Becci 'D': Here it is

Becci 'D': Here it is! The second part that you have all been waiting for! I would like to thank you all for reviewing the first chapter and I never knew that my story was going to turn out so well! I hope this chapter is just as successful. Once again if you see this ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ it means a change of scenery and it's still in Tai's POV. In addition, just to warn you this is a Taito/Yamichi fic so if gay content disgusts you I advise you not to read. So enough of me bragging on! On with the fic! Oh wait! Before I do I just have to say "I DON'T OWN DIGIMON!" There I said it!

ON WITH FIC!!!!

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WHAT DECISION? Part 2

It was early in the morning and I would have to get up soon because of school. My mind kept on thinking about what I said to Kari. 'I'm going to tell him!' But could I? Still all the consequences were flowing through my brain. What if he rejects me? Will I make a fool of myself? Can I face other people who dislike the idea of someone gay? Will my friends still be my friends at the end of the day? SNAP OUT OF IT TAI!! One: I already make a fool of myself. Two: Of course, I will still have my friends. Three: So, what if people do not like me for who I am! Josh and his friends get on all right! However, there is still one question I cannot answer. Will Matt reject me? Never mind that Tai! I'm going to tell him! I am the holder of courage so it's in my blood to go right ahead and tell him. However, to boost my courage I think I need a little help!

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(School)

"So how's everything then Val?" asked Sam

"Oh it's great! My mum is so cool about all this. And she doesn't seem to mind that I already have a girlfriend!" replied Valerie happily.

"That's great" said Danny.

"Umhm!" mumbled Valerie happily.

"Hey you lot!" shouted someone.

Val, Sam, and Dan turned round to see Ruby and Josh catching up to them.

"Morning" greeted Danny.

"Hey" replied Josh. Ruby ran right into Valerie's arms and kissed.

"I'm so happy!" cried Ruby "I love you so much!"

"Same here!" agreed Valerie. The girls then walked off in there own direction giggling and smiling.

"Glad to see things turned out ok" said Josh.

"Yeah, when I met up with Val this morning she was jumping for joy!" said Sam. The three of them then began to walk down the corridor when Tai suddenly came round the corner. He looked a bit disturbed and nervous.

"Hey Tai what's up?" asked Josh.

"Can I have a word? Please? This is really important!" I asked.

"Err, yeah sure" agreed Josh.

"Not here" I said as I walked past them heading for the loos. All three just followed me. I felt a bit relived when I entered because there were no people to listen or stare.

"What's this about Tai?" asked Danny.

"I need your help" I confessed "I, err, well" I couldn't get my words out. I was so embarrassed and a shamed that I was loosing it. I hung my head and stared at the ground thinking on how I could start. Then Josh came towards me and put his hand on my shoulder.

"It's ok, what ever you got to say we won't say anything or laugh, nothing like that!" Josh said. Again, I felt a little more relived.

"Well" I begun "I want to confess my love for someone…and" I paused for a second before I continued. "And it's Matt". I hung my head again. I was really embarrassed but they were like me. They should understand.

The three of them looked at each other surprised at first but then smiled.

"I know what your thinking, you think he will reject you?" asked Danny. I just nodded my head. I still kept my head hung.

"There's no need to be ashamed. I think you were brave to come and ask us for help" said Sam "I went through the same thing!"

I lifted my head to see three smiling faces.

"Thanks" I said rather quietly. Josh put his arm around my shoulders.

"Listen, we have all been there. And everything turned out ok for us didn't it?" said Josh.

"Yeah I guess" I said.

"Just go right up and tell him. Even if he does reject you, I'm sure you and him will still be friends. I mean whenever I see you, you're always with him. Best buds should understand" smiled Danny.

"Yeah, and if all goes wrong you have me and the lads are here to support you" said Josh. That made me smile. I was beginning to feel my courage building.

"Thanks you guys, this means a lot to me" I said happily. Again, they all smiled at me.

"So when you going to tell him?" asked Sam.

