Coming of Age
Chapter 2
Lena wandered around her room for awhile before sitting back down at the computer.
"Lex had returned while I was asleep so I was a little surprised to see him at breakfast the next morning. Usually Lex slept in after returning from a trip to see Father. I had a very difficult time looking at Lex, I was so embarrassed to have invaded the privacy that he and Clark shared. I ran out of the house with some half baked excuse of running late for school. As much as I had dreaded seeing Lex over breakfast, I knew that seeing Clark at school was going to be infinately worse. I was half relieved and half concerned when Clark didn't show up for school. For a senior like Clark, it was really not a huge deal that he take a day off especially when he so rrarely missed any school, but it wasn't like him. Pete and Chloe made some mention of it over lunch, blaming it on the flu bug that was going around, but I knew the truth of the matter. Clark was avoiding school and he was avoiding me. School seemed to drag on but finally the final bell rang and I left in a hurry, ditching my friends and trying to hurry home. Lex was home when I got there and didn't seem to take the hint that I was not wanting to talk to him. Funny how everyone has always had the same sort of impression of Lex, that he is cold and untouchable, but that isn't the reality of Lex Luthor. My brother feels very deeply and any one who takes the time to really get to know him will find that out. Maybe it was the affect of having Clark around but I truly doubt it, its just his true self, the mask is the unfeeling rich brat, but being raised by our father would cause a person to hide everything away from the world."
"I was hiding out in my room when he came knocking. He made small talk, asking how school went and if I felt alright. He told me that he had tried to call Clark and Mrs. Kent had told him that Clark was down with the flu. The servants had told him that Clark had come over yesterday and had left rather abruptly. I told him that I felt fine, that it was just a hectic day at school. Lex didn't look like he believed me, but got up to leave my room. He stopped at the doorway and spoke gently, telling me that if I needed to talk, about anything, he was there for me. It was so absolutely ridiculous that I wanted to laugh. How was I going to tell him that a) his little sister was some sort of mind reading freak and b) I had mind raped his lover while he was away. Brotherly devotion is only going to go so far. I fumbled around in my room for awhile before completing my homework and deciding to tell the servants that I would eat in my room. I finally fell asleep but spent most of the night haunted by the images I had seen in Clark's mind. Lex had left early for the plant so I was spared having to deal with him over breakfast. Clark was absent from school for the rest of the week and I slowly was drowning in misery since it was my fault. If I hadn't been so stupid as to try to seduce him, none of this would be happening. Lex was becoming quite concerned as Clark still wasn't taking his calls and the Kents refused to let Lex come over. One thing about being able to read minds, its not the reading of minds that is the hard part, its the not reading them that is difficult. Lex broadcast his distress and there was no way that I could shut it out. By the end of the week, I knew that something had to be done, for everyones sake. I snuck out of the house and went over to the Kent's farm. I was met at the door by Mr. Kent. Jonathon Kent is a good man, his greatest strength is his love for his family. His weakness, his stubborn dislike for anything or anyone remotely connected to the Luthor name. I will give him credit though, here was one of those 'Luthor people' standing at his door and he didn't slam it in my face. I asked him if I could see Clark and he tried to make the excuse of Clark still being sick. I went against my principles then and gently touched his mind. I wasn't surprised to learn that Mr. Kent blamed Clarks isolation on Lex and I. Clark hadn't told his parents that what had happened but the Kent's are not stupid people. They knew that something bad had happened and whatever it was, the Luthors were involved. I saw that Clark was in the barn loft and that unless he was helping his parents, he remained there, not eating and not talking to anyone. I told Mr. Kent to relay the message that I had been there and made as if to leave. Instead of leaving, I went to the barn and up to the loft to see Clark sitting there in the dark. My heart went out to him, he looked so lost. I coughed to let him know that someone was there and without turning he addressed me by name. I was a little taken aback by that and I knew that he knew that as well. I told him that we needed to talk and asked if it would be okay to turn on the light. Clark shrugged his shoulders and told me to do as I pleased. I almost wish I hadn't turned on the light. He looked so shrunken and defeated that I wanted to cry."
