Everywhere
Hey everyone! Thanks for the positive reviews! I wasn't gonna continue but some want it continued sooo here I am :) This time it is based on Everywhere from Michelle Branch which is a great song.

Monica chopped vegetables with much more force then one should. She was once again roped into making dinner for everyone and of course Chandler had to bring Alex. With a girlfriend he was hardly home. Monica felt as thought she lost a friend and Chandler was just some guy who showed up once in a while for dinner. It had been a month since she kissed him and it still felt very vivid in her mind. As though it had happened yesterday. But then reality would hit her. It was a month later and Chandler was still with Alex and she was still alone. Not paying attention caused Monica to cut her finger but thankfully not deep enough for stitches. She put a cloth on it and went into the bathroom to get a band aid. Rachel had just had a shower so it was still very steamy. She swore she saw Chandler in the reflection of the mirror but when she turned around no one was there. That's it! I'm going crazy! Not only can't I get Chandler off my mind but now I am seeing him!. Monica wrapped a band aid around her cut and returned to making dinner. After hearing Alex hated Lamb she went and bought some to make. Monica knew it was a mean thing to do but she didn't feel bad about it so she went ahead and cooked the lamb. As she checked the lamb Chandler entered ALONE which shocked her.

"Where's Alex? I thought you two were attached at the hip" Monica said, sounding bitter.

"Had to work" Chandler explained. He hadn't picked up her bitterness.

"Yeah sure..." Monica sighed.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"What? Nothing"

"If it meant nothing then why did you say it?"

"Look can we just drop it!??" She snapped.

"Okay" Chandler said, taken back.

"Sorry. I mean I'm sorry for snapping like that"

"It's okay" he paused "you know if you ever need to talk, I am here"

"I know" Monica smiled.

Breaking the moment, Ross, Joey, Rachel and Phoebe all entered ready to eat. After fifteen minutes of Joey asking when dinner was ready Monica served dinner. The whole dinner everyone chatted about everything except Monica who sat in silence. She didn't even feel hungry so she just played with her food. The whole night Monica hardly said two words. She just didn't want too. Chandler had to leave around ten and soon Ross, Phoebe and Joey left too. Leaving Rachel and Monica in silence.

"Monica?"

"Yeah?"

"What's wrong? you've hardly spoken all night"

"I got a lot on my mind"

"Like?"

"Stuff" Monica replied as she entered her room. Seemed as though all Monica did was sleep. In fact she couldn't remember the last time she ate a full meal. Again Chandler entered her mind. This time it was when Chandler hit on her at the beach. Which made her wonder if he was serious about dating her or just joking around. Something Chandler did a lot. Probably to cover what he is really feeling.
Why can't you stay outta my mind? Monica sighed as she turned off the light.

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere

The next day Monica awoke around noon. Something she hadn't done since high school. She stumbled out to the living room where Rachel was sitting on the couch waiting for her.

"Hey sleepy head"

"Hi"

"Can we talk?"

"I kinda wanted to take a shower"

"Won't take long"

Monica sighed, better get it over with, she sat down beside Rachel "What?"

"I can't remember the last time I've seen you eat and you sleep all the time...."

"Uh huh?"

"I think you have gone into a depression"
"So?"

"So?? Monica! something must be wrong! please tell me!"

Monica broke down in tears, "Tell Chandler to break up with that bitch. Then we'll talk" She ran into the bathroom to take a long shower. Leaving Rachel looking very shocked and confused. When Monica re-entered after taking her shower she found Rachel and a man she had never seen before. Of course Monica was just in a towel.
Embarrassed she ran into her room to get dressed. Courious about who that guy was.
Ten minutes later Monica emerged fully dressed. That man and Rachel were sitting on the couch waiting for her.

"Monica this is Dr.Smith, he is a psychiatrist"

"What!?? Rachel I don't need a psyko doctor!!" She felt pissed off.

"Your obviously depressed Monica! and you need to talk to some one about it!"

"Give me five minutes" he spoke up.

"If I do well you leave me alone!?"

"Of course"

"Fine. Five minutes" Monica huffed.

Rachel left leaving Monica and the doctor.

"When did your depression start?"

"I don't know. A month or so ago"

"What happened?"

"First of all I've always been depressed, I didn't have a great child hood...but it came out because I fell for someone I wasn't supposed too"

"You feel in love with a man who is out of your reach"

"Isn't that what I just said?"

