Umi Hikaru and I have been best friends all this time.
Cephiro created a very strong bond between us."
"Cephiro is a wonderful place. And the three of you made it
even more wonderful. You and all of Cephiro share a bond."
Ferio said.
Fuu nodded. "Very true."
"Is there a bong between you and I?" Ferio asked
hopefully.
Fuu blinked, "Yes. There is, you were my first love."
Ferio wanted to kiss her, it seemed like a good time. The perfect
time, but he stopped himself.
"I used to imaging going back. Maybe you'd ask me to stay,
and marry you. We'd have kids." Tears filled her eyes.
"Impossible stuff."
Ferio shook his head. "It wasn't impossible. You just didn't
believe... I was dreaming about the same things you know."
Fuu suddenly burst into tears and collapsed into his chest.
"I waited... But I gave up too soon. I'm sorry!" Fuu
sobbed into his chest.
He stroked her head. "It's ok. Just forget about it."
She sobbed while Ferio stroked her head. When her sobs finally
subsided she, she remained in his arms. And soon after her
breathing deepened and she fell asleep in his arms. He let out a
sigh and closed his eyes. An hour later Kuu found the two
snuggled up together asleep. She carefully put a green and white
quilt on the two then she turned out the light.
"Whoever you are Ferio, you obviously love her. Sleep well
you two." Kuu whispered.
At one point in the night Fuu woke up, or at least half way, she
looked up at Ferio and smiled. He looked so comfy and happy.
"What a wonderful dream," Fuu mumbled before snuggling
into his chest.
She then went back to sleep. She felt very warm and amazingly
calm. Ferio put his arm around Fuu, snuggling her like a kitten.
When Fuu finally woke up, it was a cloudy morning. Ferio was
sleeping happily. He looked so at peace, unlike when he had first
stepped into her house. She could kick herself for not only
falling asleep in his arms, but for enjoying still being in his
arms.
His eyes opened slowly, like a sun rise. Revealing the breath
taking glowing gold of his eyes.
"Mornin'," Ferio said sleepily.
Fuu reached up and stoked his face. He was so beautiful and so
warm. But she already had a boyfriend...
"I need to get up," Fuu said softly.
She took her hand back and continued to look into his eyes.
"Then why aren't you leaving?" Ferio asked with a leer.
Fuu giggled and got up. She left Ferio to sigh alone on the
couch.
"I should've kissed her," Ferio said to himself.