"I could see that he had been crying himself and that was all it took for my self control to break. I did start crying then and kept apologizing telling him that it was all my fault, that I had never meant to hurt him and that I wished I had never been born. Clark looked up at me at that, confused. He asked me what I meant by that and everything came spilling out. I told him about my parents, about my mother's death, the boarding school and how I started hearing peoples thoughts. I told him everything including how I had once used my ability to cheat on a test at school and then the conversation came around to the incident at the pool. I kept apologizing to him, telling him I was an idiot to have tried to seduce him and that I hadn't meant to hurt him like I did. I explained that most of the time that I could control it but something had happened when we touched and things went to hell in a handbasket. Clark kept trying to interrupt me and blame himself, but there was no way that he could convince me. We both sat there crying for what seemed like forever. We purposely avoided the subject of his relationship with Lex until we were cried out. It was Clark that brought it up. I told him that I had no problem with it since I loved both of them and only wanted what was best for them. He told me that Lex had wanted to be open about the relationship but he had refused. He was afraid of what it would do to his parents and especially his father who was not overly fond of anything to do with the Luthors. I laughed at that, and told him that he was being very kind in phrasing it that way. Clark joined me in the laughter and I could tell that it was the first time that he had even smiled since that day. I let him know that avoiding Lex was not going to work for much longer and that if he didn't do something very soon, I would beat him senseless and kidnap him. He looked at me for a minute, then burst out laughing again. It was contagious and I kept picturing me trying to knock him over the head and breaking everything that I used. That was how Mrs. Kent found us, rolling with laughter and looking like a couple of fools. She asked Clark if he was finally feeling better and her smile lit up her eyes when Clark nodded that he did. Clark told her that he was going to come over to the mansion, but she shook her head no, telling him that he definately would need to clean up first. I let Clark know that I would wait for him and drive him. Clark ran down the steps to the loft and Mrs. Kent pulled me aside while her son went to get ready. She said that I was far more like my mother than my father and that I shared my mother's bravery and caring nature. I was flattered by the compliment. She also told me that while her husband might not choose to see what was in front of him, that she was definately not similarly blinded. She said that Clark had never been able to keep anything from her and she had suspected all along that Lex and Clark were growing closer than being simply friends. She smiled at me then and told me that she was grateful that I had come and that she would deal with her husband. He might not like it at first but she had learned in the years of her marraige how to best deal with Jonathon Kent. I so wanted to hug her at that moment but held back out of fear that i would lose control of my ability again. It was Mrs. Kent that pulled me into her embrace and thankfully nothing more than that happened. We heard the car horn honking and she stepped back, looking into my eyes for a moment. She told me to tell Clark that he would be expected home the next afternoon, then hurried me out to the car."
"As Clark and I drove back to the mansion, we both were lost in thought. Not quite sure that I knew what I was doing, I pulled the car over to the side of the road and turned to Clark. I told him that we needed to talk before we arrived at my home and saw Lex. Clark agreed and I asked him if he would keep my secret, I didn't think that the world was ready to know about either of us just yet and there was no way that I thought Lex would be able to handle his reunion with Clark on top of finding out that Clark and I both were 'gifted'. Clark understood my concerns and had no desire to be poked and prodded by scientists trying to figure out what made either of us the way we were. I hugged Clark in thanks, making sure that our skin didn't make contact, but whatever forces had shaped us no longer seemed to require that skin to skin contact and I started being overwhelmed by the force of Clark's emotions and his raw hunger for Lex before I could break away. Letting out a breath that I wasn't even aware that i held, I looked and Clark and told him that we 'really' needed to get going. Clark laughed and apologized for his impatience. A few minutes later, we were pulling into the driveway of the mansion. We went into the house and it didn't take long to track down Lex who was in the study. I left Clark in the hall with a wink and entered the lion's den. Lex jumped up to start yelling at me for worrying him by sneaking out, but seemed a little taken aback when I put my finger to my lips signalling him to be quiet. Smiling at him, I told him that I had found something he had lost. He looked bewildered at this but the look on his face quickly turned to one of pure joy when Clark entered the room. It didn't take a mind reader to be able to tell that Lex wanted nothing more than to run to Clark and take him into his arms, but his desire conflicted with trying to maintain both his composure and the secret Clark had insisted that he keep, so he stood there simply staring at Clark. I couldnt help giggling at my brother, I had never before seen him at such a loss for words and action. I told him that it was okay and that I knew about their relationship and that since both of them were being foolish, I had taken matters into my own hands. I left them standing together in the study making sure that I let Clark know his parents would expect him back the next afternoon. I closed the doors to the study behind me but not before hearing Clark tell Lex that there was no need to hide anymore. Feeling quite pleased with myself, I went to grab a bite to eat in the kitchen before retiring to my room for the night. I slept peacefully for the first time in a week."
