"Tai said...that was okay if we went to his big soccer
game...there was going to a lot of people there scouting for Japan's junior
team." Sora replied Matt walked away from her...rolled his eyes. "What
ever." He replied.
"What do you mean what ever...it's his big game I
can't just abandon him I have to support him he's my best friend." Sora
said to Matt...he angrily turned around to her. "NO...I don't care!! Sora
your my girlfriend not his!" he shouted in frustration.
"Oh...yeah you think I belong to you? Why Can't
I do something for him?" she asked her voice rose. "No I didn't say
that...You always talk about Tai.... Tai this Tai that...and every time that I
asked what you did to day it's like you went to see Tai....you talked to
Tai...God I'm so sick and tired about this!" he shouted at her. Sora started
to cry a bit she wiped away her tears.
"Sora I wish this could work out with you and me but....
your mind isn't here with me it's always on him and I don't know if I can
handle that any more.... and I bet the reason why you wouldn't sleep with me
was because of Tai too wasn't it." Matt asked her watching her carefully
until she turned around not looking at him she played with her fingers
nervously. "Partly the reason." She replied.
"What happened then?" he asked. "I asked Tai about it
and he said that...I shouldn't if it's not what I wanted...he said to follow
my heart." She replied she turned to him...tears falling down her cheeks. Matt
watched her in surprise... "Then what you're trying to tell me is that you
aren't in love with me?" he asked, she shrugged her shoulders... "I
don't know if I am or if I ever was." She replied softly.
"Fine.... how about we see other people then if we
don't miss each other then or really like the other person.... we will know
that we weren't meant to be." Matt replied he swallowed then closed his
eyes. "Okay." She replied. "So we are broken up then?" she asked again.
"Yeah and if you do love me come back here cause I'll always take you in."
He replied. "I'm sorry Matt." Sora said once last time before exiting his
apartment for good.
...........
later that night....9:00pm.
Sora found herself out side Tai's apartment
building...she looked up at the building she need to talk Tai.
Tai making himself something to eat a late snack...he was
watching a TV movie, his apartment was clean...and he had two of those scented
candles lighted.... Kari gotten him to use those in here she was right it gave
the apartment a nice smell instead of the stuffy smell which of course he
thought was offensive but it really did make the apartment smell really nice.
The TV turned back to the movie Tai hurried back jumping
over the back and onto the couch as he was getting comfortable...the door bell
rang. He groaned. "Man." He replied, he put the popcorn bag aside and got up
walked toward the door. He opened the door.
"Ah...Sora?" he questioned. "I'm sorry if I
bothered you...I just need some one to talk to." She replied. Tai shook his
head and moved aside. "No it's okay...I was actually watching a movie." He
said, Sora walked it, Tai grabbed her coat and put it down on his couch.
"I'm bothering you aren't I?" she asked. "No you didn't...come and
sit down on the couch what's wrong?" he asked her.
Sora went to the couch she sat down...Tai sat next to her.
"Me and Matt we split up." She replied, Tai nearly choked on his popcorn.
"You did." He asked barely he coughed and pounded his chest lightly. "Are
you okay?" she asked. Tai nodded. "Yeah don't worry but what happened?"
he asked her. 'I'm not going to tell him that he broke us up.' She
thought. "It didn't work out." She replied. "Oh...I'm sorry." He
replied softly, he looked to the TV. "Well, I'm watching...um...what women
want..." he blushed embarrassed slightly... "Not that I wanted to it was
just on." He replied, Sora smiled. "That's okay Tai you don't have to
lie to me." She said.
The two sat there watching the first few minutes of the
movie, until Sora turned her head she watched him as he watched
movie...laughing. 'Why didn't I see this before?' she asked herself
Tai could feel her staring at him he tried to ignore it for
while until he couldn't handle it anymore and he turned around to her.
"Sora? Is something wrong?" Tai asked she watched him carefully...she took
the bag of popcorn from him and put it on the coffee table, Tai went to get it
but Sora pulled his hand away from the popcorn. Tai who was clearly starting to
get upset turned "Sor-." Sora kissed him, his eyes widened in surprise but
he closed them and went along, she pushed him on to his back so now she was on
top of him, they made out the TV was still on.
Tai pulled away from her. "Sora what are you doing?" he
asked he tried to catch his breath... "What's wrong?" she asked. "You
just broke up with some one you were with for a long time." He replied. "I
know but.... I'm so relieved...too at the same time...." she replied. "I
don't understand Sora." He replied he watched her the lighting television
highlighted her face a bit.
"That I can love someone freely Tai...That I finally
realized what was in front of me." She said she stood up from the couch.
"And your trying to tell me that you love me?" he asked, she nodded.