After what ended up being fifteen minutes or so the doctor prescribed Monica antidepressants and left. That didn't help at all she sighed all he did was put her on drugs. Monica wiped a tear from her eye and grabbed her coat, she went to get her pills. Along the way she saw happy couples, children running around, an elderly couple wearing matching jackets, a woman showing off her engagement ring to a friend and other stuff that made her sick to her stomach. It was weird, in high school Monica never under stood why women would become depressed over a man. And now here she was picking up anti-depressants because she was depressed over a man. She still didn't understand it but she was going through it.

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look you're never there
And every time I sleep you're always there

Monica quickly got her prescription filled and hurried back to the apartment. On her way she swore she saw Alex making out with some guy that wasn't Chandler. To make sure though Monica went closer. Sadly for Chandler it wasn't him and it was Alex. She wanted to be sad for Chandler but part of her was happy. Alex is out of the picture!. She froze. How could she tell Chandler that his girlfriend is cheating on him?.
He would assume Monica was lying after all she hated her. Monica debated on wither or not to tell him all the way home.

When she got home she saw Chandler talking to Joey in the hall. She didn't catch all that they said but she heard "I think I love her". Oh no this is bad Monica thought.

"Oh Hey Mon" Chandler said.

"Hey" Monica smiled half way.

"What's in the bag?" Joey asked.

"Nothing" She quickly said and entered her apartment. Of course Rachel was home. Monica didn't want to talk to her. Not after what she did. She ignored her greeting and ran to her room. Where she spent so much of her time. Monica stared at the bottle that held her pills. A bit of her wanted to take the whole bottle. Of course she didn't wanna die but she did want it all to end. All the feelings of pain and hurt. Next thing she knew everything went white and she saw Chandler dressed in a white tux. It reminded her of the time her and Rachel made fun of Ross's white tux. Chandler told her everything was going to be okay and to fight her depression. Then the white faded and she woke up in a hospital bed. Rachel and Ross stood beside her bed.

"How did I get here?"

"Are you kidding?? You attempted suicide!" Ross fumed.

"I found you past out. You took a whole bottle of pills"

"I don't remember doing that..."

"How could you not!?? How could you do this Monica??? How stupid are you!?" Ross yelled at her then ran out.

"Rach I swear to god I don't remember doing it"

"The doctor explained that something in your head probably made you do it.Because we know you wouldn't do this on purpose"

"I wouldn't" Monica whispered.

After Rachel left, Joey visited her. Phoebe was too upset at her for doing this to see her and Chandler wasn't reachable. He wasn't at home or work and his cell phone was turned off. It was now around midnight and Monica was alone in a dark hospital room.
Finally around 3:30 in the morning Monica feel asleep with Chandler on her mind.

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

The next day Monica awoke around 1:30 in the afternoon where Chandler was waiting for her to wake up.

"Hey"

"Hi" Monica replied.

"Rachel explained everything to me. How are you feeling?"

"Could be better"

"You really don't.."

"No I don't"

"I bet your wondering where I was last night"

"Sorta"

"I heard a message on Alex's machine and well we broke up"

"Oh I'm sorry" Monica felt bad for him but her heart was happy. She decided not to tell him what she saw after all. This wasn't the right time anyway.

"It's okay" Chandler sighed "Let's not talk about me"

"Or me"

"Okay so we'll say nothing" Chandler grinned. They both sat in silence for ten minutes. Till Monica got the courage to tell him why she was where she was.

"Chandler?"

"Yeah?"

"I have something to tell you"

"What is it?"
She felt a tear run down her face, "The reason I'm here. The reason why I am in this state of depression"

"Why?"

"You"

"Me!?"

"I feel in love with you when I shouldn't have"

"Ohhh my god!! Why are you telling me this now?? I just broke up with my girlfriend and you almost killed your self!" Monica didn't say anything. "I..I can't believe this! I just...I just gotta get outta here" Chandler left. Monica wiped a tear from her eye. She shouldn't have told Chandler. She should have kept her feelings to her self. But she finally got it off her chest. Chandler knew so she didn't have to hide. A couple days later they let her go home. But the gang kept her under surveillance. Every move she made they watched. As if she was some psyko.

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

It was now a week later and she hadn't seen Chandler since the hospital. She knew she'd freak Chandler out but not this much. At night she still had dreams about her and Chandler. In the dreams they were together and happy. None of this depression stuff. None of another woman in his life. It was just them. Monica popped a pill into her mouth, then drank some water. The doctor kept her on the depressants but told Rachel to make sure she didn't take them all at once. Once she passed Rachel's inspection she entered the washroom and ran a bath. This was the one room where she could get some privacy. What with everyone watching her all the time. Well Rachel and Joey. Phoebe and Ross wouldn't speak to her and Chandler was somewhere.