"Clark met me at breakfast the next morning and told me that Lex was still asleep. He looked like a completely new person and the familiar sparkle was back in his eyes. He stood there dressed in Lex's robe and I wondered at how I could have possibly not seen what was now so clear. The Luthor family crest on the robe seemed to fit him as well as it did Lex. The simple act of wearing the robe let everyone know that he had accepted his place as belonging with Lex and Lex with him. We sat in silence for a few minutes then Clark began speaking softly. He thanked me again for helping at which I laughed a little bitterly. He shook his head, and explained that my acceptance of their relationship meant everything to him. Lex came down to breakfast then, kissing Clark gently on the forehead before hugging me. He tried to expres his gratitude as well, but fumbled over the words, finally giving up completely and hugging me again. It was a few minutes before I realized that Lex had touched me and the contact hadn't triggered my power. Feeling more relaxed than I had in some time, I basked in the warmth and comraderie that existed between the three of us. Looking back, I treasure that morning more than nearly any other. Especially after what happened so soon after."
Chapter 2
Lena wandered around her room for awhile before sitting back down at the computer.
"Lex had returned while I was asleep so I was a little surprised to see him at breakfast the next morning. Usually Lex slept in after returning from a trip to see Father. I had a very difficult time looking at Lex, I was so embarrassed to have invaded the privacy that he and Clark shared. I ran out of the house with some half baked excuse of running late for school. As much as I had dreaded seeing Lex over breakfast, I knew that seeing Clark at school was going to be infinately worse. I was half relieved and half concerned when Clark didn't show up for school. For a senior like Clark, it was really not a huge deal that he take a day off especially when he so rrarely missed any school, but it wasn't like him. Pete and Chloe made some mention of it over lunch, blaming it on the flu bug that was going around, but I knew the truth of the matter. Clark was avoiding school and he was avoiding me. School seemed to drag on but finally the final bell rang and I left in a hurry, ditching my friends and trying to hurry home. Lex was home when I got there and didn't seem to take the hint that I was not wanting to talk to him. Funny how everyone has always had the same sort of impression of Lex, that he is cold and untouchable, but that isn't the reality of Lex Luthor. My brother feels very deeply and any one who takes the time to really get to know him will find that out. Maybe it was the affect of having Clark around but I truly doubt it, its just his true self, the mask is the unfeeling rich brat, but being raised by our father would cause a person to hide everything away from the world."