"I was thinking of straight after school. Cause I don't any commotion if something goes wrong" I replied. They seem to agree with me but Josh pulling one of those faces when deep in thought.

"Maybe you should tell him before" Josh finally said.

"Why is that?" asked Danny.

"Because like I said before, we've all been there. I said to myself after school I will do it or I would ring him. However, I would always bottle out or something came up. Tai I think you should go right out and tell him. Don't care if people are watching. Just do it!" explained Josh. I was going to disagree but he was right. I would probably bottle out. In addition, not to worry if people find out. They will eventually anyway, so why not now? Again all this advice was building my courage. I was going to do it. In fact, I was going to do it right NOW!!

"Your right. I'm not going to wait. I'm going to march right out them doors and confess my feelings" I said rather proudly.

"Then go get him!" encouraged Danny. "We be right behind ya every step of the way!"

"Thanks" I said again as I began to walk out the doors of the lavatory.

I marched down the corridor conjointly with Josh's gang slowly walking behind me. I blanked out everyone around me as I looked for one person. Matt.

I reached the lockers and there was Matt. He was talking to Izzy.

Nevertheless, as I approached them I found that my courage began to run out and my legs turned to jelly. I hid round the corner and I started to pant. I was really nervous.

"What's the matter?" asked Sam.

"I can't do it!" I said in a shaky voice.

"Of course you can. Looks his right there and no one is around. NOW is the perfect opportunity!" said Danny.

I shook my head quickly. I was acting like a little kid. Scared out of my wits from nothing. I looked back at Matt again and a saw him wave to Izzy, as he was about to leave.

"His leaving! DO IT NOW!" said Josh. Still I shook my head. Sweat was pouring down my face and I began to hyperventilate! Then as Matt was about to leave Danny shouted.

"HEY MATT!"

Matt turned round and Josh shoved me into view.

"Oh Hey Tai I was looking for you" Matt said happily.

I couldn't move. I was frozen to the spot. Thousands of thoughts flew through my head all at once. I was breathing quickly and I was still sweating. I couldn't do it. I just couldn't do it. Matt was getting closer to me and I didn't know what to do? Run? Don't say anything? Alternatively, spill all my emotions? I had three options. Matt reached me and his expression turned worried.

"Tai, are you alright?" he asked me.

That did it! I couldn't take it anymore. My skin felt really hot and sweaty and I felt myself to begin to pass out. Which I did.

"TAI! TAI! CAN YOU HEAR ME!? TAI!" someone shouted. I could hear someone calling me ever so faintly but I did not respond. The way I thought of it. This got me out of telling Matt.

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My head hurt. I mean really hurt. I suddenly remembered what happened. I passed out in front of the whole school! See what I mean when I said I always make a fool of myself. I began to open my eyes slowly. However, as I opened them I had to shut them again. There was a bright light, which hurt me.

"AHHHHH!" I said as I sat up and covered my eyes.

"Oh sorry" somebody said. Obviously a female.

"TAI! Oh man you really scared me. Are you all right!?" I knew that was Matt's voice. I opened my eyes again. It took me a while before my blurry vision corrected itself. I rubbed my forehead as I began to recognise where I was. I was in the schools nurses' office.

"Yeah I'm ok" I replied. I still rubbed my head. The nurse walked over to me.

"I'm sorry about the light, that was me" apologised the nurse.

"That's ok" I said.

"Are you hurting anywhere?" asked the nurse.

"Just my head, I must have really hit it hard!" I replied. "I be ok though"

"I'm glad your ok Tai" said Matt. For a moment, I forgot he was there.

"You really did scare me. One minute I was walking over to you the next you just collapse on me!"

"I'm sorry I didn't know what happened?" I said. Although that was partly true, I did know what I was about to do! "How long have I been out?"

"Err, well it was break time when you fainted so it must be nearly lunch time now!" replied Matt. My mouth practically dropped open. I was out for about 2 hours! That means I still have the rest of the day to tell Matt. However, I was too tired at the moment and I think it will have to wait till tomorrow.