"Yes...I always have and always will.... remember the time with the
cookies?....ever since then...I could tell you were hurt Tai and I'm sorry so
I did as best as I can to make you happy talk to you be your friend...and I
guess...that love that I had for you when we were 10 re-surfaced...I really do
love you Tai, I pushed that love aside cause you didn't pay attention to
me.... " She said to him. Tai stood up too. "Sora, I'm surprised that you
did that.... you didn't have too." He replied.
Sora grabbed his left hand "No Tai I did...and it was the
best thing I did...because it made me realize how stupid I was too do what I did
to you.... I think back to what I said long ago...it was so rude so
inconsiderate of me, I should have waited longer for you...or I should have just
told you earlier." She said to him, she took his other hand in her own hand
and held on to him. "And I want to make up for all the wasted time...I wanted
to show you how much you mean to me." She replied she pulled him closer to her
putting Tai's arms around her waist she raised her right hand to his face and
gently caressed his left cheek.
Tai slowly closed his eyes...he knew what step Sora was
talking about...but he didn't want to now...it was to soon after her break up
with Matt. But then again he didn't know if he should or should not...she
wanted it from him...and he didn't want to hurt her. "Sora, I know that you
feel bad because of that Christmas but...we can't not now...it's too
early." he replied, Sora kissed the base of his neck...things that he dreamed
she'd do to him. "Sora..." he replied, he had enough of will power to push
her away a bit. Sora looked at him upset... "What's wrong...I know I'm
forcing you...I didn't mean it...but you never said that you love me...or do
you not love me anymore?" she asked tears started down her cheeks. Tai hated
to see her cry.
"That's not it...I do love you it's just that I'm
not sure if it was a strong as it was long before." Tai replied softly. "But
you do love me." She whispered. "Yeah I do.... but I can't make love to
you if I'm not 100% in love with you do you understand?" Tai questioned her.
"Oh..." she replied she looked away from him, Tai sat down on the sofa and
motioned her to sit down. "If or when we do make love...it will be when we are
both 100% in love with each other...I'd like the chance to court you Sora...to
go to the movies...to...go out to dinner at a fancy restaurant." He replied
smiling a little bit, Sora smiled too. "I see, what you're saying...I'd
like to do that too." She replied softly.
"Thank you." He replied he hugged her. "For what?"
she questioned. "For giving me this second chance...which will be all that you
need to see how I'm like as a boyfriend." He replied softly. Sora nodded,
they kissed lightly and continued to watch the movie together.
**************************
6 months after....
Matt and Sora meet for the first time since their break up
at a small café in town somewhere. They both took a sip of there coffee and
watched each other. "So...are your feeling's for me real?" Matt
questioned. Sora watched him carefully then looked at her cup of coffee in front
of her, she shook her head no. "I'm sorry." She replied Matt shrugged.
"No that's okay I figure that much...after you left that night...I knew you
went to Tai...and I'm not mad...I realized that I couldn't have you." He
replied.
"You did?" she questioned. "Yeah...I mean I'd
prefer someone who didn't have a history with my best friend go out with me
and tell me about him and that you spent all day with him and that...you wanted
to go to his big soccer game." He said to her. "Oh, I'm really sorry about
that Matt...I never meant to hurt you." She replied. "I know you
didn't...it was something that couldn't be helped." He replied taking a
sip of coffee again. "Then how is your relationship?" he asked. "Great!"
she said a little to happy she stopped...and spoke quietly. "I mean...it's
really nice..." she trailed off she looked at him. "Sora...you don't have
to be careful of want you say around me." Matt said to her noticing she tried
not to say she was so much happier with him.
"If your okay with that..." she trailed off and watched
him. "I'm okay with it." He admitted. "When I'm with Tai I feel so
complete...so fulfilled. Did you find someone you like?" she asked.
"Yeah...actually...she is really nice...I really love her...and makes me fill
wanted and needed." He replied, Sora just looked back down at the table.
"Look you don't have to insult me...I tried to be a good girlfriend to
you." She said to him. "No I'm sorry...I didn't mean it that way...but
seriously I found the girl I want to spend the rest of my life with.... her name
is Samantha." He said to her. "Oh that's a nice name...but Matt...Could we
all stay friends still?" Sora questioned.
"Who do you mean?" he asked carefully. "Me, Tai and
You." She said. "Yeah...we can get our friendship, back on track...I think
we were better best friends then girlfriend and boyfriend...but it will take
some time but eventually we'll get back on track.." He said to her. "I
know....but we'll try right?" she asked. Matt nodded. "Yeah." He said to
her. Sora reached her hand out to him, he watched her then took her hand in his
and they shook on it being friends again.
To be Continued........
Yes I know nothing to do with the title of the fic...In chapter on the true meaning of the title comes out okay :) It won't be up that fast though sorry...I'll try to work on it asap okay see ya....later Lilac Kamiya.
