Author's note- Finally part 6! I'm sorry it took so long. School just has me so busy. But no matter the space between the chapter uploads, this story will be finished. I hope you are enjoying the story. I would really appreciate any comments, just please no flames. In this chapter I use a mix of American and Japanese names, I hope that's okay. Oh I made up one flash back and the other two may not be exactly like they were in the show. The time it takes for certain things to take effect (you'll see) I am not sure, just go with me. Okay now if you're interested I've got a short explanation of why I have a suicidal Miyako in my story. If you don't care skip down to the story.
I can see Miyako being suicidal for several reasons. First, I think that her energy and happiness must get tiring for her sometimes. Also the whole destiny thing, it seems like she did want to prove herself and she did. As a young girl she tried to live up to the burden of being chosen, that must have been tough. And I could see it being tough to fulfill your destiny at, as I have in the story 13, (by the way I got this from the American series, Yolie says that she is in the 8th grade) wouldn't your life after this lose some meaning? Finally I feel that depression can happen to anyone. That's a little summary for you now on with the show.

DISCLAIMER: no I'm sorry, I don't own DIGIMON. Generally American high school students don't own their own Japanese television shows. I'm also using the lyrics to Hero by Enrique Iglesias, which also don't belong to me. (I'm not a big fan of Enrique (no offense if you are) the song is just perfect)

FIRST UNDERSTANDING
last time

RING RING...RING RIN

"Hello? Miyako?!"
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"Ken?" her voice quivered just a bit.

"Yeah it's me Miyako" he murmured back noting silently, her weak voice.

"Ken I'm scared I don't want to die. I'm sorry I said you were a monster. I'm sorry I was mad. I do want to be you're friend!"

Ken smiled softly into the phone. It was a sad smile, a remembering smile. The honesty of her statement struck him so much. Nothing suited Miyako like honesty.

FLASHBACK----
"Ken it's okay I know you were scared and it would have been silly for you to fall down with us."
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FLASHBACK
'I look forward to the day when you join us Ken'
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FLASHBACK
"You shouldn't stop trying because no little mushroom is helping you Ken. You can be smart on your own. You are only stupid if you let the evil be the only way you can get ahead. That's the thing about believing in yourself and being believed in. It's not that you can't let them down it's that you shouldn't. Don't let either of us down Ken. For what it's worth I think you're still smart."
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"I'm glad Miyako. I never wanted to let you down. I think..."

"Uh, Ken sorry but, do you have a car?"

"Yes, why, Miyako what's wrong." Worry crept into Ken's heart as he thought of his love's earlier words.

" Ken, I.." she choked on her words, "Just come here please, to my apartment, would that be okay, you think?"

"Yes Miyako, Why?"

"Hurry, please!" Ken was denied further questions by the click of Miyako's phone. He paused a moment staring at the phone, then he sprang to his feet and sprinted to the door. Pulling on his shoes hastily he called,
"Mom, Dad, I going out, I'll be back, I'm taking the car!" and with that he slammed the door behind him.

"Okay, honey, have fun, drive safe"

The drive from Tomachi to Odaiba took Ken 20 minutes, less than the usual time. As the elevator climbed to her floor he tapped his foot nervously. What could be wrong. Why would she say that, "I don't want to die," what happened?

"Miyako!" No time for politeness, Ken banged through the unlocked door and yelled her name again, "Miyako!"

"I'm in here Ken." Her voice was soft and frightened. It hurt him.


Would you cry

If you saw me cry

And would you save my soul, tonight?

"Miyako?" he said again, this time softly as he traced the sound of her voice down the hall and gently opened the door. She looked bad, sick. Her form shook as she lay curled on the top of her sheets. She was sweating and pale. Her limp hair was wet with sweat and partially obscured a tear streaked face. Ken felt tears come to his eyes as he gazed at her, crying, tears silently running down her face. His heart clenched and his soul cried to see her like this.

"What's wrong?" kneeling beside her he pushed her hair back and turned his head to gaze into her eyes. He looked at her pained face, running one hand down a teary cheek, the other passing over pale lips.

Would you tremble

If I touched your lips?

Would you laugh?

Oh please tell me this.

Now would you die

for the one that you loved?

Hold me in your arms tonight

She shivered again and gave a weak smile. It quickly died on her face, was she dying too, Ken wondered?

"Ken I don't want to die," she whimpered, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry" the tears came faster now poured out of her eyes to mingle with the sweat. She coughed and ken stared in horror as a bit of blood stained her sheets. "Ken I need to go to the hospital, please. I'm sorry Ken, so sorry, sorry,"

"MIYAKO, WHAT! Happened?" he softened his voice as she cringed at his sudden out burst, whimpered. His mind spun out of control before crashing to the horrible explanation.

He spoke in a quiet panic, "How many pills?"

"I don't know." She moaned apologetically, "Enough" Ken's mind went screaming into his own private hell. He stood quickly then bent and scooped her into his arms.

I can be your hero, baby,

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

"Okay, let's go to the hospital." He held her perhaps a little to closely, as though he could hold her life into her. She felt the extra strength in his grip but did not complain. She too was comforted by it.
As they proceeded to the door Ken wondered aloud, "Miyako, where's your family?"

