"Yes, perhaps that might help, too."
~*~
The Heart of Cephiro
Part Two; Secret Tears
Author; JuBunny
~*~
I never meant to feel that way. Never meant to fall in love. Never meant to pray for my own desires, rather than Cephiro's. Alas, I could not help it. At every glance of him, every word spoken from his mouth, I would tremble, my heart pounding against my ribcage.
I began to pray recklessly. I would be happy only when Zagato was happy, and Cephiro was a mirror of that. If Zagato was sad, I too was sad, and Cephiro would lose some of its beauty. At the time, though, I had no idea what was happening. All that revolved around my heart and mind was one solitary thought that pushed Cephiro out of reach. Zagato. But, nobody could blame him. It was all my fault. Had I more will and endurance, this never would have happened.
But, it did.
I couldn't erase him from my mind, no matter how hard I tired. And it did not help that I was faced with his handsome smile and depth-defying eyes every day.
Still, I prayed for Cephiro, but with less an open heart and mind. I loved and cherished my country, and would die for it, but thoughts of Zagato peirced my heart and tore it to pieces, for in the depths of my heart, even I knew that it was sinful to love another. Even I knew that we could never live the life that brought open love. In the world I lived in, as the role I took as Pillar, I would forever have to hide my emotions in the darkest shadows of my thoughts. Even then, I might bring Cephiro to its destruction with my ignorance.
Still, I prayed Zagato felt the same way which I did for him.
~*~
It was soon after that I discovered what would change the history of Cephiro for all eternity.
After my prayers were done, I would more likely than not catch myself wandering the halls of the palace, lost in my own thoughts. It was such a day as this when my mind was circulating on Zagato. A soft, almost silent voice caught my ear, as my body was forced towards the mysterious articulation. I found myself in the sleeping quarters of the palace, where all resided and slept that worked in the palace. I followed the voice 'till it grew stronger, finally finding the door that hid the person whose voice I had heard. I looked at the nameplate, and my heart starting beating faster and faster.
This room was Zagato's. I slid my hand across the cold, golden carving of his name, letting the memory of his name chisel into my mind.
"Why does it have to be this way? How could I?"
My ears pricked, my hand slowly sliding from the cool copper engraving, resting on the doorframe. I became lost in his words, unaware of the world revolving around me.
"What came over me as to trap myself in such a situation? Good lord, the first time I find the woman who has stolen my heart, it is impossible to ever love her in the true light of day... Why must life be so unfair? Why must her heart be trapped for all eternity to this damned land? I'd give my soul and heart to free her..."
I listened on, confused by his words. He loved somebody? Who was this girl? And suddenly, my heart tore to peices. My hand clenched into an angry fist, as I tried to fight back the tears that were threatening to spill over my cheeks. And this time, Zagato wouldn't be able to wipe them away...
"How on Earth did I fall in love with her? I cannot put on this false mask of being nothing but mercantiley attatched to her. I feel something more... In the depths of my heart. Oh, how did I fall in love with you, Emeraude?"
This time, I let the tears flow freely down my cheeks, my hand slipping down the wall slowly. Silently, I cried to myself. He loves me... He loves me... Oh, of all misfortunes in this world, why did he have to love me back? Why must he do this to me? Surely, the downfall of Cephiro would come of this. We would not be able to hold our feelings much longer, though it is iniquitous for me to even be in love... If only he didn't love me back, perhaps I could overcome this feeling for him... But now that I knew, I would suffer, and so would he. For we should never live a life of true happiness. He was true... I was forever attached to this planet; my heart never truly free.
Oh, God...
Absentmindedly, I pounded my fist on the wall, unaware that Zagato was there. I collected myself, pulling my fist back with my other hand, reprimanding myself. I heard something stir inside his room, and I held my breath. I quivered with fear, imagining what would happen if he were to discover me. Silently, the tears rolled down my face, and I trembled.
"Is somebody there...?" Zagato's voice reached my ears. Suddenly, I heard the door creak open on its hinges.
No.. No... Please, don't...
My damp, horror-struck face met his gaze, as he grew pale. I could see his eyes widen in shock, as he supported his weight on the open door.
I shook even harder, sobbing gently to myself, unashamed at crying in his presence. I looked up at him with sorrowful eyes, my lip tremulous.
We just stared at each other, both pallid and in traumatic situations.
~*~
End Part Two; Secret Tears
~*~
*Sobs* Wasn't that touching? *gags* Well, any comments would be greatly appreciated... *Wink, wink* Read and review, baby! Oh, and anybody interested in giving me some ideas for the upcoming chapters? Not Three, I have that planned out, but any help in making this a better fic would be cool! I want to make this an impacting fanfic, since it's the only Emeraude fanfic I've seen or written...
My prayers go out to a family who recently lost two loved ones in a car accident. Please, drive safely. A pregnant mother died on Christmas Eve... A family I knew. Please, remember, if you choose to drink, do so with caution.
Luv ya'll!
