Chapter 4, What Shawn Was Thinking, shows what was running through Shawn's mind before he finally shows up at Cory and Topanga's wedding.
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What Shawn Was Thinking
The wedding starts in an hour. One tiny hour, sixty lousy minutes, and I will lose my best friend forever.
I should be there with Cory. This is the most important day of his life, and if anyone
should be there, I should. But I can't! I'm not his best man anymore. I resigned.
It's only right that I be replaced by Topanga. Topanga will be his wife--his new best friend, the person he's going to share the rest of his life with. But it still hurts. Cory and I have been best friends forever. Nothing will ever be the same after today, ever again. No more Shawn and Cory, Cory and Shawn. It'll be Cory and Topanga instead. The Matthews.
I can't believe Eric is Cory's best man. I wonder how long it'll be before the wedding collapses--after all, Eric's in charge. ERIC! No, wait--that's not really fair. Maybe I'm just bitter. I don't know.
I know Angela thinks I should be there for Cory. So does Jack. But they don't really understand how close Cory and I have always been, and how painful this is for me. Cory has been absolutely impossible for the last few days. He refuses to talk about what's happening. It's all been wedding this, wedding that--and nothing else matters. It's like he thinks that if we don't talk about it, it's not real.
But he's been there for me so many times, more times that I could ever count. Has Angela ever had a friend like that? Has Jack? Probably not. Angela and Topanga are close, but it's not the same. Cory's like my brother--more like my brother than Jack could ever be.
Well, that's it. I can't miss Cory's wedding, no matter how I feel about it. If I hurry, I can still make it in time. Hang on, I'm on my way! Real best man coming!
I wouldn't miss this for the world.
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