I Needed You
By Rose G
Disclaimer- not mine, never have been, never will be. And no money is being made, intentionally, at any rate (although donations are welcome). The song belongs to Boyzone, and it gave me the idea for this.


I cried a tear
You wiped it dry
I was confused
You cleared my mind
You gave me strength
To stand alone again
To face the world
Out on my own again

You put me high
Upon a pedestal
So high that I
Could almost see eternity
You needed me

And I can't believe it's you
I can't believe it's true
I needed you
And you were there
You held my hand
When it was cold
When I was lost
You took me home

You gave me hope
When I was at the end
And turned my lies
Back into truth again
You even called me Friend
You gave me strength
To face the world
Out on my own again
~~~ Boyzone, You Needed Me ~~~


I never got a chance to say farewell to you, Halbarad, only those few minutes days ago, kneeling on Pelannor Fields in the sunset. And Gandalf was with me then, so how could I speak of my love to you in those minutes, when war raged around us and I knew you was going whence I could not follow? And since then, my grief has been too much to allow me to think of you without regret, without tears springing to my eyes. Only now, as I wait for Elrond and Arwen to come, can I think of you.

For, my friend, there was so much that I never said to you. Did you ever remember the times when we were young, mere children in the house of Elrond? We strove to outride each other, never imagining that one day we would ride into war like that. I remember you trying to hide from me in the woods, yet always I tracked you down. And you bore me no bitterness when I beat you time and time again in some childish game that you had invented. Fear never touched our hearts then, Halbarad, and we scorned those who felt it.

You were the same age as me, yet to me you always seemed young, my little brother. Maybe that was an omen, my friend. I knew all my life that I should outlive you, so I cherished every moment we had together. Never has anyone been so important to me, not even Arwen, for you and I grew up together, and not even Gandalf knew me as well as you.

And after that, when we were rangers, we learnt all about fear, didn't we? Fear choking us, making sleep impossible. Yet as long as you were with me, I never felt it so much. You who never judged me when I was afraid, you who healed me when I was hurt. And I pray now, my friend, that you I was the same to you.

I don't think we realised quite how important our work was, did we? You complained when we had to guard the Shire, always wanting action. I didn't like it either, but it was fun. We used to talk long into the night, about what life would bring us. We talked about Arwen and how grand the wedding would be. We tried to make our horses ford the Brandywine, and race each other into Bree once we had done our watch. It was Mordor next, wasn't it?

That was the first time we'd been with the other rangers, and you didn't like it. But how good it was to find a track that they'd missed, or a place to camp that couldn't be seen by the enemy. We thought Mordor was frightening, didn't we? How dark it seemed, and that shadow seeped into our very spirits. But when I gave up hoping, you were there with a joke and a friendly smile. When I was confused and the others ignored us, you had an idea. And how aloof the rangers seemed to us, us two who had grown up together and spoke to each other without words. We couldn't wait to get away, and how good that freedom seemed afterwards. It was after that we found The Prancing Pony, and we met Gandalf for the first time.

Many years passed didn't they Halbarad? The other rangers scorned me because of what I am, and it was you who were with me through those long nights when I was lonely. Dearer than friend, closer than son to me, you were Halbarad. Did I ever tell you what you meant to me? I doubt I did ere it was too late.

What did it matter to us that I was Isildur's heir? Nothing. Running that kingdom was fun to plan when we was young, wasn't it? I would rule and you would lead my men into battle. So what if it never happened, you said. It was good to dream, and how good it would have been if you could see me now. Oh, Halbarad, there is so much I can't share with you anymore.

And on those long nights of guard duty, on our own in some forsaken corner of the Middle Earth when the nigh was cold, there was nothing that seemed more natural than to sit close together, arms around each others shoulders for warmth. And later, to lie in each others arms, sharing the few blankets that we could carry. It was never more than that, and I never thought that others could find it strange. Is there someone wherever you are, Halbarad, who will spend those long nights with you?

And was it only a few days ago that all this came to an end, my friend? I saw you before that battle, and believe me, I wish that I had spoken to you, warned you against it, although you would not have listened to me. I would not have said farewell, as we never did say farewell to each other, Halbarad, it was always goodbye, for some forgotten reason of our own. But this parting is forever, and while you lay on the battlefield, words would not come to enable me to speak to you. I hope you understood that I said farewell in my own way, but even Gandalf does not. He does not understand how I could have felt that way about speaking to you then, Halbarad, but I do not believe that he fears death, for he has overcame it.

Well Halbarad, never again we will keep watch through the dark night, or marvel at the wonders we alone in the world have seen. So much we have shared together, that I cannot believe you are gone. How you would have laughed to see me now, the King of Gondor, and soon to be married to Arwen. And I have to go now, Halbarad, for here come my other friends, but none as dear to me as you. Farewell. Wait for me, would you? You see, Halbarad, I have your score of Orcs in that last battle to beat.


Hope I haven't upset too many people with this. Let me know what you think. I've only just found a similar story on here called 'Kneeling in a Field at Sunset', and I had already written this. Believe me, I wasn't stealing ideas, and anyone who hasn't read that story yet, get over there. It's great! Please r/r this one, and All Alone will be updated soon, promise.