Page 3 Printed 05/25/93 08:00 PM
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The Heart of Cephiro
Part Two; Secret Tears
Author; JuBunny
~*~
I never meant to feel that way. Never meant to fall in love. Never meant to pray for my own desires, rather than Cephiro's. Alas, I could not help it. At every glance of him, every word spoken from his mouth, I would tremble, my heart pounding against my ribcage.
I began to pray recklessly. I would be happy only when Zagato was happy, and Cephiro was a mirror of that. If Zagato was sad, I too was sad, and Cephiro would lose some of its beauty. At the time, though, I had no idea what was happening. All that revolved around my heart and mind was one solitary thought that pushed Cephiro out of reach. Zagato. But, nobody could blame him. It was all my fault. Had I more will and endurance, this never would have happened.
But, it did.
I couldn't erase him from my mind, no matter how hard I tired. And it did not help that I was faced with his handsome smile and depth-defying eyes every day.
Still, I prayed for Cephiro, but with less an open heart and mind. I loved and cherished my country, and would die for it, but thoughts of Zagato peirced my heart and tore it to pieces, for in the depths of my heart, even I knew that it was sinful to love another. Even I knew that we could never live the life that brought open love. In the world I lived in, as the role I took as Pillar, I would forever have to hide my emotions in the darkest shadows of my thoughts. Even then, I might bring Cephiro to its destruction with my ignorance.
Still, I prayed Zagato felt the same way which I did for him.
~*~
It was soon after that I discovered what would change the history of Cephiro for all eternity.
After my prayers were done, I would more likely than not catch myself wandering the halls of the palace, lost in my own thoughts. It was such a day as this when my mind was circulating on Zagato. A soft, almost silent voice caught my ear, as my body was forced towards the mysterious articulation. I found myself in the sleeping quarters of the palace, where all resided and slept that worked in the palace. I followed the voice 'till it grew stronger, finally finding the door that hid the person whose voice I had heard. I looked at the nameplate, and my heart starting beating faster and faster.
This room was Zagato's. I slid my hand across the cold, golden carving of his name, letting the memory of his name chisel into my mind.
"Why does it have to be this way? How could I?"
My ears pricked, my hand slowly sliding from the cool copper engraving, resting on the doorframe. I became lost in his words, unaware of the world revolving around me.
"What came over me as to trap myself in such a situation? Good lord, the first time I find the woman who has stolen my heart, it is impossible to ever love her in the true light of day... Why must life be so unfair? Why must her heart be trapped for all eternity to this damned land? I'd give my soul and heart to free her..."
I listened on, confused by his words. He loved somebody? Who was this girl? And suddenly, my heart tore to peices. My hand clenched into an angry fist, as I tried to fight back the tears that were threatening to spill over my cheeks. And this time, Zagato wouldn't be able to wipe them away...
"How on Earth did I fall in love with her? I cannot put on this false mask of being nothing but mercantiley attatched to her. I feel something more... In the depths of my heart. Oh, how did I fall in love with you, Emeraude?"
This time, I let the tears flow freely down my cheeks, my hand slipping down the wall slowly. Silently, I cried to myself. He loves me... He loves me... Oh, of all misfortunes in this world, why did he have to love me back? Why must he do this to me? Surely, the downfall of Cephiro would come of this. We would not be able to hold our feelings much longer, though it is iniquitous for me to even be in love... If only he didn't love me back, perhaps I could overcome this feeling for him... But now that I knew, I would suffer, and so would he. For we should never live a life of true happiness. He was true... I was forever attached to this planet; my heart never truly free.
Oh, God...
Absentmindedly, I pounded my fist on the wall, unaware that Zagato was there. I collected myself, pulling my fist back with my other hand, reprimanding myself. I heard something stir inside his room, and I held my breath. I quivered with fear, imagining what would happen if he were to discover me. Silently, the tears rolled down my face, and I trembled.
"Is somebody there...?" Zagato's voice reached my ears. Suddenly, I heard the door creak open on its hinges.
No.. No... Please, don't...
My damp, horror-struck face met his gaze, as he grew pale. I could see his eyes widen in shock, as he supported his weight on the open door.
I shook even harder, sobbing gently to myself, unashamed at crying in his presence. I looked up at him with sorrowful eyes, my lip tremulous.
We just stared at each other, both pallid and in traumatic situations.
~*~
End Part Two; Secret Tears
~*~
*Sobs* Wasn't that touching? *gags* Well, any comments would be greatly appreciated... *Wink, wink* Read and review, baby! Oh, and anybody interested in giving me some ideas for the upcoming chapters? Not Three, I have that planned out, but any help in making this a better fic would be cool! I want to make this an impacting fanfic, since it's the only Emeraude fanfic I've seen or written...
My prayers go out to a family who recently lost two loved ones in a car accident. Please, drive safely. A pregnant mother died on Christmas Eve... A family I knew. Please, remember, if you choose to drink, do so with caution.
Luv ya'll!
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