"My Kamiya I think it's best that you should go home, I will ring your parents and tell them of the current situation" suggested the nurse.

"Yeah man, You look totally out of it!" agreed Matt.

"Well thanks!" I said sarcastically.

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"Man! When you said something will come up it sure did!" said Danny.

"I wasn't expecting that!" said Josh. "Maybe an interruption but not to pass out!"

"Well at least Tai's ok, that's all that matters" said Ruby.

"Yeah we just saw him go home" said Valerie.

"Tomorrow were going to really have to help Tai" said Sam. "After today he might just give up!"

"Yeah, so what can we do?" asked Ruby.

"First thing tomorrow we go and talk to Matt" said Josh.

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(Next day)

Again, I found myself up early before school. Moreover, once again I was thinking. I did build up courage to tell Matt but when the opportunity came I go and pass out! I was really nervous and worried at the same time. You see it's easy for Josh to say go and tell him but it's hard just to say three little words. I love you. That's all I have to say to Matt. However, I've failed every time. I really want to tell him because I'm getting to that point when I'm going to have a nervous brake down or end up doing a big mistake. My emotions always get the better of me. Maybe it's because I bottle them up in side for so long that one of these days there going to erupt! In addition, that will probably happen when I tell Matt. That's it! I've decided. I'm going to head to school early to meet Matt then I can tell him.

I lay in my bed for what seemed like ages before I heard my alarm clock go off. I slammed my fist down on it to shut the thing up. I tiredly got out of bed and rubbed the sleep out of my eyes.

"Kari, Kari" I said as I shook her lightly "Come on wake up! It's a school day!"

"In a minute Tai" Kari mumbled out. I left her be for a while as I went to get ready.

It didn't take me long because all I had to do was get dressed and brush my wild brown hair. I then tried again to wake up my little sis.

"KARI!! GET UP!!" I shouted a bit to loudly. I never seen her jump up so fast.

"Tai next time warn me! It's already bad enough when you tiggle me. I don't want to go deaf!" she said angrily.

"Sorry but it got you up" I apologised. Kari just rolled her eyes and climbed down the ladder of the bunk bed.

"I make us some breakfast" I said as I left our bedroom.

It was now around 7:00am and I finished making breakfast. Amazing enough I had time to make a full English breakfast. Toast, eggs, bacon, etc.

When Kari sat at the table, she seemed to be really pleased. I managed to get back in her good books again.

"Tai, Mum told me about yesterday. What exactly happened?" Kari asked while nibbling on a bit of toast.

I sighed heavily and began my story.

"Well you know I said about telling Matt? I never got round to it. Cause you see I got really nervous and I ended up collapsing instead" I explained.

"So that's why. Mum thought you ill and coming down with something?" said Kari.

"No, unless you call madly in love an illness!" I sighed again.

"When are you going to?" asked Kari.

"I was thinking of this morning just before school starts" I replied.

"Well shall we get going then? I be able to meet TK on the way!" smiled Kari.

"Unless Davis beets him first" I said and Kari frowned.

"Some times he really gets on my nerves!" Kari said. I laughed a little.

"Yeah, well his a good kid really" I said.

"You're only saying that because Davis acts a lot like you when you was he's age! But you was a lot worse then him!" pointed out Kari.

"I wasn't that bad!" I protested.

"Yeah right!" remarked Kari.

"Let's just drop this and get to school" I said. I really didn't want to go into my child hood. I cleared up the table and tidied away.

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(On way to school)

"Hey there's Yolei, Cody and TK! I see you later Tai. Good luck!" said Kari as she headed off towards them.

"Yeah thanks, bye!" I replied after her.

I walked silently to school as I was thinking again! My brain seems to do a lot of that recently! Yes this time I will concentrate before I cross the road!

I could now see my Highschool clearly in front of me. But as I got nearer, I saw Matt talking to Josh and Ruby. I hid from view as I watched them suspiciously.

"What do you guys want?" asked Matt uneasy.

