Authors' Note: Well this is full our 1Xr.so if you don't like it then don't bother reading.

Disclamer: I UNFORTUATTLY don't own Gundam wing or its Characters (dang I wish I could just own Heero.)anyways um..so don't sue, It wouldn't even be worth it I'm broke as a joke.

OH & UM * * *-This means change scene & Italics is character's thought.



"I've Been Missing You"

By: Heero Luver



It was late on Christmas Eve and Relena sat by the warm fire in the living room sipping her tea. She just sat there staring at the Christmas tree. The twinkling lights reminded her of a certain sparkle in a set of pursian blue eyes that she has not seen in so long. It had been about a year since she saw him, he just left without telling anyone where he was going. She wasn't sure why he left there relationship was great but when the holidays began he seemed to become very quiet and sad. These thoughts of him suffocated him and created wet crystals that began to stream down her slender face. She tried to push the memories to the back of her mind and forget them all, but she couldn't she knew she couldn't. Instead she got up off her feat threw on a coat and slipped out the door.

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He sat there alone in his apartment looking around at how bare it was. No Christmas tree, no nothing.most importantly no Relena. He then changed his glare to the box with the diamond ring that was to be for Relena last Christmas, he had it all planed out but got scared and left her. What's wrong with me? He sat there wondering why he left her. Everything was so great but they were becoming too close, he couldn't be with her he thought he wasn't good enough, he thought she deserved someone better. It was one year ago since he left her, but he saw her everyday without her knowing. He would stay in the shadows hidden. He needed to protect her, he had promised her that & wouldn't break a promise especially to her, the one he loved. But did he love her? He thought to himself. No you don't know how to love, you don't deserve it a little voice said in his head. He had to get out of this place this lonely ugly miserable place. So he arose from his seat swung his jacket on the door. When he got out

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Walking towards the park where they used to sit and talk for hours, she sat down on a wooden bench. She looked next to her at the place where he used to sit and she used to gaze into those eyes forever. She stared for awhile hoping if she looked long enough maybe he would appear. She gave out a sigh, "where are you Heero, why did you leave me?" She spoke into the chilled night hoping maybe the wind would carry her words away into the night to him. She just sat there and gazed at the beautiful park covered in white. Christmas was always her favorite time of the year, but now it only brought her sadness and thought of him. Would he ever come back, no she thought to herself. He didn't love you a little voice whispered in her head. But underneath his cold shell she knew that if she were to hurt him in any way he would crumble into pieces like porcelin. She knew he had a good heart, why wouldn't she let him inside it. Or was she always there and hadn't realized it. Again she felt a pit in her stomach forming and a lump in her throat. But she resisted the urge to cry but left a single tear fall down her face that froze into place with the cold.

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Waling off into the night and in the park where they used to go.he stopped when he laid eyes on the bench where they always sat. He saw an angel with honeyed blonde hair. His feet froze at the sight..





*Well sorry about the place I left off but there is more. So did you like it, do you want me to keep writing or am I wasting my time? Please review or e-mail or anything...thanx!!*