Title: Mislead Belief
Author: Gaudicia
E-mail: gaudy9@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Roswell characters.
Rating: Pg-13
Category: UC-Mi/L
Summary: You'll just have to read to find out.
Distribution: Please, ask first.
Author's note: Thanks to Nikki for correcting it.
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Chapter 18

As Liz twisted and turned the knife in his chest, he gasped out, "Liz?"

Liz took the knife out as he slid to the floor, taking his last breath. "Thought I wouldn't see past the mindwarp, Kivar? You forgot I could always tell what race a person was."

Liz dropped the knife to the floor, feeling Kivar's blood on her hands. She heard Kivar take one last forceful breath and the realization of what she had done hit her like a thousand bricks.

Liz looked at the blood on her knife and she couldn't believe it. She was a murderer. A cold hearted murderer. 'No, no, no. I was willing to kill Michael. I did kill him if just for a second. No, no, no,' she kept thinking until she fell to the ground, next to Kivar. A scream ripped through her lungs, echoing in the halls.
* * * *

The steps of the guards and everyone else that heard the screams sounded as if there was a stampeded.

The only color Liz saw around her was red, the only smell that reached her was the smell of blood and she had the metallic taste in her mouth.

"Liz? OMG! Liz, what happened?" Liz heard her mother ask, she turned her head to look at her and said in a lifeless tone, "I killed him," and she broke down in sobs. Mrs. Parker wrapped her arms around Liz, rocking her back and forward, not caring about the red handprints that adorned her clothes.

The doctor of the palace looked after Kivar. "He's dead."

Nancy met his eyes, nodding, aware of Liz's actions, but she still kept offering her

"He's dead?" A guard asked, wanting a confirmation and the weirdest thing happened when the guard screamed it back at the others—they cheered.

Nancy helped Liz stand up, wanting to shield her from their cheers.

As Nancy entered the room she shared with her husband, he quickly approached them. "What happened?"

Mrs. Parker shook her head, telling him to leave the questions for later. She set Liz on a chair and began to clean her up. "Liz, you have to snap out of this. We need to get you out of here," Nancy said, but Liz kept crying.

Nancy began to shake her. "Liz, you have to put yourself together. Are you ready to be a queen?"

At the word Queen Liz turned her attention to her mother. "Queen?"

Nancy mentally sighed, "Yes, queen. You carry the mark of the queen and you…you…"

"Killed," Liz supplied, softly, making her father's eyes grow wide.

"Yes," Mrs. Parker agreed, sadly. Slightly shaking her head, she continued, "More people than you think never stood by Kivar's side, they'll want you to lead them and to take your rightful place."

Liz moved back. "No, I can't."

Nancy took Liz's hands. "I know, that's why you'll return to Earth and your father and I will stay here, but Liz you'll have to come back and take your place."

Liz met her mother's eyes and she knew there was no way of getting out of that. Liz nodded. "How do I leave?"

As the question left her mouth two men came in, Nancy nodded towards them. "They were my bodyguards long ago. They are loyal and trust worthy. They will get you to Earth safe. You have to go now."

Liz looked at her parents, everything was happening so fast, she killed, she didn't have time to grieve, and now she had to escape.

Mr. Parker hugged her tightly. "Take care of the Crashdown. You'll find that everything is under your name. We'll miss you," Jeff said, squeezing her one last time.

Before Liz could say anything the two men dragged her away.

Just as Liz's shuttle ascended, Michael's landed. Michael looked around, surprised that the lights were "on" and people were running like crazy.

"Kivar is dead," he heard the people say and he broke into a run towards the castle.

It was crazier in the caste than outside, even the guards were out of order. He burst through Nancy's room and when he saw Nancy he let out a sigh of relief. "Where's Liz?" He asked when he didn't see her.

Nancy looked at Michael sadly. "She's safe. Where no one will tell her what to do."

"Tell me where she is," Michael demanded.

"What do you want with my daughter?" Mr. Parker asked, coming forward.

Michael blushed, but kept staring him in the eye. "I love her."

Not wanting a fight or discussion to break out, Nancy said, "Then stay and help us control this, and if you still want to know where Liz is we'll tell you."
* * * *

Michael jumped into the spaceship; he couldn't wait to see Liz.
* * * *

Liz smiled up at Maria and Alex, happy for their support but wanting to be alone. She thought she would have someone to share her secrets with but Kivar had really erased their memories, making her think that the last few months had been a sad fairy tale. Her communication with her mother and her endless nightmares told her the last few months had in deed been real. She tried to forget what she had done, but it always plagued her soul, it didn't matter what she would do to forget the memory was always there, she could still see and feel the blood in her hands.

"Babe, I'm going home. I'll be back for my shift," Maria informed Liz, Alex leaving with her.

Liz went upstairs and heard all the indications that a transmission was getting, she quickly opened it and saw her mother.

"Liz, Michael's spaceship…um…uh…Liz, Michael's spaceship crashed," her mother finally said.

"And Michael? Where is Michael?" Liz questioned, not being able to hide her pain or deny that she loved him, that even after her hands and heart had been tainted she couldn't stop loving him.

"He was in the spaceship, Liz. We have received the reports and his death is official. He really is dead…"

To be continued…