"I was hiding out in my room when he came knocking. He made small talk, asking how school went and if I felt alright. He told me that he had tried to call Clark and Mrs. Kent had told him that Clark was down with the flu. The servants had told him that Clark had come over yesterday and had left rather abruptly. I told him that I felt fine, that it was just a hectic day at school. Lex didn't look like he believed me, but got up to leave my room. He stopped at the doorway and spoke gently, telling me that if I needed to talk, about anything, he was there for me. It was so absolutely ridiculous that I wanted to laugh. How was I going to tell him that a) his little sister was some sort of mind reading freak and b) I had mind raped his lover while he was away. Brotherly devotion is only going to go so far. I fumbled around in my room for awhile before completing my homework and deciding to tell the servants that I would eat in my room. I finally fell asleep but spent most of the night haunted by the images I had seen in Clark's mind. Lex had left early for the plant so I was spared having to deal with him over breakfast. Clark was absent from school for the rest of the week and I slowly was drowning in misery since it was my fault. If I hadn't been so stupid as to try to seduce him, none of this would be happening. Lex was becoming quite concerned as Clark still wasn't taking his calls and the Kents refused to let Lex come over. One thing about being able to read minds, its not the reading of minds that is the hard part, its the not reading them that is difficult. Lex broadcast his distress and there was no way that I could shut it out. By the end of the week, I knew that something had to be done, for everyones sake. I snuck out of the house and went over to the Kent's farm. I was met at the door by Mr. Kent. Jonathon Kent is a good man, his greatest strength is his love for his family. His weakness, his stubborn dislike for anything or anyone remotely connected to the Luthor name. I will give him credit though, here was one of those 'Luthor people' standing at his door and he didn't slam it in my face. I asked him if I could see Clark and he tried to make the excuse of Clark still being sick. I went against my principles then and gently touched his mind. I wasn't surprised to learn that Mr. Kent blamed Clarks isolation on Lex and I. Clark hadn't told his parents that what had happened but the Kent's are not stupid people. They knew that something bad had happened and whatever it was, the Luthors were involved. I saw that Clark was in the barn loft and that unless he was helping his parents, he remained there, not eating and not talking to anyone. I told Mr. Kent to relay the message that I had been there and made as if to leave. Instead of leaving, I went to the barn and up to the loft to see Clark sitting there in the dark. My heart went out to him, he looked so lost. I coughed to let him know that someone was there and without turning he addressed me by name. I was a little taken aback by that and I knew that he knew that as well. I told him that we needed to talk and asked if it would be okay to turn on the light. Clark shrugged his shoulders and told me to do as I pleased. I almost wish I hadn't turned on the light. He looked so shrunken and defeated that I wanted to cry."
"I could see that he had been crying himself and that was all it took for my self control to break. I did start crying then and kept apologizing telling him that it was all my fault, that I had never meant to hurt him and that I wished I had never been born. Clark looked up at me at that, confused. He asked me what I meant by that and everything came spilling out. I told him about my parents, about my mother's death, the boarding school and how I started hearing peoples thoughts. I told him everything including how I had once used my ability to cheat on a test at school and then the conversation came around to the incident at the pool. I kept apologizing to him, telling him I was an idiot to have tried to seduce him and that I hadn't meant to hurt him like I did. I explained that most of the time that I could control it but something had happened when we touched and things went to hell in a handbasket. Clark kept trying to interrupt me and blame himself, but there was no way that he could convince me. We both sat there crying for what seemed like forever. We purposely avoided the subject of his relationship with Lex until we were cried out. It was Clark that brought it up. I told him that I had no problem with it since I loved both of them and only wanted what was best for them. He told me that Lex had wanted to be open about the relationship but he had refused. He was afraid of what it would do to his parents and especially his father who was not overly fond of anything to do with the Luthors. I laughed at that, and told him that he was being very kind in phrasing it that way. Clark joined me in the laughter and I could tell that it was the first time that he had even smiled since that day. I let him know that avoiding Lex was not going to work for much longer and that if he didn't do something very soon, I would beat him senseless and kidnap him. He looked at me for a minute, then burst out laughing again. It was contagious and I kept picturing me trying to knock him over the head and breaking everything that I used. That was how Mrs. Kent found us, rolling with laughter and looking like a couple of fools. She asked Clark if he was finally feeling better and her smile lit up her eyes when Clark nodded that he did. Clark told her that he was going to come over to the mansion, but she shook her head no, telling him that he definately would need to clean up first. I let Clark know that I would wait for him and drive him. Clark ran down the steps to the loft and Mrs. Kent pulled me aside while her son went to get ready. She said that I was far more like my mother than my father and that I shared my mother's bravery and caring nature. I was flattered by the compliment. She also told me that while her husband might not choose to see what was in front of him, that she was definately not similarly blinded. She said that Clark had never been able to keep anything from her and she had suspected all along that Lex and Clark were growing closer than being simply friends. She smiled at me then and told me that she was grateful that I had come and that she would deal with her husband. He might not like it at first but she had learned in the years of her marraige how to best deal with Jonathon Kent. I so wanted to hug her at that moment but held back out of fear that i would lose control of my ability again. It was Mrs. Kent that pulled me into her embrace and thankfully nothing more than that happened. We heard the car horn honking and she stepped back, looking into my eyes for a moment. She told me to tell Clark that he would be expected home the next afternoon, then hurried me out to the car."