She sank into the hot water and sighed. If only she could stay in here. Everyone would leave her alone and there was no Chandler. There came Chandler again. It was as if Chandler was everywhere she went. When ever she closed her eyes she saw Chandler in that white tux. Which he actually pulled off. He could pull off anything Monica thought. Ugh! Again! Monica lectured her self not to think of him yet again. She had to convince her self that is wasn't gonna happen. Sure Chandler wasn't with Alex anymore but he didn't wanna be with her. At least if he did, he was very good at hiding it.

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

That night Monica was watching a boring commercial about ties when Chandler came running in. He looked disheveled like he had been running a lot or something.

"Monica! Can we talk??"
"Um sure"

"I guess the easiest way to say it is..." he sat beside Monica and kissed her. Softly at first but it soon built with passion. Ten seconds later they broke apart.

"Wow! very well said"

"I know it's complicated and stuff but I have feelings for you too. I just didn't know it"

Monica replied by kissing him again. But it was soon cut short when Rachel entered from her bedroom looking very tired.

"What's going on?? It's 11:30 and I gotta work tomorrow!"

"Sorry Rach. I'm going" Chandler flashed Monica a smile and left.

Monica smiled for the first time in a while and went back to her room.

The next night Chandler asked Monica out to dinner. They wanted to see how it went before breaking the news to everyone so they said they were going on a double date. The gang didn't know about Chandler's break up. The date went very well. They both got out some issues that had been bothering them and talked for almost two hours. Chandler softly kissed Monica goodnight and went to his apartment while Monica went to hers.

Although she was finally with the person she wanted to be with. It brought up issues for her like did he truly feel the same way? or does he think he does because she feels for him?. Monica didn't focus on them though and went to bed before Rachel saw she was home and started asking questions.

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

After a month it still seemed to be going well. Monica was still on her depressants but the doctor weakened the prescription. While Chandler was very supportive of her. They hadn't told anyone yet that they got together. They assumed Monica was just pulling out of the depression. Phoebe and Ross finally forgave her and started hanging around her again as well. Everything felt like it was finally falling back in place for her.
The only suprising thing was that they fooled around but hadn't gone all the way yet.
Monica wanted too but Chandler thought with her depressed and on medication it may be better to wait.

Sick of hiding they decided to tell everyone that they were together that night. Monica gathered the gang around her apartment.

"I bet your wondering why I've gathered you all here today" she paused "well...I've been seeing this guy for the past month and I thought you should meet him" Monica opened the door to reveal Chandler.

"You've been seeing Chandler!??" Ross yelled.

"We already know Chandler" Phoebe chimed.

"Ross please this relationship means a lot to me. Just be happy for us" He thought about it for a minute then gave in and hugged them.

"You scored with Monica? Niiiceee" Joey grinned.

"We haven't had sex yet Joey"

"What?? you've been together a month and no sex?? that's gotta be some record"

Monica and Chandler soon retreated to Monica's room and cuddled up on Monicas bed. Monica kissed Chandler on the lips. They soon got into a pretty heated session. Chandler ended up on top of Monica.

"Sure you wanna do this?"

"Extremely"

They ended up making love twice. As Monica slept she dreamt about who else? but Chandler. But this time the dream wasn't just a dream it was real.

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone

Over the next couple weeks they were together a lot and when ever they were apart Monica thought about him. She wondered if he thought about her. Monica wandered around the apartment waiting for Chandler. He said he had a suprise for her and the suspense was killing her. Chandler then casually entered the apartment and kissed her hello.

"Well?"

"Well what?"

"You said you had a suprise!"

"Oh right" Chandler smiled "I booked us a room at this nice bed and breakfast in Atlantic City"

"Awww really?? that sounds great" she hugged him "for when??"

"Uh now I mean tonight so let's go"

"But I gotta pack"

"Already taken care off now come on" Chandler grabbed her hand and guided her out of the apartment. They were soon in Phoebes cab headed to Atlantic City. Monica feel asleep on the way up.

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath it's you I breathe
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone

When Monica woke up Chandler was slowing the car to a stop. She apparently slept the whole way up. A nice lady showed them to their room which had a beautiful antique bed and other antique furniture.

"Chandler this room is wonderful"

"Should be for what I'm paying"

Monica laughed, "Thank you"

"Your welcome"

Monica kissed him. They got a little too into it as they feel on the bed. Later that night Monica layed in bed while Chandler slept. She thought about all that had happened to her over the past year. Falling for Chandler, becoming depressed and almost killing her self with out knowing it and now this. That dought in the back of her head that Chandler didn't feel the same way still wouldn't go away. It had to be ridiculous right? After all Chandler would never stay with her a whole month and insist they wait for sex if it didn't mean something. Right?

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?