Title - Troubles
Author - Ashley aka Ginger
Rating - PG 13 I guess
Disclaimer - I don't own Alex and the song is "Troubles" by Alicia Keys

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"Stupid key," Alex exclaimed as her key wouldn't work for the fourth time that week. On the fifth try it finally gave in and she opened the door and dropped her bag and keys where she was. She walked through her apartment stripping off her clothes as she went. She grabbed a wife beater off her bed and threw on grey sweatpants. She walked over to a smaller room near her kitchen and switched on the light. Alex grabbed a clicker off the table and music played throughout the room.

"This pain in my heart that just follows me by day
And at night stalks me like the shadows on my wall"


Why can't I have a normal job? Alex thought as she walked over to the corner of the room and put on boxing gloves. Every case left an imprint on her. Sometimes she wished she had left on that plane with Carlos.

"It feels like the world is closin' in on me
It feels like my dreams will never come to me"


Sometimes things just got too much. Too much for even her. Alex pounded the punching bag, harder than she had before. Why can't I just detach myself from the cases? I don't know what's my real life anymore, and what's my "pretend" life.

"I keep on slippin' deeper into myself
And I'm scared, so scared"


She was petrified. Why had she been able to lead a seperate life until now. Maybe it was Carlos. Maybe it was Donovan and Jake. Something in her undercover life was trying to get into her real life. It had to be Carlos. She had let him play her when she should have played him. She did the one thing that a undercover agent is never supposed to do. She fell in love with the one person she couldn't. The man she was trying to take down. But Carlos got his claws into her and wouldn't let go. And Alex didn't know if she wanted him to.

"If your troubled, you just gotta let it go
If your worried baby, you just gotta let it go
All your hustlin' ain't for nothing, you just gotta take it slow"


Maybe I need a vacation, she thought as she whiped a roll of sweat off her forehead. Her thoughts drifted back to Carlos and what he said to her after the prison riot. She could have gotten away from everything, but she chose not too.

"Why does it feel that my mind is constantly trying to pull me down
I can't seem to get away"


The only time Alex felt she was truly away from her job was in the comfort of her own bed. Not just in her apartment, but in her very bed. There she forgot her days and slipped into sleep. When she slept she dreamt of a much different life for herself.

"If your troubled, you just gotta let it go
If your worried baby, you just gotta let it go
All your hustlin' ain't for nothing, you just gotta take it slow"


Her dreams would be her only safe haven from the world. There were many ways to get away but she wasn't one of those people who ran away when things got tough. She'd stay and see things through. Alex knew eventually things would go her way. Just not today.

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Ok well that was my Alex one. Any ideas for songs for the other three I'll give you credit for them. Hope everyone has a great New Year and I'll try to do the others ASAP!

Ash