"They're on a trip she sobbed. "Mom and Dad had business in the US, some kind of weird food convention. My sisters and brother went for the fun, but I wanted to stay. I said I'd stay at a friend's or have someone stay here." Ken fumbled with the door.

"Ken what are you doing?"

"Miyako we have to go to the hospital fast, I can't help you alone!" Ken hurried as fast as he could, his mind screamed impatience as the elevator lumbered down. Outside she coughed up more blood. Ken drove for the Odaiba hospital. Was there enough time? She found tissue in the car and held it to her mouth. Not because he asked. She held the tissue to her mouth until she was prompted to break the uneasy silence, she was, after all still Miyako, his Miyako.

Am I in too deep?

Have I lost my mind?

I don't care...

You're here tonight

"I don't know why Ken." She almost whispered. She told him everything. "I didn't even realize what I was doing until it was done. I'm sorry I said I wouldn't be your friend. I just was afraid that that was all, forever. I'm sorry I was mad. I don't know why. Maybe I'm just crazy, am I crazy Ken? You were kind of crazy too, no offense. You understand it don't you? Understand?" the last word sounded like a plea, like before.

Ken did understand and he understood the depth of his love as his heart clenched at her babbling, punctuated by a small cough.

"I do understand Miyako. You don't need to apologize anymore. It will be okay. We'll be fine, you'll be fine." He pulled into the hospital parking lot, the emergency lane, he could move his car later. As carefully as he could he lifted Miyako from the car and ran into the emergency waiting room. A nurse looked at the pair, concerned.

"Sir what are you doing, sir?" Ken's glanced down at Miyako shake. "Ken I hurt, I'm... tired. Ken stay with me, please I just..." her eyes closed. Ken felt his heart pang yet again.

"This girl is Inoue Miyako, she overdosed on medication. I don't know how much but she's really sick." Miyako stirred again, "I'm sorry, I don't want to die, not anymore." She fainted. The nurse called for a stretcher as she felt Miyako's damp forehead worriedly.

Oh I just want to hold you.

I just want to hold you.

Am I in too deep?

Have I lost my mind?

I don't care...

you're here tonight.

Soon the stretcher came, he didn't want to let her go. as long as she was here, as he was holding her, it felt more secure. He was sure now of how much he couldn't lose her. But he had to let her go.
Gently he laid her down and stroked her hair, moving it away from her damp face. He kissed her mouth ever so lightly, hoping there would be another time.

"Miyako I..." but she was carted away. The nurses barking quick orders, assessments. The counter nurse looked at the bedraggled boy and smiled a bit, knowingly, pityingly. Ken went and moved his car. He sighed as he walked to the pay phone, feeling the change he had exchanged much of his money for. They had to know he knew that.

RING RING...
"Hello?"
"Hello, Daisuke?"
"Hey Ken! What's up?" Ken felt guilty at his friend's happy ignorance.
"Davis, Miyako's in the hospital, no I'm not joking. The one here in Odaiba. Come down here. I gotta call the others."
CLICK
Daisuke slammed down the phone and looked at it in horror. Then he raced out the door, mind racing and sobbing. Confusion.
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RING RING... RI..

"Hello, Hida residence this is Iori speaking"

"Cody, it's Ken. Miyako is in the Odaiba hospital. Come over when you can. good-bye"
And then Cody was out the door to, hitching a ride with TK and Matt who had been visiting. They too had received a call. The three wondered why their friend had not called them to help her.
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"Tai come on, we've gotta go, I need you to drive."

"See Kari that's why you need to get your license. I'm on the phone with Sora"

"No Tai, Miyako is in the hospital! Ken just called on my line, said to tell Sora. We have to go!"

"Sora did you hear that?" Tai cried into the phone. "Good, yeah we'll pick you up!"
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"Hello Izumi, Koushiro speaking."

"Izzy, Miyako is in the Odaiba hospital, can you tell Mimi and Joe?"

"What?! Uh okay Ken. But what,..."
CLICK
"Happened? Damn, Miyako what did you do to yourself?"
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"Joe it's Izzy, Mimi there too? Good, listen, Miyako is in the hospital."

"Yeah the one in Odaiba. Yeah I'll see you there"

His work done, one dark haired boy slumped into a chair at the farthest corner of the waiting room.

I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

"Miyako," he muttered, "Miyako! I understand" Ken rested his face in his hands. He had done it, gotten what needed to be done, done. And he had not cried. But now, alone, unsure, away from a love who had been dying slowly in his arms he cried.

I can be your hero.

I can kiss away the pain.

And I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

And the dark haired boy cried as he had not cried since he discovered the truth of the evil of the Digimon Emperor that was him. He cried as his friends arrived and found comfort and solace in each other over their fallen friend. He gasped and choked as he wished to be young, to be ignorant. He cried until his tears would no longer fall and he was bent with weak wracking gasps, that soon subsided into a simple moan of a girl's name.
One by one his friends regretfully and apologetically came to stand in front of him. Kari took his hand, it felt cold. She spoke for them all.

"Ken we need to know what happened. I'm sorry, I understand that it is bad. But we need to know."

"Understand?" Ken whimpered, it sounded a little like a plea.

To be continued....