"We need to talk to you about Tai" replied Josh.

"Why?" asked Matt.

"Well we know that Tai has been trying to tell you something but is finding it difficult" answered Ruby.

"What are you talking about!? Tai is my best mate! He would have told me it by now!" Matt said disbelieved "Now if you don't mind I have a class to get to".

Josh stopped Matt from going in.

"What do you think your doing!?" demanded Matt.

"Whats it look like!?" shouted Ruby.

"Calm down Ruby. Look we consider Tai as a friend. And he came to us for help. We gave him advice and he tried but without success" explained Josh. "He passed out in the process!"

"HUH!? So, that's why Tai passed out! I thought he was sick or something? OH GOD! Tai's not ill is he!?" Matt panicked.

"What!? No, no, no! Nothing like that!" said Josh.

Matt sighed with relief. "What is it then?"

"That's for Tai to tell you" said Ruby as she and Josh walked into school.

I watched Matt as he stood there thinking. What did they say to him!? OH NO!! THEY DIDN'T TELL HIM DID THEY!!??

I began to panic! OH NO! OH NO! OH NNNNNNNOOOOOOOO!!!!! WHAT SHALL I DO!? I knew I had to get out of there before I DID make a fool of myself again. However, as I panicked Matt spotted me. It was too late, before I realised that he was standing right behind me. He put his hand on my shoulder to acknowledge his presence. As he did I jump right out of my skin!

"AAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!" I shouted as I saw it was only Matt. Only Matt!? OH NO!!!!

"Sorry Tai, I didn't mean to frighten you" apologised Matt.

"T, t, that's ok" I stuttered. Matt face expression changed to worry.

"Tai your shaking, what's wrong?" he asked me.

"NOTHING!" I blurted out. I was lying to myself again. At that moment, I didn't know if I was nervous, embarrassed, or even scared! Again I was panicking and it was causing me to shake.

"Tai, look at yourself! How can you say nothing?" Matt pointed out.

Damn it! What can I do? What can I do!? I knew I must not faint again. I stopped myself from doing that. I didn't want a repeat of yesterday's actions!

"Well!?" Matt said getting impatient.

"I, err, umm!" I couldn't get any words out. I knew what I had to say but my voice wasn't working. I began to feel hot and sweaty again and I knew I was going to pass out again. This was all too much stress for me. I closed my eyes tightly and tried to calm down. Without success.

I knew there and then I was going to topple over. I think Matt realised what was going to happen because as I was just about to collapse Matt caught me. He used his body to support me.

"Come Tai I'm taking you to the nurses office" said Matt as he began to help me walk. But I stopped and pulled away from Matt.

"NO! I need to tell you something!" I said. Matt still had worry in his eyes but I knew that he was all ears.

"Matt, for a while now I have been feeling strange" I began.

"I knew it! Your ill isn't you!? That's why you keep collapsing!" Matt jumped to conclusions. I just looked at him confused.

"No that's not it! I'm fine. It's something else" I corrected him. A sigh of relief passed through Matt.

"Well then? What's really wrong? Josh told me you had something to say but he didn't say what" said Matt.

Therefore, Josh and Ruby didn't tell Matt. That's good because I wanted to do it myself. I took a deep breath before I began.

"Matt, I…"

TO BE CONTINUED……………

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Becci 'D': I am so cruel! What a place to leave it!!

Taito_obsession: NOOOOOOO!!!! How can you do that!? Tai was just about to tell Matt!!

Becci 'D': Where the hell did you come from!?

Taito_obsession: I hate you!

Becci 'D': I already knew that! And don't forget envy, disgust, jealous, spite, etc, etc!! I know you don't really mean any of that because you only said that because of where I left the story!

Taito_obsession: Whatever!

Becci 'D': STOP DOING A MATT!

Taito_obsession: Whatever!

Becci 'D': Oh shut up! Please review. I would appreciate it. THANKS! #^_~#

Taito_obsession: Flame her! Flame her! FLAME HER!!!!!!!