"As Clark and I drove back to the mansion, we both were lost in thought. Not quite sure that I knew what I was doing, I pulled the car over to the side of the road and turned to Clark. I told him that we needed to talk before we arrived at my home and saw Lex. Clark agreed and I asked him if he would keep my secret, I didn't think that the world was ready to know about either of us just yet and there was no way that I thought Lex would be able to handle his reunion with Clark on top of finding out that Clark and I both were 'gifted'. Clark understood my concerns and had no desire to be poked and prodded by scientists trying to figure out what made either of us the way we were. I hugged Clark in thanks, making sure that our skin didn't make contact, but whatever forces had shaped us no longer seemed to require that skin to skin contact and I started being overwhelmed by the force of Clark's emotions and his raw hunger for Lex before I could break away. Letting out a breath that I wasn't even aware that i held, I looked and Clark and told him that we 'really' needed to get going. Clark laughed and apologized for his impatience. A few minutes later, we were pulling into the driveway of the mansion. We went into the house and it didn't take long to track down Lex who was in the study. I left Clark in the hall with a wink and entered the lion's den. Lex jumped up to start yelling at me for worrying him by sneaking out, but seemed a little taken aback when I put my finger to my lips signalling him to be quiet. Smiling at him, I told him that I had found something he had lost. He looked bewildered at this but the look on his face quickly turned to one of pure joy when Clark entered the room. It didn't take a mind reader to be able to tell that Lex wanted nothing more than to run to Clark and take him into his arms, but his desire conflicted with trying to maintain both his composure and the secret Clark had insisted that he keep, so he stood there simply staring at Clark. I couldnt help giggling at my brother, I had never before seen him at such a loss for words and action. I told him that it was okay and that I knew about their relationship and that since both of them were being foolish, I had taken matters into my own hands. I left them standing together in the study making sure that I let Clark know his parents would expect him back the next afternoon. I closed the doors to the study behind me but not before hearing Clark tell Lex that there was no need to hide anymore. Feeling quite pleased with myself, I went to grab a bite to eat in the kitchen before retiring to my room for the night. I slept peacefully for the first time in a week."
"Clark met me at breakfast the next morning and told me that Lex was still asleep. He looked like a completely new person and the familiar sparkle was back in his eyes. He stood there dressed in Lex's robe and I wondered at how I could have possibly not seen what was now so clear. The Luthor family crest on the robe seemed to fit him as well as it did Lex. The simple act of wearing the robe let everyone know that he had accepted his place as belonging with Lex and Lex with him. We sat in silence for a few minutes then Clark began speaking softly. He thanked me again for helping at which I laughed a little bitterly. He shook his head, and explained that my acceptance of their relationship meant everything to him. Lex came down to breakfast then, kissing Clark gently on the forehead before hugging me. He tried to expres his gratitude as well, but fumbled over the words, finally giving up completely and hugging me again. It was a few minutes before I realized that Lex had touched me and the contact hadn't triggered my power. Feeling more relaxed than I had in some time, I basked in the warmth and comraderie that existed between the three of us. Looking back, I treasure that morning more than nearly any other. Especially after what happened so soon after."
