Hidden Tears

by: emma jane (LUV)

"Chapter 9"

"Scarlet?" Trunks chocked in disbelief. He didn't know what to say, after all these years she had been under his nose the whole time. The emotion of anger began to blind him as he thought of how much a fool she had made of him. How dare she? Does she think that his love for her was a joke? He felt betrayed, his heart felt like it shattered into millions of pieces that would make it impossible to put back together. Never had he ever felt this emotion of betrayal, anger, sadness… He stared into the depths of her abyss eyes and tried to find any sign of guilt or regret.. None.. He wanted to die, right then and there, as if there was no point in living. The only thing that was holding him together when Pan left was the thought of her still being alive and coming back… Later, the only thing tying his soul from the living world was Scarlet. But now he knew… Scarlet was Pan and Pan didn't even bother telling him that she had returned. He felt tears behind his cold eyes and had to bite his tongue from releasing them. His chest hurt, he never new anything was possible to hurt that much. She had made a fool of him and played with his emotions for whatever sick reason she possessed.

And what else?! A kid to come with that! She had left him after he announced his love for her and she had gone off to sleep with someone else and bear his child. He felt sorry for Toya. The thought that her mother would do anything sick as to sleep with a man she probably didn't know that well and raise her without his help.

He remember what she said.

Flash back

"So.. Did he leave you?" Trunks asked

"I didn't give him a chance."

"You didn't tell him?"

"No.."

End of Flashback

He stared at her. Disgusting.. She disgusted him. He always thought Pan to be a responsible adult that watched everything she did… But this was just plain sick. She probably didn't even know where the father was. He scanned her from head to toe, fighting the urge not to spit in her face and slap her. He almost hated her for a minute… His best friend.. No… His true love had betrayed him and made him and everyone else assume she was dead.

But then… She was dead. Son Pan was dead to him.. All he saw before him was Scarlet Hera. A Sick whore that uses men to her advantages and breaks their heart. All he saw was tears falling down a stranger's cheek. He couldn't see Pan. She was not Pan.. Pan was Dead.. As she always has been.

"Pan?" Trunks asked hurtfully, there was a tint of anger in his voice as well.

Pan looked at him, tears fell from her cheek uncontrollably. She wanted to just jump in his arms and apologize for all that has happened. She wanted to tell him everything but couldn't find it in her heart to take the rejection he would give her. She had lied to him.. Yes.. But not for a mere selfish reason, but for a reason that she knew he would turn his back away from her if she was to tell. All the pain she had gone through for the past 5 years was too much to bear. But she struggled through them and survived. She never wanted to hurt Trunks, she never knew how he really felt.

"I don' understand.. I thought she loved me too.. But I guess I was wrong. I wanted to wake up that morning and be beside her, but instead I woke up to nothing. But it's weird because everyone says that she will never come back.. And yet, here I am, still waiting for her. Crazy huh?"

She had cried that night he had confessed his feelings. She had thought day and night and tried to convince herself that if she had stayed, then he would reject her. Then he had confessed the truth, that he wanted to wake up beside her but she had ran away.

Pan sighed. It didn't matter she would have been rejected anyway eventually, she knew it. Trunks might have loved her then, but he would have gotten sick of her soon. The only reason why he still "waited" for her was because he wanted something he couldn't have. He always wants something he can't have, and when he gets it, he doesn't want it anymore. Pan was not about to let him dump her after that one night stand and leave her with a hidden secret that she had kept from him for 5 years.

She knew he was disgusted at her. She could see it in his eyes. Ever since she had fallen in love with him many years ago, she could always see what he was thinking in his eyes, nothing could pass her. Pan knew why he was upset and she didn't blame him at all. She knew she would suffer consequences and now knew that this was the moment. Pan was about to drop on her knees and just let everything hit her as she shut her eyes tight and hugged her knees to her chest. But… what if she would leave? She could leave forever with her daughter and she wouldn't have to see the hatred of her family. Gohan and Videl didn't know who she was yet. She could go grab her daughter and run off never to return again. It wouldn't hurt anyone and it would be better off for everyone to think she was dead. Bulma and Trunks knew she was alive, she could convince them to keep to it to themselves and tell everyone that she was dead. Bulma could convince the world of anything, she had the money to do it, and if Pan really wanted her to.. she wouldn't refuse. She had decided… She would leave…

"Trunks…" Pan said softly.

Trunks winced, the sound of her voice, he loved her, there was no doubt about that. But he was upset. He didn't know what to think of her anymore. He didn't want to loose her ever again, but at the same time he wanted her to leave. His emotions were going insane.

"I… I… " Pan began. Tears welled up inside her eyes. They began to fall, at first slowly, then more freely and uncontrollable. Soon she was crying hysterically and her knees began to shiver. She had to hold on to the wall to prevent herself from falling on her knees.

Trunks watched her. He watched her slump and grab hold of the wall behind her. Not able to hold herself up, he wanted to hold her. To prevent her from falling and hold her in his arms, telling her that he forgave her and everything was alright. But he couldn't.. His pride had taken that best of him after he felt betrayed and now all he could do was watch her fall. Watch every bit of pride that she possessed perish into the winds that passed them by.

Then Pan looked at him. Her eyes glistening from tears that she had held back for so long. Tears that only belonged to him and no one else.. Tears she couldn't hold back any longer.

"I'm sorry.." She said softly and quickly as she turned her head to run. To run from all the pain like she had always done, to just be alone and let the pain she possessed consume her from within her own heart. Never could they be the same, never could she admit her feelings… Never..

Pan ran toward the hallway she raced past the people who looked at her strangely, not knowing whether they should chase her or let her be. She ran out the door and leapt into the midnight sky, flying as fast as she could to her parents' home.

Trunks watched her cry, he watched her run… He didn't know whether to chase after her or let her leave him again. What was the point to chase after her? She wouldn't fall back into his arms like he would hope, but she would just run away again, never to return. Trunks just stood there emotionless. He felt the eyes of the people around him scan him, not knowing and not believing how the most powerful man on earth could fall on his knees on the verge of tears.

He felt a hand place itself on his shoulder. Looking up he saw his mother staring at him with a smile on her face.

"Go." She said softly.

He knew what she meant. He wanted to do what she had implied.

"Why? What's the point?" Trunks asked confused.

Bulma smiled. She looked at her son with love and affection. Her tears glistening with a spark that was never there before, her lips curled at each end and her skin glowed with a light that had 'Hope' written all over her face.

"Go." She repeated.

She needn't say more as Trunks nodded his head and began toward the hallway. Not looking back or making any second thought. He knew what he wanted.. He wasn't going to let it leave him again… not again..

***~*~^^ Authors Note: He he he.. I know it's short.. I just love to torture you. I would have put the rest in this chapter but.... HAHAHAHAH I am sooooooooooooo evil!!!!! please don't kill me... _ Well... NEXT TIME ON DRAGON BALL Z.... What will happen when Trunks runs after Pan. Will he get to her on time????? O_O