I think this is one of my best chapters ever so I hope you like it.
Disclaimer - I don't own it.
1 + 1 + 1 = 2 Right? - Merry Freakin' Christmas
1 December 24
Dear Diary,
'Tis the season to be jolly. Fa lah lah lah freakin' lah. (A/N: I know Sora's probably not the type of person who would say freakin' she seems too innocent but you know as well as I do that there are worse words I could use that also begin with f and it ain't fire truck.) Everyone can go deck the halls as much as they want but there isn't a chance that I'm going to be participating in anything requiring even the tiniest amount of Christmas cheer. I have enough trouble keeping this fake smile plastered on my face without being expected to sing Yule time carols with a bunch of psychos.
Luckily my mom realizes that or I wouldn't have the slightest hesitation to jumping out of my window and thus my doom. But hey, it is to be expected. I've never been able to work well under pressure, like my science exam. I almost burst out crying when the teacher accidentally told us we had half an hour left when really we had only been in there half an hour, but that's a totally different story.
Well at least I have one less thing to stress about. I made my decision. It took me awhile but I finally made it. I decided. So why do I feel so terrible?
I'm preparing to give one of them the best Christmas present ever, not that I'm shallow or anything. But I'm also about to give another the worst.
In a perfect world everything would just fall into place on its own accord, and we wouldn't have to worry about making the wrong decision because it would always be the right one. In a perfect world, I wouldn't have to make this decision.
Its just more proof of my imperfect world. Nothing ever goes the way you plan it. There's always something stopping you from reaching your goals. And nothing is ever what it seems. In this world there are always two sides, two roads, and two consequences. You can never be certain whether or not you made the right decision and you can never go back and change it when you reach the dead-end. But I guess that's the meaning of life, reaching the dead end and finding ways around your obstacles, no matter what they are, physical or emotional.
I know I'm not alone, wishing for my perfect world. But sometimes, the obstacles are what make the journey.
Signed
1.1 Sora
1.1.1 She sighed and replaced her diary back in its usual spot underneath her clothes. She looked over at her watch. 6:00 p.m. He'd be there to pick her up in an hour and she was dreading seeing him more and more with each passing second.
She went to change knowing that this meeting was inevitable. It would have to happen sometime, sooner or later, but she could already picture the look on his face as she told him her decision and she knew that seeing it in person would make her question everything all over again.
An hour later they were off to their favorite restaurant 'Mi Casa El Verdi'.
"Um . . . before we start I think there's something I need to tell you," she told him.
"Go ahead, I'm listening," he said attentively.
"Well I'm really sorry," she started tears welling in her eyes. "But I thought I should tell you this first before I tell anyone else so that you can hear from me rather than some twisted version from the local gossips. I really am sorry, I care for you so much and I can't stand to have to do this to you. I made my decision. I choose him. I'm so sorry."
And there it was, that look. The one she knew would appear the moment the words came out of her mouth. The one she had been dreading since she made her decision. The one that broke her heart in two. The one that made her feel like scum and made her regret everything she had just said.
The eyes that had always been full of joy, honesty and hope instantly filled with pain. His jaw, which had always seemed so strong and sure going slack and uncertain. His smile, a smile that had always put the sun to shame dulled. The light just disappeared from his face and all that was left was a lifeless shell of what he had once been. And all that remained of his heart were a few twisted scraps.
1.1.1.1 'Merry freakin' Christmas'
---------- to be continued ----------
Don't you just love cliffhangers? They seem to make the story just so much more enjoyable specially when they've just made the biggest decision of their life. Go ahead call me names, call me evil, you'll still have to wait for the next chapter.
Please review. I've got a character in mind for her to choose, but decisions aren't always final.
Disclaimer - I don't own it.
1 + 1 + 1 = 2 Right? - Merry Freakin' Christmas
1 December 24
Dear Diary,
'Tis the season to be jolly. Fa lah lah lah freakin' lah. (A/N: I know Sora's probably not the type of person who would say freakin' she seems too innocent but you know as well as I do that there are worse words I could use that also begin with f and it ain't fire truck.) Everyone can go deck the halls as much as they want but there isn't a chance that I'm going to be participating in anything requiring even the tiniest amount of Christmas cheer. I have enough trouble keeping this fake smile plastered on my face without being expected to sing Yule time carols with a bunch of psychos.
Luckily my mom realizes that or I wouldn't have the slightest hesitation to jumping out of my window and thus my doom. But hey, it is to be expected. I've never been able to work well under pressure, like my science exam. I almost burst out crying when the teacher accidentally told us we had half an hour left when really we had only been in there half an hour, but that's a totally different story.
Well at least I have one less thing to stress about. I made my decision. It took me awhile but I finally made it. I decided. So why do I feel so terrible?
I'm preparing to give one of them the best Christmas present ever, not that I'm shallow or anything. But I'm also about to give another the worst.
In a perfect world everything would just fall into place on its own accord, and we wouldn't have to worry about making the wrong decision because it would always be the right one. In a perfect world, I wouldn't have to make this decision.
Its just more proof of my imperfect world. Nothing ever goes the way you plan it. There's always something stopping you from reaching your goals. And nothing is ever what it seems. In this world there are always two sides, two roads, and two consequences. You can never be certain whether or not you made the right decision and you can never go back and change it when you reach the dead-end. But I guess that's the meaning of life, reaching the dead end and finding ways around your obstacles, no matter what they are, physical or emotional.
I know I'm not alone, wishing for my perfect world. But sometimes, the obstacles are what make the journey.
Signed
1.1 Sora
1.1.1 She sighed and replaced her diary back in its usual spot underneath her clothes. She looked over at her watch. 6:00 p.m. He'd be there to pick her up in an hour and she was dreading seeing him more and more with each passing second.
She went to change knowing that this meeting was inevitable. It would have to happen sometime, sooner or later, but she could already picture the look on his face as she told him her decision and she knew that seeing it in person would make her question everything all over again.
An hour later they were off to their favorite restaurant 'Mi Casa El Verdi'.
"Um . . . before we start I think there's something I need to tell you," she told him.
"Go ahead, I'm listening," he said attentively.
"Well I'm really sorry," she started tears welling in her eyes. "But I thought I should tell you this first before I tell anyone else so that you can hear from me rather than some twisted version from the local gossips. I really am sorry, I care for you so much and I can't stand to have to do this to you. I made my decision. I choose him. I'm so sorry."
And there it was, that look. The one she knew would appear the moment the words came out of her mouth. The one she had been dreading since she made her decision. The one that broke her heart in two. The one that made her feel like scum and made her regret everything she had just said.
The eyes that had always been full of joy, honesty and hope instantly filled with pain. His jaw, which had always seemed so strong and sure going slack and uncertain. His smile, a smile that had always put the sun to shame dulled. The light just disappeared from his face and all that was left was a lifeless shell of what he had once been. And all that remained of his heart were a few twisted scraps.
1.1.1.1 'Merry freakin' Christmas'
---------- to be continued ----------
Don't you just love cliffhangers? They seem to make the story just so much more enjoyable specially when they've just made the biggest decision of their life. Go ahead call me names, call me evil, you'll still have to wait for the next chapter.
Please review. I've got a character in mind for her to choose, but decisions aren't always final.
